Sunday, May 25, 2008

booking in soon...aft blogging jiu change and siam le...

felt heaty...and weak man...whole day keep shitting...wth la.....watever la....

dis coming fri ippt le...i tink i cnt get gold le...too little time to train...field camp all these took 1 week sia....but silver can book out wif gold on fri nite too...so i gotta do it man...silver at least....

well...everytime book in sure feels sucky de...but reach company line can rest....everythin is ok le....SO....JIAYOU WILSON!!!!!!!

anyway...i love my new blogskin....no more hearty romance and shits....lol put dwn everythin alrdy.....i juz wanna relac....even my msn nick...Legendz....oso change to juz wil....3 yrs de nick...i juz delete it liddat....nth matters alrdy to mi.....i m juz wil.....


in de earli morning run
with a field pack on my bag
and an aching in my heart
and my body full of sweat

i am a long long way from home
and i miss my mama so
in de earli morning run
when the cold wind blows

when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows

i know i know
u haf to go
so hurry back home
coz i miss u so

BANKAI!!!

ok...yst book out...but din blog...lazy...no time..watever nots......

blog here blog dere....still sayin abt same things wad...we cnt say wat we do inside NS....if nt kena charge....but apart from NS...we got nth....so we can onli complain abt de shits we feel as usual....

feel tt more and more detached lo...but less and less sad.....tt means...gotten over and accepted the fact tt NS changes ur life......wat remains....i tink is juz those brothers alrdy.....

sometimes ppl seriously dun see our point man.....they tink they are lonely.....well...tried consoling....but exchange for negative comments....if tt is lonely....den wat are our plights man....if u tink thrugh it....u will noe....if u feel sucky abt ur plight...u will noe....tt we feels dam like crying abt our plight and we dun haf a choice.....

dog is right man....za bors always tink like we exaggerates things......is juz tt we r weak mentally to take those shits...but i can garantee man...if they try it for 2 weeks confinement....they will cry every night....call back their frenz during their admin time until battery all gone and is still nt enuff....coz they nid support....but they wun try it man...so they will cont to tink tt way.....so...let it be.....i juz cnt be bothered abt such things alrdy....

ok time for some non NS stuffs.....tdy went out wif lcpsk...ate at NYDC and swensens topless 5....i m still on chocolate frenzy...aft tt meet up wif dog teo olk bok kr to watch chocolate...i can onli say it is dam nice....i can see de effort put in...it took4 yrs to complete and there are like so mani injuries.....jialat...i admire those actors deep in my heart...nice job dere peeps.....

on another hand....while wif lcpsk...we went into lego block building shop...inside those legos...wa...dam nice...seriously...i feel dam tempted....2 yrs ltr...ORD le....i gonna make my own room rox like godlike heaven.....1stly...i m buying a new super zai com.....for my computer engineering projects....nid install those zai software perhaps...and of coz for more FUN games....razor mouse...zai keyboards.....strong base speakers....LCD screen...i gonna make it godlike man...den nxt...i will get a cupboard wif glass panels...i will start collecting lego designs....comics....and nice stuffs....but welll...all these needs money man....so i shall start saving up man....i will try...is kind of hard when i keep spluring at this current stage....i shall go out less....stay at home more often...fan zheng i alrdy dun care le....juz ard 1 time brother gathering every book out can le....

tml i m stayin at home...o wow...like de 1st time i staying home for a day when i book out...i juz dun wanna rush man...everytime rush back home to book out...rush here rush dere...hectic enuff le la....

ok...tt is all i gotta say....POP soon....most prob try for sispec...heck le....dunwan become men den kena cock vocation den seriously gg for 2 yrs.....

anyway...i haf settled for NTU....so ya....NTU COMPUTER ENGINEERING is waitin for mi 2 yrs ltr....


my body is juz so tattered and torn.....

BANKAI!!!

Monday, May 19, 2008

yst went back to ahma hse to celebrate mothers day...is kind of a good feeling....see my ahma...de relatives.....i long time nvr go dwn le...gettin more and more unfillal....they are glad to see mi too...see my new hairstyle....every1 say tt i become fitter...and cut dis hairstyle....i look more like adult and more mature le...haha...

mabbe nxt time i will take out some time to go ahma hse more often....

yuan lai my cousin justin is oso taking comp. engineering...in poly....wells...i m tinking btw NTU and NUS still...NTU is more hands on....NUS is more vibrant and they say gals more chio dere....so is life vs hands on....which shuld i choose.....

past few days haf been tiring...my muscles become lethergic....whenever i pull up...my muscle is like telling mi to stop...de feeling when i pull myself up to de chin is different from de past....wierd sia...i gotta get back to my condition fast...ippt coming....

ltr gg to plaza sing wif wushu clique....gonna watch chocolate....fighting show again! i like it man....and aft tt...of coz...booking in....haha it doesnt matter anymore alrdy...i m neutral against book in....juz tt...NO FIELD CAMP pls....but then...dere is sit test dis week...damn....get it over and done wif ba....

