Monday, June 23, 2008

tml nid wake up at like 615....and now i still awake...blogging away....wt shit..nvm la...last nite alrdy....lol...last nite as a civilian......

finalli comes to de end of block leave....tml...or rather tdy....i m gonna report to sispec....and here it goes again....
de days tt i count down to weekends and book outs....
de days when i sometimes will feel tt i m fighting de battle alone....
de days when i juz lie dwn on de bed listening to mp3 during admin time....
de days when i look at my hp den my hp look at mi but i cnt tink of any1 to sms....
de days....

onli when ppl experience sadness and sorrows....den will they truely feel hapiness....
onli when ppl undergoes wat other ppl are undergoing...den will they truely feel for dem....
onli when ppl understand de feeling....den will they feel it for u...stand by u....
onli when ppl lose sth....den will they begin to cherish and appreciate....

but by then....it is juz too late....
but again....humans are juz liddat....
they can onli walk aft they fall....
they can onli learn aft they fail....
they can onli regret aft they lose....

when u are undergoing shit....u look ard u....ppl are enjoying...u feel jealous....
but to other ppl who are undergoing hell...ur shit means heaven to dem and they are jealous...
we will juz compare ourselves to ppl who are better off and nvr tink abt ppl who are worse off...
tt is human....
wells...i am 1 too....

i hope olk and mi....

can get into de same company....
i realli hope....
can get into de same platoon...
i realli hope....
can get into de same section...
i realli hope...
can be bed buddies...
i realli hope....

den everythin is nth alrdy....
we noe we can stand by each other...
help each other....
no kick man....

but....how possible is tt...chance is nearli reaching zero.....

aft which....clement...yan shan or any other ppl i noe....hope we will be in de same section as well...and if possible bed buddies....

mabbe i m strong now...but when i get to sispec...my strength is juz average or even maybe below average...sometimes juz feel tt no matter how i train...i m stagnent....yupp...my pull up still stuck at 10 to 11....sometimes when my muscle feels lazy....it is worse....i juz dunno how to improve....ma de...i juz dunno when can i reach 20.....DAMN IT....

ppl will get stronger and stronger aft every ordeal they undergo....
although i hate to say...but NS toughen ppl up in dis way....
train up their mental strength by letting them undergo ordeals and obstacles...
u will feel sad at 1st...but aft a while...u will feel numb and tt sadness is no longer sadness...
den a sadness of a higher lvl will make u sad and ltr on...tt sadness is nth as well....
so on and so on...ur mental strength builds up....u can take every shit....
de things tt make u sad juz become lesser....
de things tt brings u dwn become lesser....
de things tt other ppl feel sad....u no longer feel sad for tt....coz u haf alrdy undergo it and become numb....
dis is mental strength training.....

dis is......

NS!!!







back to a soldier's life....
KNOCK IT DWN...

BANKAI!!!