Tuesday, September 30, 2008

juz here to conclude....

thx for all de present...

my brothers for de speaker...
kr and cw for de adult shirt... (wee i m adult le)
shuwen for de ultimate frame... (dunno wat is tt called oso)
yk for de spas art... (LOL)
my dad for de goggles... (looks qte cool on me)
my mum for de hongbao... (money is de most practical lol...but i haben open yet)
last but nt least...
myself for de psp.. (BEST PRESENT! haha)

and to update on de bdae wishes...
coz i rarely play facebook...haha...
until i checked my mail tdy....
frenster testi as well....
i gotta thank them for de bdae wishes on de wall...
and de testi....

cheryl de great... (haha she used to wan mi call her this spas name..so i shall carry on)
cat... (kfc colleague...wow she rmb my bdae...shuld be facebook remind her de ba)
admad... (this is 1 sweet dude..lol)
wesley lim.. (o wow man...LOL)
wanling... (haha thx lots le)
priya... (1 of de few indian good frenz i haf...since my eng so cui)
maggie... (my 7 wonders)
ten... (wat a faraway wish...msia kia man)
clement as well... (he sent mi on email...wat a spas kia)
hongchia... (lol...he rmb my bdae...zai!)
charlie... (this asshole still haben take A lvl...escaped NS for dis year..lucky shyt)
yiming... (wells..i returned de favour..tdy is his bdae..lol)


btw...i go see my past frenster testi...haha...i still qte de same sia...always kena lied to...as 1 of de testi says...i m easily gullible...zzz...how true...joel always say so too...ma de....
anyway...all de testimonials juz bring back memories...i saw shikai de...saw bryan de...saw kr and cw de...saw jason hoon de...and mani mani more....de chs peeps....

my testi is pathetic...43 nia...lol....

I LOVE MY PSP~
LAVENDER PURPLE!~

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

tdy finalli bballed...however it is qte a flop ba...i personally nt much mood oso...but teo is back!...dog skin cui...cnt bball...we haf made a pact oso...to train hard for bball aft ORD...and we will all join NTU bball...WOOTS....my ambition~

special thx to clement dog kr teo and olk for de present...realli thx man...so bigg....muz be ex la....and how u all realise my speaker cui liaoz...sweet :) it juz brighten up my day when it is so darkk....

went out wif 7 wonders...finalli see my nette~ haha....ate crystal jade...ma de guai lan...all de flavour nt nice de...zzz...de noodles i order...COLD somemore...kena sai....

den pool...a LONG pool session man...hehe...asha and pork say i shuai la...lol....feels good to kena called shuai...

finalli...home sweet home...and abt to book in le....lucky wed got pub holiday...

why is every1 always saying tt i am a elder brother....i got so caring meh....
suddenli...i rather be childish...as childish as i can....


FUCK!
FUCK!

BANKAI!!!

WHY AM I ALWAYS MAKING THE WRONG DECISION AND CHOICES....

it is juz heaven trying to fool ard wif mi...
it has always been this way...

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

tdy nites out...finalli de 3rd one? nites out in signals is juz sooooo limited la...time flies? it has been 6 weeks in signals le...8 more weeks and i become sergent le...de duration of BSLC in sispec...feels tt finalli can countdown le...

life has been relatively boring....especially we sometimes got lesson in a lab whole day...den nid install windows 2000 or sth liddat de...raiden server...den install de waitin time is dam long...and nt every1 got a com...some share...for mi...i nvr share...i nvr even bother to take a com...i juz take a chair...those computer chairs tt is soft and can lean on de...ya...juz take 1...slp....is realli whole day inside de....from morning till lunch...go eat lunch...come back cont until dinner...zzz?? so practically i scrolling dwn my contact list to see who can i sms...apparently...nth much....