i haf been spamming M&M man....it rox to de core....spent abt 100 bucks in dis book out le...is like a gg man....wallet leaking....but haha...my aunt yst gimme 20 bucks....she always gimme money when she see mi de....dam nice....but of coz...i rarely go dwn...so she see mi de chance is rare de...

i attempted to change blogskin dis morn....but some parts cok up...so i use dis back....nt much time sia...nxt time den change again ba....

hmmm...NTU OR NUS!?


everythin is over...
now i m in de spectator seat....
watching your show....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, May 18, 2008

frenz come and go....

i m glad i went chs.....

de brotherhood is de onli thingy that last....


nt gonna get tied dwn by strings anymore....

i gonna live my own way....

BANKAI!!!

Friday, May 16, 2008

FIELD CAMP SUXXXXXX!!!!!

i m back...
cuts...
blisters...
insect bites....
rashes...
every shits u can tink of.....

6 days....
no bath...
perma camou on....
mud as companion....

dirty...
tired....
shagged...
uncomfortable....
sleepy...
hungry....

tryin dam hard nt to shit....
live on mainly biscuit....
breakfast biscuit....
lunch half packet ration...
dinner biscuit....

sleeping is a challenge...
floor is hard...
temperature is low...
space is limited....
clothes are dirty and wet....

rain-ed on day 2 and 5...
grats...morale further dwn....

cried dunno how mani times...
de outside fren wun noe u r dwn dere struggling....
contacts cut....
lucky bed buddy is dere for mi...
helping and encouraging mi....

no matter wat...i m out....
alive...
but shagged...
living corpse is de word....

weakened....
pull up drop to 6....
running deprove...
HOLY....

in de field camp...
i realise wat is loneliness....
at e end of de road....
nobody is gonna or able to help u....
u gotta do all these urself.....

clement says i m mentally weak...
i gotta learn...
to rely more on myself...
i haf relied on my brothers for mani yrs....

now is nt they dunwan help mi...
but they cnt....

sometimes....
juz feel like stoning...
or rather...
sleeping forever....


天总会黑
人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, May 04, 2008

here i am...out again...tdy can come out earli...aft breakfast jiu book out coz my ippt get silver..yes...my 2.4 timing is like 10.40.....woots....

now in my life...i oso dunno wat is gg on le..is like everythin is juz rushing thrugh....even when i can rest...i juz feel lyk i dun haf even time to rest....i m bloodi shagged...tdy book out 1st thing go home le jiu go sentosa...a lot of screw-ups....a lot ppl bloodi late....den oso i go dere le dunno wat is happening...play in water a while le come up wif cw....wonder isit de seawater...de seawater touch my face my whole face feel hot...den kianboon and cw saw my face dam red...so i wash away wif clean water...den finalli back to normal...dunwan go dwn again le...so sit on de mat wif cw...lookin at de sea and scenery...wells...tt is good...de feeling of stoning...how wonderful.....den i dunno is who organise de but somehow at 4plus...ppl start leaving in batches...STUNNED....batches sia....dis is a dam dam wierd outing...i got nth to say....wells...ben lai i jiu dun feel lyk gg le...coz is like nt a lot ppl tt i noe and close to is gg....den everythin in e end is a screw....shyt man waste my 1 afternoon...time is precious sia...

juz dota-ed finish....can show u de standard of my shaggness....i dota wif ks and his frenz and i click halfway i can bloodi hell doze off and when my head nods...i wake up...shake my head a bit...and carry on...den keep dozing offf....WTF man...realli super tired....teo says my whole face looks dam shagged...yea i am...totally looks like corpse ba....and now...i am struggling to post this entry despite my sleepiness...juz in case i dun haf de time tml....tml gg out wif 7 wonders....how busy....how hectic...

tml booking in le...aft tt is 2 weeks confinement plus my "fav" field camp....well well well...bloodi sian now....but anythin la...go in jiu go in lo...kind of immune le...actualli i dun mind stayin in my bunk...it feels good to be in de bunk...juz lie on de bed and stone...or sleep....in NS...slowly u will love stoning....coz u wun tink so much...and less tiring for u.....

mabbe nxt time i dunnid bring hp into tekong le...not much point anyway.....juz go in and abandon de mortal world oso nt bad...no desires...no strings attached...nth....


i can somehow see wat is going on....
woots...back to loner's life...
stoning feels goood man...coz silence is golden~

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

labour day...1 day break for us...feels good to be on mainland....

aft gg to tekong den noe who are de ones remaining...

i tink none man....dog told mi pks feel so too..

feels lyk no1 is wif u man....

ppl carry on wif their own life....

and yet...who can understand....

i guess.....



shuwen is like one of de onli few who make mi feel lyk i m nt alone....

coz i can feel de sms....de text.....and realli....

i m like touched....


for my brothers who are oso in NS....

hang on too....


雪中送炭
missing is nt juz saying....

BANKAI!!!