Sunday, April 29, 2007

sorry for nt going wif kh, ys, maggie, net, junhui and asha tgt...coz i m seriously broke n negative...sorry sorry....

today is sunday ONCE again...de sucky day...bt today is nt as bad as usual sundays...coz i spent my time watching tv...新九品芝麻官...de whole plot is full of twist n turns...i juz watched de last case dey fight la...

song shi jie, a famous lawyer in de ancient times...met into a gal...known as zhan rou....at tt time...zhan rou is de gf of a ranked-9 officer...called lu xiao feng....but zhan rou has shown tt she has fallen in love wif shi jie...and shi jie loved her as well...so in e end...shi jie n zhan rou r tgt...leaving xiao feng heart-broken....but aft tt...he climbed up....shi jie decided to help zhan rou to redress de grievance of her family case...which is all 14 lives lost in 15 yrs ago....and the culprit is a ranked-1 officer in capital....dey set off to capital and aft much obstacles....emperor finally allow for dem to re-open the case...on the court....immediately...a truth is revealed...tt zhan rou and her uncle actualli purposely lure shi jie into the picture to help dem wif de case....thrughout...zhan rou nvr loved xiao feng before....she is juz using him to lure shi jie and both shi jie and xiao feng....totally felt like a fool....shi jie cnt take de fact tt despite his brillance...he is fooled like a monkey by de gal he loved...in e end...shi jie went crazyy....de ranked-1 officer tell him....u r destined to be defeated by de word"LOVE".....but in e end...shi jie's craziness is faked...so tt he can save himself and the lives of his family....and to search for evidence in de meanwhile...finally....everythin is resolved and de ranked-1 officer's evil deed is exposed....by some smart tricks tt shi jie pulled...using de officer's wife.....who is crazy n being kept in his residence....de times when shi jie is deemed as crazy by other ppl....he is being kept in de residence where de wife lives....becos is onli when shi jie is wif de wife...de wife finally smiled...for 15 yrs aft de wife went bonkers...she nvr smiled once..and shi jie's arrival make her smile...and de ranked-1 officer kept de crazy shi jie wif his wife under 1 roof so as to make her happi....he thinks tt mabbe is becos both r crazy...and mabbe in their world...dere is some hapiness tt other ppl dun understand....but in e end de officer was wrong...shi jie is nt crazy....and before the officer is being thrown into de prison...shi jie tell him..." u once told me tt i will be defeated by de word"LOVE"...but aren't u de same....."

anyway..in e end shi jie is tgt wif zhan rou....coz zhan rou did loved him aft being tgt wif him....and zhan rou is oso being used by her own uncle....

宋世杰一世英明，但最后他还是败在一个“情“字手上，陆小凤堂堂九品官员，两个人就被一个女人当成了她棋盘上的一粒棋子，到最后，张大人，一品官员，也是被一个“情”字给毁了。
或许，这就是所谓的，英雄难过美人关。

mabbe such a short summary will confuse u all...and dun understand de whole plot of de show...but is ok...juz a brief n dam brief summary abt tt show nia....

in ur eyes....dere is onli him.....
him, him and juz him....
yst is him...and aft i got over it...aft a night's sleep...
i pluck up courage...i stand up once again...i attempt again....
and today....it is still him....
i m tired....but i still end my sms wif a smiley....

我不想当笨蛋 我在墙上写满渴望
i m nt an idiot..i noe everythin...

BANKAI!!!

Saturday, April 28, 2007

de world disappoints me too much....haix...

我想问路，请告诉我到你的心里该怎么走
我迷路了，我他妈的果然是路痴

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I WAN DO PULL UP!!!!

haix...when will my stupid hand recover completely la...cnt do pull up..cnt do pumping..cnt train wushu wif my surbodinates...dam sian la...tml training will be my mugging session again le...boring life...ma de....i tink my 6 pull ups is gonna be gone soon n real real soon man....OH MAN...time to re-train aft my hand recover...which i hope will happen soon...my hand still cnt turn sia....and nt 100% strength has returned...onli around mabbe 25% or even less?...i oso cnt micro in dota wif my hands wrapped up like a dunno wat....today own-ed in dota again...yst oso own..today oso own...everyday oso own...recently gettin more n more zai le...shuai la...naix holy shit 11-2....cool man...

today met up wif olk to study tgt....it is good...efficient i can say....dota we own tgt...studies we pia tgt....dis is de shuang feeling....since heaven always wanna me dead....i shall play wif him....i will show him who is de boss....

i m the boss of my life...so i decide my own fate....u siam...

went to cut hair today...cock up la..ma de...look like a bowl liddat...wat stupid QB house at causeway...muz be pirated version of EC house...shuld be named CU house....(COCK UP HOUSE) haix...sian liaoz...tml sure tio laughed at...suan le...sui bian ba....

i miss u.... :)

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

recently nvr blog as often le...coz i m indeed quite busy....i finalli started a bit of mugging...dis is good man...sometimes juz doing the hwk makes me feel satisfied sia....and i noe it myself...tt if i were to study....i can do it...juz tt for de past 17 yrs of my life...i haf been lazy to study...and now...i shall fufill my promise...to study aft wushu comp...

i gonna prove to dose ppl who tink tt i m thrash or watever shit de...and let dem noe...is juz de matter wif whether i wanna study anot....but it nids time...to catch up....JIAYOU!!!

studying can oso help me to forget abt u at tt moment....when i m realli focused on my studies...shuai ar....shuang ar...and i juz alt tab around study n dota....dota den study den study finish dota again....juz studies n dota...plain n simple...