yst i guard duty...den tdy is got tt stone de lesson..so i realli slp whole day...from 9plus to lunch..eat finish come back slp till 4...den finalli wake up....mentally tired...aft wake up...whole body feels weak oso...aiya dam cui la...zzzz

anyway...on my bdae tt day...it is a special one...my mum told mi is tt my chinese and english bdae falls on same day dis yr...dam special...de nxt 1 will be 19 yrs ltr...yea..i can sense tt it is special oso...spend it in camp..and in tt lab...stone inside de room for 7 hrs...slp until dunwan slp le...keep go toilet..go downstairs vending machine buy food...den STILL got a lot time...play hearts...solitare...on de com...oso dam sian....so my SPECIAL bdae is spent rotting in tt room...grats man...

anyway...tdy is tong's bdae....so juz say....
HAPPY BDAE TONG~
doubt she will see it anyway....type shuang nia...

teo has been in brunei for dam longg le...kind of miss him man....come back soon ba teo~

special thx to those ppl tt wish mi happy bdae...
tong~ (1st + last blood)
kelly~
elaine~
shermin~
kr~
cw~
olk~
yan shan~
olivia~
yvonne~
yumin~
xiongjiejie~ (belated -_-)
teo~ (belated..coz he on mission)
shuwen~ (though she nvr sms...de present godlike enuff le)
yk~
daryl~ (saw it on tag)
wanching~ (saw it on tag too)

another bad thingy abt spending bdae in camp...is tt I CNT SAVE THE BDAE MESSAGES :( army fone too cui....limited space....zzzz

this week sat book out as well...they say lunch indented...assholes...ma de...

tml 16km route march le...ma de...tulan

last but not least....HAPPY BDAE FATHER TOO~


i hate de game of guessing....
seriously...

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

this weekend has been a busy one...is my bdae weekend afterall...lol..but i cnt entertain every1 :( sorry for those whom i reject....nxt weekend and nxt nxt weekend...i will try to squeeze out time...thx anyway....how i wish i can duplicate myself...or haf a longer weekend....though this is de longest i could haf.....


a special thx to shuwen.....de present is realli de best i ever receive...is somethin tt any amt of money cnt buy...realli touched...i am at loss of words when i receive it....but saying mushy gratitude words are definitely nt my style eh...as long as u noe tt i love u deep deep can le...realli thx for tt BEST present le.... :) anyway for all ur info...wat shuwen made was a wooden frame...somethin to hang on wall de...den it is all my fotos wif other ppl and her as well...and lots of cool cool decoration....which definitely i noe take dam long to do de...is de effort and de thoughts...as i m typing this...damn...i m forming tears in my eyes....THX LE!!!!!!!!!!!!


nxt is kr and cw..thx for de shirt...haha...i tink i gonna become mature and adult soon le...to wear tt shirt...and thx for them to be labourers whole day...carrying my present...de wooden board tt shuwen gif is qte hard to carry de....


thx to yk as well...to gimme tt cute little figure....own efforts as well....if u were to ask mi to diy things for ppl bdae...i tink i cmi de...my art is dam cui de...last time pri sch i tink i failed it....cnt even draw an apple well....i tink i best at drawing stickman and shit...keep curling upwards until it become small and pointed...den draw 3 curl lines on top to show tt it stinks...to make it perfect...can add a few small dots to represent flies tt are attracted to it as well....so i haf always been impressed wif those who can diy present...ZAI....


last but nt least...thx to yt for treating mi movie~ haha......haf been a great bdae celebration....


the days...it is a nice movie...local production has always been qte good...coz it reflects things tt happen in real life...sth tt we can relate to....ang moh shows are nice usually becos of de graphics and cool cool animations...but local de is realli got de touching parts...ppl go into traids and unable to withdraw...de helpless feeling....when ppl finalli learn wat is right and wat is wrong...will it be too late...


