Sunday, June 29, 2008

a few hrs ago...we were still playin bball tgt...rotting at my hse...eating lunch at 888...go causeway buy things and borrow books....

right now...i gonna set off le...time flies when u r outside....

haix....heck la...juz pia watever shit they throw to us....

BANKAI!!!

here i am again...in such wee hours...3.30 in de morning...by de time i blog finish...it shuld be 4....haix...how tiring and yet refuse to waste my book out time slping....tdy went out wif brothers again....shagged...haf a flu and ate de medicine dog gimme and got de lethargic feeling aft tt...and my legs cnt function properly due to de pain in my thigh....or shuld i call it EXTREME pain....k la...watever it is...knee keep giving way and i keep walking like a retard....

spam arcade as usual....wat else can we do man....lol
watched wanted....qte a nice show...
and tml haf bball session in de morning...so i cnt wake up OTOT again....gonna be shagged all e way heck le....

haix...tml going book in le...past 12 midnight le...so is tdy ba....ard 14 more hrs...i gotta set off from home alrdy...ma de...time flies like birds when u book out man....seriously dunwan go back la...last time leopard in BMT book in alrdy qte sad le...now worse? is super super reluctant...who will wanna go back to hell again....tdy meet zw in plaza sing den he tell us abt how life is good in echo...foxtrox....julliet and all other coy...ONLI CHARLIE IS XIONG...I DUNNO WHY THE HELL THEY WAN TO PUT DE DISCIPLINE SO HIGH UP DERE SIA.....gif us some welfare la....ma de.....sooner or ltr wanna gif up alrdy....fucking hell....but got wat choice....can onli endure on la...suck thumb lo......

i dunno my body limit and my mental limit can push till where....mabbe i will break dwn 1 day....mabbe i will juz collapse 1 day...haix...yue tink yue emo....i juz can imagine my plight once i book in....

out of 6 company...onli 1 company is xiong...and so zhun..bulls eye sia...i got it...de fraction is like 1/6 la....damn damn damn....super bu gan xin......

every1 ard us are smiling and laughing sispec....sixu...zhexu...geng liang...all say sispec fun...den some leopard frenz...i saw their msn nick..."i tink i like sispec"...all in slack company de sia...haix...realli dam sian...all ppl smiling ard...onli charlie all sulking....morale super low alrdy lo...

once tml wake up....bball finish...de emo feeling cfm sets in sia....de DAM DAM emo feeling...

7 more weeks of hell....
if u were mi...u will be scolding vulgarities like hell too...

I DUN WANNA GO BACK!!!!

fuck it....

welcome to my life....
welcome to hell....

BANKAI!!!

Saturday, June 28, 2008

1st book out from sispec...

an alphabet decides ur fate...whether u go to hell...or bloodi hell.....

yes...so when i see a C beside my name...it is decided...i m going to bloodi hell....

haix...i m gonna suffer for de nxt 8 weeks...gettin de most xiong platoon in de most xiong company from sispec...last time in leopard is most welfare platoon in most welfare company...realli from heaven drop to hell....

for de past 5 days alrdy run ard 24km and more than 600 pumping in total le....my thigh is aching now man....nt juz PT...but the tekan-ing is dam shit oso....everythin keep zham..i dunno hear de words KNOCK IT DWN how mani times alrdy....haix...sometimes juz feel so sick and sian....hold in pumping position 15mins++ somemore....

ben lai sat book out de...but we work hard so they let us book out tdy...u let dog fetch frisbee oso will gif him pedigree de right....ya....but sunday ben lai 10pm book in...becos he nt happy wif our area cleaning...7pm book in...ma de...i tink nt bad le lo...got clean de la...ma de....and i m de toilet cleaner...grats...ma de....study A lvl den go army be dog and toilet cleaner....dunno for wat sia...

but lucky olk in same platoon as mi...so lets undergo shit tgt ba....

i m sad to say...but i m from charlie company....GG...other company like echo slack while we chiong like shit and we still gettin same rank...damn it...why i nt echo sia...

2 words...SHAGGED and SUAY

BANKAI!!!