CREDITS TO OLK FOR HIS GUIDANCE IN MY STUDIES!!!
SHUAI DAI LE!!!!

MUGGER'S LIFE!!!

if onli u r by my side....
if onli i can help u in ur studies...
den u can ask me instead of him nxt time....
i will strive to reach the maximum std. of studies...
i name it...i do it....
all i need is time....
AND U....
你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把爱当游戏
我却爱得太用力

BANKAI!!!

recently nvr blog as often le...coz i m indeed quite busy....i finalli started a bit of mugging...dis is good man...sometimes juz doing the hwk makes me feel satisfied sia....and i noe it myself...tt if i were to study....i can do it...juz tt for de past 17 yrs of my life...i haf been lazy to study...and now...i shall fufill my promise...to study aft wushu comp...

i gonna prove to dose ppl who tink tt i m thrash or watever shit de...and let dem noe...is juz de matter wif whether i wanna study anot....but it nids time...to catch up....JIAYOU!!!

studying can oso help me to forget abt u at tt moment....when i m realli focused on my studies...shuai ar....shuang ar...and i juz alt tab around study n dota....dota den study den study finish dota again....juz studies n dota...plain n simple...

CREDITS TO OLK FOR HIS GUIDANCE IN MY STUDIES!!!
SHUAI DAI LE!!!!

MUGGER'S LIFE!!!

if onli u r by my side....
if onli i can help u in ur studies...
den u can ask me instead of him nxt time....
i will strive to reach the maximum std. of studies...
i name it...i do it....
all i need is time....
AND U....
你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把他当游戏
我却爱得太用力

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, April 22, 2007

fuck sunday la....
sunday always make me feel empty n luan....
CHEE BYE

i no more energy play wif u le...
is e end...fuck care le...

BANKAI!!!

finished dota...16-3 wif meepo...shuai dai le....aft hand break i realise i keep owning in dota....mabbe dis is wat they call gif n take man.....

juz did a test foward by joanna....
test result : you are the grass-fragrance type
you have very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone-ranger. You are extremely curious and sensual, living a clear-headed, modern life. At first glance you place yourself on a pedestral, and are difficult to get along. But once others talk to you, they know you are easygoing. And when the relationship develops, they realise you are affable. You have an androgynous charm, which makes you popular with all genders. But you dun like your weak side to be seen. You might look cool on the outside, but beneath it all, you are really passionate. Only people who know your true self can maintain a long-lasting relationship with you.
some part zhun some part nt ba...welll...i cnt judge myself...so is up to u all to determine tt...

2+am le..gonna sleep soon man....tml try do a bit hwk ba...
oh man...tml is sunday again...shacks...

BANKAI!!!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

today is family day...qte lame...i overslept la...wake up at 8.30....guess recently haf been tiring for me...den go to sch alrdy 9+ le...so go n find shuwen n cw...den we spas around...den family day finally ended...so i go back to de stall to bid gd bye...den of coz some scolding comes....

haix...juz to inform u ba...i m seriously tired abt life le...and now i m juz giving some face to u since u r a gal...but every1 has a limit...if u were to scold me and gif tt fucking disgusted look in front of the cls...i gonna show some attitude le....u shuld be qte lucki tt u r a gal...if nt my fist is alrdy right in ur face long ago...diff ppl haf diff expectations in life...so pls dun force ur own expectations on other ppl...de fact tt i dun go to our cls booth is nt becos i dunwan do work...sitting dere see ppl play marble beri hard meh...of coz not...but it is tt i sit dere oso cannot find some1 for me to talk...i prefer my wushu mates...GOT IT?...and dis is becos de cls juz doesnt suit me...going into de cls will onli gimme stress n nth else...espicially when u r always shouting around like a mad dog...and showing tt despised n disgusting look....i dun realli fucking care abt de cls la....so u dunnid care abt wat i do too....
*clarify: i dun haf anythin against most ppl in cls...pls dun misunderstand*

aft tt went to see tie da wif shuwen n cw...always dem accompany me de la...haha....gratitude in my heart although i nvr say anythin....den went wif wushu peeps to daryl hse watch saw 3....gross show la...ma de...watch until muscle all tensed up....

den stay until a bit late sia...so go home le....now gonna dota....wulala...

in e end...i still fail...haha....like a spas....
juz tryin to get over la....
yawns...life is tiring man....
我说过的我是恶魔
而你就是云端的天使,有洁白的羽毛和灿烂的笑容,你在云端向我招手微笑.
我快乐得想哭,我想你为什么要招手呢?恶魔是去不了天堂的......你不知道吗?
我无论如何也到不了你的天堂~~~~
飞马不懂木马原地旋转的忧伤.永远也不会知道~~~

BANKAI!!!

i miss chs days...where my cls makes me feel happi...where my cca is equally heaven....
we r all fooling ard....

but coming into JC...things change...ppl no longer agree wif my attitude tt i carry in chs...but trust me...i dun realli care...

sometimes feel tt not mani take me as a close fren...or mabbe nt even a fren...bt it doesnt matter...i agree tt my char has changed a lot since i leave chs....to de more quiet n loner side...i prefer my char during chs...de lively n fun me...but mani things haf changed me...

watever it is...it doesnt realli matter...
sleep earli....eat healthy...frenz many....die anyway....

to be serious...the above mentioned is not joking...i realli dun mind if i haf mani frenz anot...
i m used to it ever since JAE starts....and everythin changes...
no frenz so wat...u r nt sharing coffin wif ur frenz in future anyway...