dunno why...but i haf always been able to feel for those needy ppl...their encounters and mishaps in life...siblings going into wrong path...families having problems...lose hope in love and relationship....mabbe coz my own life is a dramatic one as well...full of ups and downs...though more downs than ups...i understand wat other ppl are feeling when they went thrugh those shits...and feel even more helpess when i cnt even help them wif their problems....

actualli like sometimes shuwen will ask mi why i so longg nvr sms her le...i juz tink tt things changed le...in de past when i call her and sms her...i m giving her support when she is in troubles wif her studies and other stuffs....but for now...it will be her giving mi support and encouraging mi....u noe...de feeling tt i m a burden...i would rather dun disturb others' life than to be a burden...de feeling tt u r giving others hope and support when they r dwn and u manage to cheer dem up feels good...but de feeling tt u r a burden and keep complaining to other ppl sux...nt juz for shuwen...same goes to de rest...like xiongjiejie etc etc...juz wanna say out aft 5 mths since i enlisted...nt tt i forgotten u all...but juz...dun wanna disturb ur lives...


anyway i juz changed blog song...it is nice song...abt tryin to find an island which represent hapiness....wanna noe more? juz see the lyrics and understand wat it is trying to say...if u can feel it...yea...u r on de right path.....anyway...dere is realli such an island...a heart-shaped island....




从远处看去的东西是不是都这么美，这么不真实？
我也好想找到属于自己的幸福

BANKAI!!!

Friday, September 19, 2008

recently haf been feelin moody...sux....

find a lot of no-point...book out...i juz feel tt i am booking in soon...like whole life is abt booking out den book in den book out den book in again...haix...realli sick of it le...meaningless life...i wonder who can realli understand how i feel...

tdy i re-take ippt...attempting for gold...but i juz cnt seem to achieve it...i run 9.56 for 2.4...though it is de 1st time i cut 10...but it is still dam far from 9.44...i tot i will run worse than 10.06 at 1st...coz at some part i slow dwn becos i realli wanna vomit le...thinking of falling out de...but in e end decided...suan le...hai shi carry on ba...anyway i got max point silver le...

chin up 12
SBJ 243
shuttle run 10 (bloodi retard floor)
sit up 42
2.4km run 9.56

tt is all..i got not much mood to talk...feel dam cui...especially aft running,...dam breathless even aft 30 mins of rest....de aftermath is still dere...i feel cui tdy....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

juz reached back home...tdy came home aft guard duty...onli slept 2 hrs in de night and 2 hrs in de afternoon on sat...den sun morning book out...den a while go crystal jade wif family and relatives in morning near noon for mi and my dad bdae...aft tt i go amk meet kr cw and olk...to settle some things...and oso arcade of coz...lol...this week nvr spend much money due to guard duty...a blessing in disguise ba...

we change our course commander le...is a gg one...we r dead..why isit tt i always so suay...signals is meant to be qte slack but when it comes to my batch i get de screwed things...things change...ma de...nxt sat mabbe will haf to redo exercise...damn it...my bdae weekend sia...he betta dun try to be funni...i can onli hope..if nt at most suck thumb lo...

life is gettin more and more boring...i seriously dunno wat is going on in my life alrdy...is like i m juz going thrugh de same continuous routine everyday...i hate it...such rigid systems....but i dun even haf a choice...i m juz gettin sick...and i can onli cont to feel this way....i feel like grumbling and complaining...but keep complaining de same things to other ppl will juz irritate dem....and aft a while...ownself oso complain until sian le...coz things wun change due to my complains...

i gonna get myself a PSP soon haha...shuld be end of dis month...take it as a bdae present for myself ba lol...so excited man~

love like u haf never been hurt before....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, September 07, 2008

went to watch cyborg she wif dog clement and kr yst...ben lai is go out wif junhui maggie kh and ys de...but den i haf to catch cyborg she coz is realli de type of movie tt i like...sweet loving moments...all those romantic stuffs...de happy memories of couples...yea....so i haf to pangseh junhui kh they all..