Monday, June 23, 2008

haha...despite sleeping so late yst...i cnt realli get to slp...whole nite toss and turn...in e end wake up dun realli feel tired...coz? coz nvr even realli get into serious slp.....

lol...realli gonna go in le...haha.....last min still wan use com sia...die die dunwan let go of de com..LOL

dis is wat i call....
垂死的挣扎

cya peeps!~

BANKAI!!!

tml nid wake up at like 615....and now i still awake...blogging away....wt shit..nvm la...last nite alrdy....lol...last nite as a civilian......

finalli comes to de end of block leave....tml...or rather tdy....i m gonna report to sispec....and here it goes again....
de days tt i count down to weekends and book outs....
de days when i sometimes will feel tt i m fighting de battle alone....
de days when i juz lie dwn on de bed listening to mp3 during admin time....
de days when i look at my hp den my hp look at mi but i cnt tink of any1 to sms....
de days....

onli when ppl experience sadness and sorrows....den will they truely feel hapiness....
onli when ppl undergoes wat other ppl are undergoing...den will they truely feel for dem....
onli when ppl understand de feeling....den will they feel it for u...stand by u....
onli when ppl lose sth....den will they begin to cherish and appreciate....

but by then....it is juz too late....
but again....humans are juz liddat....
they can onli walk aft they fall....
they can onli learn aft they fail....
they can onli regret aft they lose....

when u are undergoing shit....u look ard u....ppl are enjoying...u feel jealous....
but to other ppl who are undergoing hell...ur shit means heaven to dem and they are jealous...
we will juz compare ourselves to ppl who are better off and nvr tink abt ppl who are worse off...
tt is human....
wells...i am 1 too....

i hope olk and mi....

can get into de same company....
i realli hope....
can get into de same platoon...
i realli hope....
can get into de same section...
i realli hope...
can be bed buddies...
i realli hope....

den everythin is nth alrdy....
we noe we can stand by each other...
help each other....
no kick man....

but....how possible is tt...chance is nearli reaching zero.....

aft which....clement...yan shan or any other ppl i noe....hope we will be in de same section as well...and if possible bed buddies....

mabbe i m strong now...but when i get to sispec...my strength is juz average or even maybe below average...sometimes juz feel tt no matter how i train...i m stagnent....yupp...my pull up still stuck at 10 to 11....sometimes when my muscle feels lazy....it is worse....i juz dunno how to improve....ma de...i juz dunno when can i reach 20.....DAMN IT....

ppl will get stronger and stronger aft every ordeal they undergo....
although i hate to say...but NS toughen ppl up in dis way....
train up their mental strength by letting them undergo ordeals and obstacles...
u will feel sad at 1st...but aft a while...u will feel numb and tt sadness is no longer sadness...
den a sadness of a higher lvl will make u sad and ltr on...tt sadness is nth as well....
so on and so on...ur mental strength builds up....u can take every shit....
de things tt make u sad juz become lesser....
de things tt brings u dwn become lesser....
de things tt other ppl feel sad....u no longer feel sad for tt....coz u haf alrdy undergo it and become numb....
dis is mental strength training.....

dis is......

NS!!!







back to a soldier's life....
KNOCK IT DWN...

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

mi and clement!

mi and yanshan!

mi yanshan clement and baby face...de fun grp!

BANKAI!!!

Saturday, June 21, 2008

feel lyk qte some time haben blog le...hahaa...so here i am....haha actualli right now at olk hse...

yst went msia wif family....arcade for qte a bit....den oso gotten 2 shirt....wanna buy shoe....saw some designs tt i like...BUT...my feet is juz too big....dun haf my size...ma de...got like 5 shops...all dun haf my size...got 1 shop got my size but dun haf designs i like...damn...big feet ppl is juz so hard to buy a pair of shoe...anyway my shoe size is 10 to 11 liddat....lol....dunno why so big oso...zzz....in e end miss going for de outing wif yumin yvonne daryl cw and kr oso...dunno when will i get to see dem again...kr and cw is no prob la...haha coz almost every week de brothers will go out....lol....but the other 3....hmmm....dunno when will see again

anyway i alrdy get to noe my vocation le...yes i m in sispec...lol...dunno is good or bad...although is wat i wanted...but...i see kr kena naval combat system operator...wah lau dunnid camou cream...no field camp...dunnid helmet oso...freaking good life....if i can choose i wanna go dere lo....all de things tt i hate all gone...all these tt will lead to more pimples all gone...so good sia...

block leave ending soon le...tml last day of enjoyment le...den show time...bak to shit life...but...hehe...HERE COMES PT!

gotta dota le...tml will haf de last post sia....before going into sispec...