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

recently keep sleeping...lecture sleep...tutorial sleep...break go nexus sleep...aft sch oso go nexus sleep...haix...my blog sentence is true to a dam dam large extent...i dun mind sleeping forever if i can forget u....

sometimes some things juz make me feel so sian...but it is a fact tt i haf to accept....

原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我爱到累了
i dun feel like holding on anymore le...it is tirng...no matter wat i do...how hard i try...it wun change anythin...it wun change ur feelings towards me...it wun change the outcome...de ending of de story is juz nth but a sad ending...fairytales dun exist in reality indeed...
i wan to be more than frenz wif u...

BANKAI!!!

now in free access room...pon GP lecture again....is de 3rd week tt i nvr go for GP lecture le....i tink de GP lecture is rather a waste of time...go in oso sleep...boring useless thingy...lolz...shall not comment anymore...

today emergency drill is rather fun...bt sad tt is appear at de wrong time...and tt is during PE...when i can slack becos of my hand...shuld haf happened during phy tutorial lor...mentioning phy tutorial...it sux man...today i tio caught by Mr. Ari for nt doing tutorial...he rarely check de den today suddenly crazy n check...but i came up wif de excuse tt comp. juz ended...den he say so i will be prepared for nxt tutorial right...can i say NO?...i dun think so ba...so nxt tutorial i haf to complete it...haix a bit sian...i n cw actin spas...we acting like de fire is so real...i still sms him to be careful hor...got fire....den he wanna reply..."i running lyk mad now" but before he can do tt...i saw him n he juz show me de text he typed....sixu act as traumatised kid...qte spas...juz nice for him...spas person acting spas role....PERFECT!!

now nth much le...apart for my hand...i left wif 1 hand!!!!....sian diao...usually i alrdy beri tired wif life le...and tt is when i using 2 hands...now everythin muz be done wif 1 hand...i felt qte tiring sometimes...even typing this post is bloodi tiring for me...haf to use 1 hand to type sometimes den if too tired den de useless left hand come out help a bit bt of coz it is rather slow la...typing is my forte and now it is so screwed...ma de....cock up life....i oso rather worried tt my bone crack..coz de tie da master say is knock tio...but mabbe bone crack a bit....sian la...pls dun lor....i hope faster recover den i can use both hands...now easily tio bullied lor...cnt use my authority n violence easily le....but hor sometimes realli will dam pain...is like i nvr move the hand oso will pain la...dunno wat is wrong...de most tiring part is bathing...i cnt let my bandaged hand get in contact wif water....sian...challenging man...

thx for every1 who show concern for my hand and help me do things when i cnt seem to do dem right due to my hand....especially cw...kr...shuwen...von...and sher....haha...bt dun let ur guard dwn...coz before i recover...i haf to cont to depend on u all le...haha....

i shall not type on le..my hands tired le....

i tend to miss u when u r nt around...FUCK MAN....
i felt helpless....
cw...i m wif u!!!!....we r de same...
pathetic pieces of shit....
mabbe 1 day when i m realli sian le...i wun care abt anythin le...
当你说要走，我不想回首的时候
爱情，终究是一场梦
suddenly...i dun wish tt my JC life will end so fast...and i hope u wun leave me so fast....

BANKAI!!!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

wushu comp end le...felt empty n a bit bu she de suddenly....i promise...i will miss the carpet....

today grp event...my fav...yet...i cock up everythin....sorry my teammates....

1stly, grp quan event....DA DING i actualli drop?.....wif hands somemore and i can drop and wat is worse is i m an experienced DA DING-ER le....sian la...the least to be expected to drop actualli drop....i realli sian le...repeat last yr mistake...drop in DA DING....total disappointment in myself...got 3rd anyway....if nt perhaps can 2nd....

i shall not think too much n move on to weaponary event le....

weaponary event....everythin is good....my timin is clear n loud...every1 is qte齐...the 气势 also dere....but until de jump n land part....i did...and my hand actualli got sprained...i felt de intense pain in my left hand right aft i land...to the pt where i even forgot to stand up n cont...so i lag a bit for tt part...but aft tt i cont to endure n look like nth happen....to the end...my 马步 got affected and a bit unsteady....and to the last 摆装..i can see my hand shivering like siao when i straighten it...the dagger felt so dam heavy....i endured....hoping tt the last part can hold for at least 3s....and finished the whole thingy wif a bang....we walk out of the carpet...every1 satisfied...until i pass sixu my dagger n drop to de floor...grabbin onto my hand....it is dam pain....den they realise....and the score is rather disappointing too....if onli i din sprain my hand...and every mistake behind wun happen...i cock up again....

