Saturday, March 28, 2009
11:45 PM
isit dis world been more n more corrupted and infected...or isit mi tt is lagging behind times..or rather say still having de conservative thinking...i suddenli felt..wierd n out of place..
i juz talked to a secondary sch fren and realised tt he alrdy had sex before alrdy...even tried one night stand..he says de feel sux...but having sex wif ur loved ones is pleasurable..ok watever..i asked him but how u initiate it...dun u feel like a teeko when u ask ur gf whether u can do it wif her anot..but he juz said dunnid say..de time will come when it comes..den i was asking..dunnid ask permission 1 meh...is like juz do it? is like i feel tt if nvr ask permission like is dam nvr respect de galfren la...
another case is my bunk mate which he looks kind of a decent fellow...but recently den i realised tt he had his 1st time when he was sec 3...and another guy in my unit telling mi tt he had done it wif his gf alrdy oso....
when they tell mi all these..i will feel wah and stunned...but to dem or mabbe mani mani ppl..it is rather common...i juz felt tt at such a age...i juz feel tt it will be wierd n inappropriate doing tt...
de love i xpect has always been de sweet sweet experience...he care for she..she care for he...happily ever after...when she is tired..he will carry her on his back...when she is upset..he will gif her a hug and pat her on her back and says "it's alright...i will always be here wif u"...when she is sleepy aft a day's shopping..he will let her lean on his shoulder to slp...when she is sick...he will buy some medicine or herbal drinks and pay her a visit at her hse...when she is bored...he will talk to her over de fone or sms her to keep her entertained...when she misses him...he actuallis misses her as well...
but i nvr ever tink tt sex shuld occur...i dunno....feeling rather confused now oso...coz no matter whichever side is right or wrong..or mabbe both aren't wrong...is my tinking right now tt is out of place and so different...
mabbe wat i xpect in love is more of de emotional care...
BANKAI!!!