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

tdy went out wif cw and kr...watch missing...tt show is qte artistic....de depth of understanding is wayyy beyond wat my brain can take...so...i dunno wat de show is realli tryin to tell mi....but all in all..still ok la...

went yishun safra to redeem my watch...haha...but actualli since pri.5...i nvr wear a watch until now...so is ard 8 yrs alrdy....haha...coz i dun like de feeling of sth clinging onto my wrist....but since got a cool watch...mabbe i will wear it to act cool a bit....

4 more days to end of block leave....

actualli....realli nth much tt i can blog abt sia.....so i shall end here...


different ppl haf different luck...different fate....different outcome...

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

haha...see how fickle-minded i am...i decided nxt time nt to collect legos anymore...haha...1stly 1 lego set is too big so will take up a lot of space for my cupboard and less space for comics and figurines...2ndly...my room qte small so can at most put 2 cupboard...so to save space...haha...no legos!! so ya...comics and figurines shall be filled in de cupboard....haha

i wan money!....a lot things i feel lyk buying sia...if i wasnt in ns...i wuld haf been working...and my pay wuld be like at least 1k per month...rather than a bloodi 400 now...a portable harddisk....a new nice bball....everythin and everythin....damn....

aft tdy...5 more days to new unit....holy....dis is getting a bit fast...but somehow...i oso dun mind going....if block leave is nt over...i cnt move on...and if i cnt move on...i cnt reach ORD....

actualli most of my time is spent at home during dis block leave...rotting alone infront of de com...manga and manga....listen song...den go lie dwn a while...den carry on manga...den anime a bit...super no life....

a lot of things wanted to say....yet cnt be said....
a lot of things wanted to say...yet dunno how to say....
a lot of things wanted to say...yet no1 to say to.....

nvm...i noe it myself...and tt is good enuff.....

hhaa...had a long chat wif yumin too....

in NS....de way to survive is to...
act blur...take cover...live longer...
i gotta do dis man....

BANKAI!!!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

BANKAI!!!

Monday, June 16, 2008

tdy had bball session wif liang qi kh dog teo olk and clement...haha ended up wif onli 8 ppl for de game...well i can say...it was fun...it is still best bballing tgt at fragrant wood....had nvr done tt since we enlist....de memories.....

aft tt all went separate ways...some went home...some meet frenz...some run errand for parents...left wif dog and clement to come my hse...we rotted a bit and clement go off at 3+...dog stayed wif mi till 7...we are talkin and lookin at fotos...haha...so in conclusion...aj gals are prettier than nj gals....

aft tdy...i m officially left wif 1 week...aft tt go unit...dere is no more block leave...it is chionging all e way for 20 mths le....wonder wat unit i will go to...sispec i hope....and hope for those welfare company...if nt life will be miserable....

i am qte shagged now man...tdy bball...my legs feeling a bit aching...and my eyes are closing when i dota juz nw...seriously man...i gotta slp earli 1 of these days....and replenish my energy.....

tinkin abt tt....i m still far from my dream room...my whole room is filled wif my army clothes and all those....lazy to pack sia...but still gotta do it 1 day.....


why do i feel tt it is so hard for a person like mi to save up....

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

pariss food is nice...de atmosphere inside is godlike oso....desert is good...but i nvr get to eat everythin...too mani things to eat...in e end eat finish le i full until stomach pain..den vomit somemore....lol..vomit out 35 bucks...o damn......

but qte sad...tdy outing a bit cui...cok up in a way....kr has diahhrea in de last min...and strength of our ppl juz keep dropping...feels a bit sad....

dunno how to describe wat i tinking....and is betta to keep quiet abt it....i juz got de tinking....nth is forever....

recently 2 NSF ppl die alrdy...and is qte unexpected de...1 walk 2km nia and juz collapse....another 1 is fit and is OCS de...who knows when i will collapse oso....running 2.4km for ippt halfway den drop....

perhaps...lookin foward to monday....

BANKAI!!!

Friday, June 13, 2008

3rd day of block leave alrdy lo...

past few days of block leave has been rotting and rotting for mi...all my brothers are nt ard....ns de still in ns...block leave de go out....even cw studying outside...so i juz rotted ard.....anyway....tml will be a good day wif good food...hope price wun exceed wat i expected it to be....

anyway...xiongjiejie gave mi a tag....which i dunno it is sth i nid to do until i go her blog -_- lol de..i still tot she juz tag for fun....here it goes....




"People who have been tagged have to write their answers on their blogs and replace questions they do not like with other questions.Tag 8 poeple to do this. Those who have been tagged must do this quiz and state the person who tagged them. They are not to tag those who had tagged them and have to continue this tagging thing by tagging others. "

A. If your lover betray you, what will you do?

if she alrdy falls in love with another guy...i cnt do anythin right?