aft tt my left hand becum rather useless....haix...i tink needa see doc le...sian....the whole hand is swollen now...and dam pain....the journey home is dam straining n tiring...right hand carrying 2 costumes and 2 1.5litre 100plus....and left hand a handphone...yet...the handphone felt heavier than the content in the right hand...i can no longer carry anythin wif my left hand...i was sweating like siao during the journey home...i juz hope to reach home asap n drop everythin n juz sleep....but blog le den sleep ba...sleep le den hand will feel less pain...DAM DAM PAIN NOW.....FUCK LA.....

thx jiao lian for the sakae treat....
thx every1 who care for my injured hand...AJC...CHS...jiao lian...shuwen....
thx shuwen for tt card....u rox!....but i rox too!!!....SAKAE IDOL!!!!
thx alex for his generosity.....CHS ROX...I LOVE EVERY1 OF U!!!!

today is a rather happy day...i love today....yet cnt bear to part wif today....
i haf left the carpet wif regrets.....OH MAN!
u r a faraway dream.....
明明很爱你
明明想靠近
但是你的身边有人捧花总是拥挤
我凭什么一一打败情敌
i m nt worth a cent....so how can i beat the other dollar notes when i m lower in value as compared to dem....

BANKAI!!!

Monday, April 16, 2007

no matter how mani times i tell myself nt to think abt it le....
no matter how mani times i tell myself to gif up.....
i still cnt do it....
let nature take its course ba....

谁不希望跟爱的人爱到老
谁不想早上起床有人拥抱
爱情这东西没有人会不要
但幸福要靠两人把手牵好
i dun tink i m able to achieve it....
suan le...anythin ba...

BANKAI!!!

now in free access room...going for econs tutorial soon...i seriously hate monday la...espicially the last period tt end the sucky day...2 hrs of phy lab...ma de...

recently my mood is like so sian...dunno y oso...perhaps lose interest in watever tt is happening in my life le ba....i m falling in love in this bloodi nice song here....which is my blog song....take a look at the lyrics under the section "my feelings"....it rox man....dam dam nice...the music is dere...the lyrics is dere...the feeling is dere...listen listen can feel emo de....sad songs tend to be nicer than happy songs....coz de lyrics in happy songs rarely come true but lyrics in sad songs occur 9 out of 10 times in life....sad songs rox....

haix...4 more mins to econs tutorial...sian diao....later i shall try to be late a bit...AS USUAL....drag a bit time to skip a bit of lesson oso qte shuang....wushu comp. is de best....all 5 days pon lesson until like nobody business liddat....i bet ys is feeling jealous of me man....haha...kh oso qte naughty...he keep falling sick den pon...den left ys alone....lolz lor....sad life...

the E learning everythin oso unsettled....wow la...wonder how i gonna catch up in my studies....but i realise sth....in tutorial...my stress lvl keep on increasing....so if the tutorials continue to pressure me....perhaps i will juz gif up 1 day lo....i prefer to catch up at my own pace..lolz....

opps...bell juz rang....gotta pack up n go for econs tutorial le...lolz...

now is ur turn to haf ur break while i go off for lesson.....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

yst had a sleep-over at daryl hse...coz today dam dam dam earli muz go ubi for performance le...tryin to be funni...7.30am at eunos mrt station = 5.30 to wake up at woodlands...wat a joke for me to wake up at this guai lan timing....

anyway...aj wushu jacket is here...ok la...still nt bad...it was a good choice to choose XL size...wuahaha...i rox man...

finally done wif daryl n von de ajc idol blog le...a relief solved...now still got E learning sia...econs muz hand up tml....realise seriously got a lot things to do...ma de....sian liaoz....but i qte satisfied wif the blog...at least achieve sth in life...

happy bdae yumin....haha...the wild boar is now 1 yr older....

no italics today....

BANKAI!!!

Friday, April 13, 2007

ok..everythin i m clear le...thx to my ward....
虽然很痛，但至少我现在已经清楚了。
一切结束了。
我放弃。

PW result come back...gotten C...lolz...but nvm...

chem lesson i always hated the teaching n discussion grp....it juz stress me....stop forcing me le....ma de...i m reaching my limit.....

很想一辈子牵着你的手，走这迷宫似的人生曲径
但是我办不到
努力不一定会有回报，好人也不一定会有好报

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

i m sort of feeling qte sian now....haf been thinkin thrugh a lot of things.....a lot of things weighing on my mind...sort of killing me le...

STUDIES
haf been realli neglecting my studies since the start of the yr...becos of dota i guess....and now...wushu....wushu comp. and a lot of hwk start piling up le...i dunno wat to do anymore...i m seriously tired le...i hope i can pia aft wushu comp. since i m not so hooked onto dota as before le...now 1 week sometimes onli 2 days play lor....but i wonder if i can catch up....i m realli dam stressed up whenever teachers ask me for hwk or any qn they ask me...
请不要再逼我了

WUSHU
basically...yst nan gun is still in my mind....the disappointment is still dere....now i can onli look ahead....i hope tt our 2 grp event can get gold....grp event rox....and i believe we can do it de....jiayou ba!!!!
我除了第一，其他没有兴趣

SPA
tml is spa and yet i dunno a lot things abt skill A....i m realli worried now la....haix...i seriously hate dis....JC life sux.....
我什么东东都不懂

