Sunday, July 27, 2008

dis week is 1 of de worst week ever...in charlie...perhaps in my entire NS life...de whole company morale has reached de btm...when my bunk mates and mi go back to bunk...i can onli hear vulgars...every1 was kp-ing....

outfield is a suck thumb....
section live firing is a wet event...muds and muds...we r juz like bangalas....

dunno why...all our major event sure rain de...den make our morale drop lower...
sergents make our morale even lower...

heat rash...
blisters...
cuts...
burns...
abrasions...
splinters...
body aches....

grats...i m juz so tattered and torn...

this whole week...except monday...we haf been sleeping like for ard 3 to 5 hrs a day onli....
keep chiong until past midnight..den nxt morning wake up 5 plus again
den by right fri book out...den too late le so sat...but at least morning la...
yet our platoon and platoon 1 is made to stay back for corrective training...
book out at 1pm..o WOW...wat a LONG weekend for us...

we tried to do wat we can...we do watever we are asked for...
our PC juz say....
"u all are juz useless...i rather train a bunch of dogs...juz fuck off la"
and here goes half day of our sat...
in army context he of coz zai la...serve how mani yrs le and we r juz ppl being made to serve for de sake of serving....
if i ask him to take A lvl wif mi..i can tok him upside dwn and dwnside up...and he is juz useless alrdy....

ppl are born for different purpose...
somtimes de whole system is juz so rigid and cok....
u might find it unreasonable...
but u cnt do any shit abt it...
why?
coz u dun haf de bloodi rank....

march past NTU when we route march at de end of field camp...
see ppl wearing de square hat and de graduation uniform...
we wearing LVB and helmet...
i see my future 2 yrs dwn de road...
heart felt a sharp pain...
i could be in dere as well...
why de fuck m i doing all these stupid things....
and wasting my 2 yrs....
it could be betta if de instructors are encouraging....
but too bad they are not....
they juz made u feel worse...

how encouraging man....to being labelled useless...
sometimes see some of de instructors...
onli noe how to bark...
den ownself sit dere shake leg...
nvr even show a good example...

whole company...wulala....morale low...super sian...
every1 sleepy...wet...hungry...tulan...dirty....
wat can be worse...

play wif book out timing somemore...GREAT MAN

i m nt angry man...seriously....
alrdy reached de point tt anger cease to exist le...
scold until nth to scold le...
kp until no energy to kp le....
they can do watever shit they wan....
i juz gif a stone face...dunno wat the hell is going on...
and tt is it...
juz stone dere emotionlessly....
tinking why m i so suay to be dwn here...
out of so mani company and i got de best....

and when u tink u can take a break...
nxt week is field camp week again!
nxt nxt week another field camp!
nxt nxt nxt week is last week...which got 1 day outfield....

i cnt wait to get out of CHARLIE....
i m juz...
waiting....

SAF = serve and fuck off
i m waitin for tt day...

BANKAI!!!