B. If you can have a dream that will come true, what will it be?

to find a gal i like and she likes mi as well...and we will live happily ever aft in my dream hse tt i design and decorate....

C. What will dream your wedding be like?Something grand?

i dunno abt yet...wat type of wedding doesnt matter as long as u r wif ur beloved....

D. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?

nope..i m clear tt i am stuck in NS for another 20 months....

E. What is your ideal lover like?

as long as i love her....but i like long silky hair :)

F. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by?

being loved by some1 who u loves.....

G. How long do you intent to wait for someone you love?

until i feels sick of keep trying.....

H. If the person you like is secretly attached, what will you do?

how is she going to be SECRETLY attached...well but if she is attached...den wat can i do man..

I. Is there anything that has made you unhappy this few days?

ya...no1 is ard during my block leave....sadddd

J. What do you want most in life?

i wan to be good in programming and computer...and den i wan to haf enuff money to buy things tt i realli wan...and oso a good sweet gf.....but for now...i wan my dream room to come true asap....lol....

K. Do you like being tagged?

yea...at least i noe other ppl still rmb i exist.....

L. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

holy...youth is precious....i prefer being in de earli 20's....but by tt time i shuld be 29 le....

M. Who are the most important people in your life now?

my brothers...and my family....

N. what kind of person do you think that person who tag you is?

some1 who has been nice to mi ever since i noe her....

O. If you could ask that person for a request and that person will return it, what will it be?

where is my bear hug...LOL

P. What is the first thing you will do every morning?

brush teeth and den tink...another day of shit begins....1st of all will be 5BX and 1.5km run

Q. Would you give it all in a relationship?

of coz....juz love like i nvr get hurt before....haha...

R. If you were to fall for 2 people at the same time, who will you pick?

dis is tough...i hate making decisions...but why bother picking if both dun love mi...LOL

S. What type of friends do you like?

as long as i haf de feeling of Confrerie in him...we are brothers! and my brothers always give in to mi... :)

T. If you played a prank on someone and they fall for it, what will you do?

this happens pretty often...


i am nt tagging any1...lol....

BANKAI!!!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

a test tt i did...joanne send de....12 days rotting...so do lo....

牧羊犬

忠心，目的性比較強
牧羊犬對主人百分百忠心，為了完成工作不惜付出一切
這類型的人非常遵守規章制度 ，對於朋友拜託的事都會如期完成
人緣很不錯，有教養又懂禮貌的你不喜歡出風頭，只要做好職責範圍之內的事就盡情沉醉在自我的興趣中咯
閒暇時候的你那副悠閒自得的模樣，很是令人羡慕。


【如何排除人際煩惱】

因為個性隨和的緣故，所以你跟任何人都能和平相處
對人缺乏防備可以說是你的最大缺點，也是你煩惱的根源，
心太誠太善的話，很容易被人利用，你必須提高警惕，才不至於讓吃虧上當。


【對異性的態度】

你非常享受談戀愛的感覺，對於不入眼的異性相當冷漠，
一般來說，你很少為愛受折磨，
就算有喜歡的對象也不敢主動告白，不過一旦愛起來將是那麼熱情難擋。


【職業預測】

你的好耐心是大優點哦，適合當醫生、會計師、電腦工程師等。


o wow...de professionalism dere oso write computer engineer...lol...so i haf made de right choice of course...

BANKAI!!!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

POP LO!!!!!!!

well...yst is de day...de day of pop...my family dun haf any cam...so i haf to wait for ppl upload and send mi fotos den i will upload....

anyway....9 weeks haf passed....in de process...it seems slow...but when it is over and u look back...time flies....so fast yet so slow...2 mths over and yet another 20 more mths to go.....

gotta miss leopard....it is beri beri fortunate to get into leopard...with all de nice nice sergents and enchiks....BMT could be worse....but becos of leopard....our life is easier.....

happy tt we pass out le....but sad tt we haf to part....we wun get to see our sergents and enchiks again....they haf made an impact in our lives....but yet...when everythin ends...they are reduced to dust....this is wat it means by ppl comes and goes....

wanted to take foto wif 3 other section ICs de...in e end section 1 and 4 IC gone...always liddat...den seng loong is saying...always disappearing...like onli mi and him is dere nia...yea..section 2 and 3 is de best...haha....WIL and SENG LOONG...de BEST SECTION IC!!!!

when queuing up to leave tekong....walking past all de sergents and enchiks...realli dun feel like leaving....i can onli shake hands and say ty to the enchiks....and especially my section commander...sergent terence....he is de onli sergent who remember my name i tink....and even my 4D number...L2201...coz i am his section IC....i remember when he 1st call out my name...i am stunned and TOUCHED...coz no sergents call my name before...i super low profile inside.....NS ma...act blur take cover live longer....and when i wanted to take foto wif him tml...he say hey wilson...and held my shoulder....he nvr ever scold us before.....uses dam nice tone to talk to us.....