YOU
i dunno a damn thingy....i m dam confused....i felt dam spas...i noe tt is hopeless and i m still givin myself hope....i noe is false hope and yet i refuse to accept it...but deep inside my mind i m thinking....constantly thinking....wat do i mean to u...m i juz a normal fren?...do i stand a chance?
today ur words set me thinking abt this even more.....i m nt sian...nor m i pissed....but i m confused....i dun understand why u suddenly concerned abt whether i shelter the ice-cream or u....i m thinking....DAM BLUR NOW!!!!
i juz hope tt i will get a clear ans....yet i dun dare and dunno how to ask u....
我猜不到 你真正的感觉
我在你的心里 有没有一点的特别

HER
the strong feelin of guilt...i dunno wat else to say...other than a mere sorry....i noe dis is useless....but haix...sorry...everythin is my bad....i understand ur feelings....coz i m equally sian if i put myself in ur shoes...so i shall try not to hurt u further....
带给你的伤害，对不起也无法弥补

life juz sux...i wonder....when will my life span be up....
ASAP PLS!!!!

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

today is my last individual event....nan gun...i dun expect much coz i realli rarely practice...is RARE until cannot be any rarer le.....but i did better than wat i ownself expect myself to do....

when all the scores flash....i saw all above 8.....raw score in e end....8.06....WOOTS....

contestant no. 636...due to insufficient time....minus 0.1.....final score....7.96.....

the feeling of sian-ness emerge....totally sian diao....and i mean REALLI sian diao.....

the other contestants continue to display their taolu and 1 by 1...their score overtake me....

i got 6th....and why?

juz being short of 3s in the taolu cause me to lose my medal....from 4th to 6th.....

the feeling of bu gan xin sets in....it kills me totally...i din expect much and if i lose...is ok....but why did heaven gif it to me n juz before i receive it...he crush it in front of my face.....3 second....i ponder.....why cnt i do JUZ 3 second slower....JUZ 3 second n everythin will be different.....i will be smiling instead of frowning....JUZ 3 second n ajc will get 1 more point.....JUZ 3 second n jiao lian will feel satisfied...is nt the matter of whether i get a treat from jiao lian anot....but the matter of i lose my last individial event medal becos of 3 second....it culd be my last individual event nt juz this yr...perhaps my life le...enduring all the pain n strains....continue to train hard at last minute hoping tt i can salvage de situation...before going into the carpet....i tell myself...I CAN ONLI WIN....coz every1 is watching....and u r encouraging me...but i failed every1....but the person i failed de most....is MYSELF.....

i can onli say....
sorry jiao lian....haix....i haf disappointed u....
sorry yvonne....i still din make it in e end....
sorry aj wushu...i din contribute 1 more point to our score...
sorry gao yi....even after u teach me some of de things n offer to lend me ur rod...i still fail...

i dun feel like going sch tml....
i dun feel like facing any1....
i dun feel like talking....
3秒真的能改变一切，区区的3秒，我就失去了一切，我的希望，大家的期望，安初的欲望。

BANKAI!!!

Monday, April 09, 2007

today wushu comp....at 1st nt scared....den slowly slowly scared....den wait until sibei tulan....like no tml liddat....7+ den start my event...tryin to be funni....wait until wanna sleep le...den gan chiong oso....juz wanna faster do n over it....worried abt my butt injury oso...but in e end i did well :) got injury still can do until liddat i qte happi le la....injured like a dunno wat....

I GOT 4TH!!!!...haha...got medal le...yipee.....but hor...i tink got some parts cock up la....if nt mabbe better...but muz be contended....so i m happy enuff le....i shall credit jiao lian for teaching me n training me....von for being by my side n encouraging me...kr, cw n bj for always telling me my mistakes in nan quan.....xiongjiejie, yingtong, teng, wanqing for their jiayou.....shuwen for coming over n wait so long to see my event...yumin n helen for their sms.....yiming and zhijian for always praising me tt i got QI SHI...even though i noe i dun haf....haha....zhexu, sixu, olivia and every1 else who supported me....i lazy type all la....yong yuan and all the other chs peeps....and zhaoqin for his jiayou tag....haha....last but not least....shermin for watching me and supporting me too :)

but wat makes me most happy today is nt the 4th tt i got....but the fact tt u r beside me....and i realli feel happy tt u keep supporting me....even though is as a good fren....but i m contended....haha....simple things can make me happy de lor....haha....

since i m so happy now...i shall go dota n hope tt i can own a bit bit....shuang shuang....wed is another day...but less stressed...coz i dun realli care abt my nan gun....spas....JIAYOU FOR EVERY1 TML!!!!!