anyway...it lived up to my expectation...as in...i m easily contended wif movie quality...is realli dam sweet when u noe...those scenes of the things they do while de music is in de backgrd and de days pass by...until somethin big gonna happen and the scene go back to normal....yea man...realli dam nice...is realli dam pain when u love some1 and yet tt some1 dun even feel a single shit for u....like being immersed in dis kind of sad yet touching music and scenes....yea cyborg she ROX big time....

gonna book in again ltr on at nite le...i hope tml i will be able to successfully step dwn and pass de IC rank to some1 else le....although i dun mind doing it...but it eats qte a lot of admin time at nite and i haf difficulty managing time to do OTOT...last week i nvr do any shit of OTOT....so ya...i nid to OTOT myself to get stronger...gotta do it man...

dis week got exercise le...er xin da bian...ma de...

tdy bball....long time since i ever done tt...shooting a bit deproved...dun realli like de feeling of skill-less....juz waitin for ORD so tt i can focus and train hard to get into uni bball team...yea man..aft tt all come my hse and lag ard...watched long hu men which i recorded...yea apart from those sweet romance korean/jap love movies...i like those action-packed and especially fighting movies....realli dam cool...we gif olk his razor mouse as present....HAPPY BDAE MAN OLK~

teo is gg brunei le...tonight midnight...21 days ltr will be de nxt time i see him...hope he can endure on...i bet it will be tough...and disgusting...i hate all these outfield shit too...i can understand....teo....gotta hold on dere man...we wait for ur return to spore and we will go kbox tgt man....stay alive is all i gotta say....

dis week i will be on guard duty for sat...so i will onli come out on sunday...and go back in again on sunday...like a gg weekend...nvm...save money ba...

i reall hope...tt 1 day...u can tell mi....
"i can feel your heart"

BANKAI!!!

Friday, September 05, 2008

last week book out nvr blog..lol..1st time man...coz realli got a lot to catch up and do during de weekend...this weekend is another dam packed weekend for mi man...i got lots of program to handle and in e end i haf to gif up 1...sorry man daryl..gotta meet u nxt time...nxt weekend i oso will onli be booking out on sunday and book in sunday as well..due to my sat guard duty...ben lai is 21st de la...de day before my bdae and i got to book in on sat for guard duty on sunday...wth...so i managed to change it le...phew...but still i nxt week cnt do anythin le...sunday in sunday out...rather rest at home....somemore guard duty = cnt slp well..dam it

anyway...juz when i tot i can release my platoon IC to others on monday...de platoon fall in late for ET run for 3 mins and i kena extend platoon IC for 1 more week...wtf man...

but u noe wat is dam satisfactory??? tt is when ppl start telling u...
"aiya u do for whole course la...u so good"
"u r de best platoon IC since my army life man"
"u do forever la..i like u lei"
bla bla bla....

believe it anot..u may say tt i am bullshitting or hao lian-ing...but tt is wat ppl realli say to mi...it is sth tt makes it worthwhile being de platoon IC...i let dem slack as much as possible...try to maximise their sleeping time...nvr rush dem to fall in...coz all these i noe...it sux and is irritating...so why do de same when u r in charge man...i juz dun understand why ppl can tekan ppl when they become sergent when they noe tt being tekan is nt a good feeling...tell mi why man...leaders gain respect thrugh heart and nt thrugh de rank...haha...afterall...i tink i m qte good at planning lol...juz tt i am lazy man...but i swear...i gonna pass de IC to another person nxt week le...cnt possibly do 3 weeks man...will die...lol..

ok i gotta relac 1 corner le...this whole week plan a lot shit..and nid plan my weekend schedule somemore...dam tight sia....zzzz shagged out....

de journey begins again....
if i wanna be a leader...i can be one zai one easily...LOL
1 who gain respect thrugh de heart... :)
THANK YOU IC2~

BANKAI!!!