SERGENT TERENCE...THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHIN!!!


BMT has come to an end....
when i depart from tekong...
i look back....
on the 9th april....
8.30am....
de time when i got enlisted.....
sitting dwn and waitin to be called...
surrounding looks so unfamiliar...
dunno any1 ard mi....
dunno wat is ahead of mi....
wat is NS all about....
got into a section without knowing any1....
slowly open up and every1 starts getting closer and closer...
got to noe clement who happens to come from AJC...
got to noe more and more ppl and slowly the entire platoon....
strive thrugh route march....
getting louder each time....
strive thrugh field camp...
bed buddy and ppl supporting mi all e way.....
came up with wierd songs and de hentakaki improvised edition....
and 9 weeks pass in a flash....
every1 has to part....
preparing to go into another phase of NS.....

when i depart from tekong....
i look back....
de sergents....
de enchik...
my sir who i always accidentally call him sergent and kena knock 20....
i noe i might nt haf de chance to see them again...
i can onli wave and shout....
BYE BYE SERGENT TERENCE!
and leave no trails behind....
i fade away into de crowd....
advancing nearer to de fastcraft...
but further away from de instructors...
that is de end....
bye bye...
tekong....
bye bye...
instructors....
bye bye...
fellow platoon mates....
bye bye....
LEOPARD COY....


training to be soldier...
fight for our land...
once in a life...
2 years of our time...
have u ever wondered...
why muz we serve...
becos we love our land...
and we want it to be free...to be free....

stand up...
be on your guard...
come on everybody...
do your part...
come on every soldier...
soul and heart...
do it for our nation...
do it for our singapore.....

looking all around us....
ppl everywhere....
children having fun....
while we are holding guns....
have u ever wondered...
why muz we serve....
becos we love our land....
and we want it to be free...to be free...

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

is booking in time soon again...but dis time is de last book in for tekong...POP on tue...

leopard win again on games day...WOOTS...i cheer until no voice...den at nite recruits nite....performances...i and yanshan went in wif raven coz leopard all qte stone...we zi high and keep jumping and shouting and singing along....it is fun.....sweat it all out man.....but no voice aft tt day le....

i bet i will miss leopard...de nice sergents...and de enchiks....they haf treated us well.....but we cnt possibly like stay on...so i tink most prob. we wun realli meet again....haix...de feeling of ppl come and go....to them...all de recruits come and go...but to de recruits...i bet they are de best fathers and brothers that recruits in leopard coy can ever haf.....and every1 of us will nvr forget them....

and of coz platoon 2....and our pride of de hentakaki count....de loudest ever....

sergent say we are equivalent to 2 platoons man....but when it comes to route march we are cui...lol....

COUNT BY THE COUNT BY THE LEFT FOOT COUNT AR!
1...
CNT HEAR U AR!
2....
SHOUT LOUDER AR!
3....
MUCH BETTER AR!
4....
ALL TOGETHER AR!!!
1..2...3...4
we come from a company
famous in BMT
we come from a very special company
we fight for our glory
we fight for our victory
we fight with a spirit never known before
LEOPARD!
LEOPARD!
ALL THE WAY!
WE LIKE IT HERE!
WE LIKE IT HERE!
WE FOUND OURSELVES A HOME!
A HOME!
A HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!!!!!

is time to plan wat to do during de 12 days block leave...
but i m sure...12 days will be gone in a flash...wt shit

BANKAI!!!

Sunday, June 01, 2008

my brothers....dis is our 2nd foto le...1st one is taken on my bdae where every1 gather last yr...and i offered to be de camera man...for dis....bok is de camera man...who ask him nt to be botak...so every1....dis is....THE BOTAK SQUAD!

they are de ppl who keep mi going....so....CHEERS....CONFRERIE!~~~

1 more week to POP....

BANKAI!!!