thx for everythin today....u rock my world man.....
OUCH....strains n bruise all over my body....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

i miss u...i dunno y but u keep appearing in my mind...ARGH.... (11.57am)

i feel like calling u to talk...coz i wanna hear ur voice....but i dun dare....(2.10pm)

i cnt stop myself not to sms u....i hate myself....i hope u will come online every moment...at least i can talk to u a little bit....(2.36pm)

fuck la...i still miss u...my heart in a turmoil le...wonder wat time u will come online...(3.17pm)

i sian le...mood slowly turning bad....i rot here rot dere for dam long le...i oso dunno wat i doing...quite crappp....wonder wat u r doing....(4.33pm)

from the fact tt u see me keep loggin in to add new sentence to this post can show how sian i am...SIAN DAO BAO!!!!.....stone mode now like mad....STONE STONE STONE...(5.14pm)

ok...tt is it...i cnt take the torment le....to stop thinkin of u...i shall go sleep...(5.37pm)

wake up le...mood is back to qte normal le...sleeping indeed help....now is worried abt tml and hope my butt will recover...(8.06pm)

no replies...call u halfway oso hang up...too humji le...suddenly hope tml faster come..at least got things to do...and can see u...(9.35pm)

lolz...felt spas...i realise i call e wrong number juz nw sia....opps....(10.30pm)

yipee...nice ending to today...get to talk to u online...nt bad la....JIAYOU FOR COMP TML.....3 cheers for aj wushu HIP HIP HOORAY (x3)...lazy type 3 times...so x3...haha...sweet dreams to u...NITEX...(11.44pm)

finally...this boring day has ended....tml is de day man....wulala...i m gettin heat up!!!

BANKAI!!!

Saturday, April 07, 2007

my mum juz rub my butt for me...i can onli endure...but it is nth compared to heart injury....

went to church wif von n sixu....the father talk can make me sleep...and it is sooooo no sense at all.....
i felt tt i m being xtra dere....and i felt tt u will choose to tell him ur troubles rather than me

went J8 to eat Tori Q at the rooftop....
ur sudden action worries me a lot....

today went for training again...i told jiao lian i cnt do 1 of the move in nan quan becos of my butt....he help me rub...it was HELLLL pain...i realli nearly cry....thx kr for lettin me grab...
it seems to me u doesnt care much....

worrying tt my butt cnt heal in time for monday comp...den nan quan will be realli gg.....this injury is weighin on my mind all these while....
all the other worries and troubles set in to kill my brain tgt....

start talkin to von abt some mrt thingy abt giving seats to elderly....
seeing ur inbox tt u del my msg and keep his msg sort of trigger everythin...

went to eat at coffeeshop and mi n kr had realli budgetting wallet....
i dun feel like talking at all....i m alrdy dam sian at this junction aft everythin tt happen today tt tires me...physically n mentally....

aft tt they ask for neoprint....and i prefer to meet wif teo n olk...so i rejected and off i go....
i m alrdy too sian for anythin le...i cnt even fake a smile to take neoprint....and i tink i might spoil the whole picture....

von come all e way inside the cinema toilet corridor to find me and drag me to take neoprint....
i dun understand why u still come and find me when u dun seem to care for me...when u dun seem to care abt my feelings...

stoning infront of the com aft i reach home feels good....
mabbe the com is still my best companion afterall....the world outside is too complicated n tiring for me...i shall stay in my cyberworld....

shall sleep soon perhaps....tml training again...WHAT THE FUCK!
i noe u r oso troubled....and i dun wish to add on to ur troubles...so i prefer tt u will juz leave me alone and settle ur troubles 1st....

will my bloodi useless n disobedient butt recover in time?...i shall ponder....
if i m nt wrong...a human is made up of 2 aspect...physical n mental.....and wat if both r equally cock up?....
u get a collapsing and emotion-less human.....and tt is no longer called a human i guess....it shuld be named as corpse....

我很累很累，随便吧

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, April 05, 2007

today butt reach limit....i cnt do a part of the nan quan le...due to the butt...haix...i realli can onli hope tt i will recover by monday...if not gg...thx to daryl for rubbing for me...haha....

i m gettin more n more tired as the days go by....if dere is a god up dere...juz take me away ba....i dunno why i exist oso....today bball...dota...everythin....i m no longer good at the things tt i m once good at....studies...frenship...everythin.....cock up....actually for the frenship i din realli care la...onli those tt treat me as brothers n frenz shall be seen as brothers n frenz in my eyes.....

recently having more n more heck care attitude le...."anythin ba" is the phrase...nothin matters anymore....nothin affects me anymore....for i no longer care...

mabbe is juz like wat kr says....i dun open up....

~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
wat i wanna say is
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
most ppl dun understand u
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
if understand u den all np le
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
perhaps i dunno hw to make ppl understand me ba
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
nt dunno how
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
juz tt u dun open up
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
u only open up 2 a few ppl
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
how to open up when they dun even understand
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
even if u tell dem
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
they will juz think tt u r finding excuses for ur actions
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
if u open up
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
bt they dun understand
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
den the prob is nt wif u
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
its wif them
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
4 nt being able 2 understand
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
if they wanna tink tt way after u spoke the truth
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
u cnt stop them
~[E]TERNAL~ the spiral of fate continues........ says:
u can only noe tt the person is some1 tt wun b able 2 understand u
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
actually it doesnt realli matter la..
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
amt of frenz doesn matter
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
quality does
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
u dunnid too mani close frenz
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
even if u haf 1
~[L]EGENDZ~ 好累好累, 随便吧 loner's life says:
u shuld be satisfied le

well...tt is abt it....

a loner nt neccessary means tt he doesnt nid fren....but it culd oso mean tt he nid xtra time n fate to find close frenz....for he is harder to be understood.....

qte tired le....my theme sort of fit my feeling....a snowing heart....a cold heart.....

我知道你关心我，但你从来没有爱过我
我从来不相信上帝的存在
因为如果他真的存在，他也太偏心了吧
但凡事都有两面
或许我要为你关心我而高兴，而不是为你不爱我而难过
谢谢你，看到了你的信息，感受到你的关心，我心满意足了

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

today late for sch...haix...all becos of butt pain....becos butt pain hinder my walkin...my walk to the mrt station from my hse drag for around 6 mins den i miss the train....but 1 surprise....when i was juz abt to put my bag dwn in the latecomer queue....cw walk in from the gate...we saw each other den stunned....haha...dam funny la....late tgt....the feeling at tt moment is dam dam dam lol...

whole body is full of bruise...my backbone....my butt....my 2 kneecap.....rather tiring to walk....tiring man...thx to xiongjiejie for helping me rub my knee bruise.... :)

pon econs lecture tio caught...haix...wat a suay day...go up take wushu room key oso can see miss quack...sai sia...immediately tio questioned....

self train today is another slacking session....went to support von n bangjie at aj idol audition...they did well....grats...and good job....

lying dwn at the bball court n lookin at the clouds n sky is so comfortable...the breeze blowing into my face....wat comfortable feeling man.....but tio called and asked to go back to wushu room...if not i will cont to lie dere for a while....

din went for dinner wif wushu....

i wonder if u noe tt when u r on tt stage....i m being worried for u in the audience seat....
i m worried tt u will forget ur lyrics....
i m worried tt u will start laughing....
i m worried tt u will go out of tune....
but i m glad....in e end u did well.....
but aft tt....i no longer exist....
i got so much to tell u....but u din appear....jiu suan le ba....
perhaps i can share ur troubles....but nt ur joy.....
我伪装着 不露痕迹的 想在你身边 静静的陪着看着天边

BANKAI!!!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

today training...my butt bruise is more n more pain...sai la...at another point...i tink my command is nt bad...shout qte loud oso...wuahaha....actually when i do grp event...i feel qte fun...haha....

painful butt sux la...haix...cnt even walk or sit properly...a bit bad mood due to this...den go home le...den other prob set in...daryl ask me find song lyrics den i type wrong song title den cnt find....den ask mum help me brew honey...she sarcastically say i got time talk on fone...no time brew...den say brew urself...but i qte a lot things to do...and mood nt beri good due to butt pain...sai...den start quarrelling...den the song sent by jiao lian now jam oso...i a bit tulan le...

guess every1 has been qte stressed up recently....the competition is closing in...and ppl start to panic...despair...and watever shit...but ppl hang on ba....dun gif up...giving up means admiting defeat....even if u wanna lose...lose wif glory....u wanna go up to ur opponent n tell dem u r a loser n juz gif dem the medal liddat or u wanna put in ur best and let dem noe tt u r a challenge and haf given dem a hard time in gettin a medal....i tink most wuld prefer the latter....

haix...now realli qte busy....i shall not blog on anymore.....zao ar....

i haf always placed high hopes on grp event...this yr is no exception....jiayou ba AJ WUSHU!!!
grp event rox....but sacrifices r to be made...eg r those bruise....
i hope we can get gold for at least 1 of the grp event...haf higher hopes on dagger...
点火 继续 事关 荣誉
我除了第一 其他没有兴趣

BANKAI!!!

today self train again...lolz...quite slack...as usual....

and wah lau...u all tryin to be funni ar...say me n xiongjiejie...but anythin la...i dun mind and dun care de...talk to xiongjiejie as usual...haha...she is still as encouraging as ever....

shuwen came back today....lolz...contributed me wif cookies....woots...u rock man...but sadded...i eat like 1/3 of a cookie onli....i kind ma...share the love....haha....and hor shuwen...muz believe me....when i say i not thinkin...i realli nt thinking la...i nt always think too much de la....haix...say until i suck liddat....

today did 2 sets of 5 pull up....wuahaha...i can do 5 la...1 more to 6 which is C....JIAYOU AR!!!!

today had a good talk...sort of clear everythin once again...the cool breeze and u make me feel peaceful and comfortable...

i sometimes juz dun understand the fact abt why christians n non christians cnt be tgt....all religions haf no such prob but christians...isit tt it sux?....or isit tt they r too stubborn....or the fact tt they r misintepreting wat religion realli means?.....
religion is a set of moral value basically....it let u hold on to dem so to mold u into a better person...u choose to believe and u follow the things they teach....the moral they impart...but when it comes to heart of the affair....u shuldnt mix it wif religion....i haf seen a lot christians handling bgr wif their religion...sometimes...when a gal luv a guy and a guy luv a gal...they can still break up due to christianity....why muz all these happen....why muz the gal break wif the guy juz becos he is nt a christian.....does it mean tt the gal luv jesus more than the guy...wat is jesus....jesus is a virtual image tt ppl refer to as GOD....but wat abt the guy tt u luv....he lose to somethin tt u din even see it but juz believing it based on wat other ppl say?...the bible says all tt...but is juz a bloodi book....in e end everythin is decided by U....are u telling me tt ur life is gonna be decided by a book?....by law set by the so-called GOD?......
heard tt jesus die on a cross to sacrifice for the fellow ppl....ok the fact abt he being noble shall nt be mentioned....but i dun believe tt juz dying on a cross can wash the sin of all mankind...every1 has to answer for his own action...the sins he commited....aft jesus die....wat makes u tink tt he still exist wif us spiritually....mabbe aft ppl die...they wun haf any feelings or there mabbe dun haf such things as ghost or souls....or mabbe aft they die...there is nth such as reincarnate...no matter wat it is...u will nvr noe until u die and experience urself....so y being so concerned abt sth tt u r nt 100% clear abt in the 1st place....
ppl can always say....and they always like to say...u cnt see god...but u can feel god....and the feelin is real....but haf u think thrugh it....den wat is the feeling u haf towards the guy u love...isit false den?...or juz tt the love u had towards a jesus is totally overriding the love u had towards a guy....
thrughout....i nvr say tt i m anti christians or wat....i m neutral towards christians and i accept all religion...but i m dam dam bui song wif this stupid law tt "christians cnt be tgt wif non christians becos they r spiritually uneven and watever crap reason" it makes no sense....total senseless....if jesus is tt GREAT....will he mind in the 1st place tt u r tgt wif a non christian and becos of tt he is gonna hate u n label u as a sinner?....if tt is the case...this jesus aren't tt GOD n GREAT afteralll...
this whole paragraph abt christianity is nt abt my case...juz a general feeling of mine becos i haf seen many christians wif such thinkings....and sometimes i m sort of pissed off....sorry...

u lead ur own life...u decide ur own life....
jesus guide ur life perhaps...
but ur feelings can guide ur life even better....
OWN FEELINGS OVERRULES JESUS LAW.....
be a supporter of christianity...but not a blind follower....
think thrugh it ba...
if any christians come upon this blog n this post...
sorrry but i wun retrieve my words...for this is how i feel.....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

happy april fool day....actually april fool day is always my fav. day....juz nice for a playful boi like me....but this yr's april fool doesnt seem special to me...guess becos is weekend so cnt go sch play ppl...oso guess is becos i haf become more n more loner and less playful.....no longer tt hyperactive as i used to be in chs...coz life realli drain ppl....

today is generally a boring day...meet wif cw n kr to go J8 and the main aim is to cut hair...cut MY hair...it is kinda screwed now la...the fringe...but who cares...coz no1 bother....nacho cheese from breadtalk rox as ever...cw muz thank me....i recommend a good bread to u sia....thx to kr for the free mcfury....wuahaha...1st time so kind ar....aft a while we went home....

*this particular para is for xiongjiejie*
although dunno why u feel emo today....i m always by ur side....haha...u r my xiongjiejie...my meimei....dunnid feel so emo la...although mi myself quite emo today oso...haha....coz i miss her :)
mabbe u oso got some1 u miss badly...but ask u always deny n say u type shuang de...nvm ba...when u feel like telling me den tell me...haha...i shall wait....

today i realli miss u a lot a lot...i trying to control myself nt to sms u....for i m worried tt it might bother u....2 days without sms-ing u sux...i m realli dying now...today whole day nvr see u nor hear ur voice nor sms u...total ZERO contact...deep inside my heart...i m thinking abt wat u r doing....i m thinking abt where u are...i m thinking if u will sms me...whenever a sms comes....it gif me hope....but aft clicking "view"....the hope is always gone...its not u....
guess i haf been dreaming....a far away dream....but i hope...every dream of mine will haf u in the scene...at least tt is the onli place where i can find hapiness wif u....the lala land....
我伪装着, 不露痕迹的 想在你身边, 静静的陪着看着天边

BANKAI!!!

went kr hse for lunch and watch 300....is a bloodi nice show ba...spartans rox...they nvr gif up...they nvr surrender....they put in their best despite the large diff in their army number....they noe tt it is a gg...but they juz fite to the last...to the last troop...to the last soldier...to the last breath.....they fite wif might....die wif glory.....well down spartans....
the same thingy can go to wushu as well....no matter how lousy u feel u are....juz cont. to work hard...dun gif up and by giving up....u r telling ur opponent how useless u are....and u r giving them the seat without any challenge...even if u lose...lose wif glory....

went for wushu training AGAIN....i can onli say i m qte screwed in my tao lu...haha...nvm la...who cares....the grp event i see some light...finally la...but i got a serious baluku on my butt le..is realli swollen la?.....i do the stunt den liddat le...jump and land and POP...baluku come out...sai la...now press = pain...sian diao....wateva ba...it doesnt realli matter...

the performance is nt bad....yumin ar!!!...indeed u screw up la...but nvm la...is a lesson learnt...dun daydream....i can try to show u how to cont de lor...but chen lao shi blocking...stupid obstacle sia...paiseh....my bad...

aft tt went eat...mood gotten a bit bad due to the baluku tt causes me pain when i walk...and dunno why oso...but aft tt ok le...haha...

aft eating went home wif cw....as usual...we chat abt everythin under the sun....aft tt went home alone...falling sleep in the train...sleepy sia...

OWNED IN DOTA....shuang...today is indeed a nt bad day la.....i like today....

today is another happy day for me....hope my everyday will be like today....
juz talking to u is happy enuff man.... :)

BANKAI!!!