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Tuesday, December 18, 2007


2:16 AM

juz had a talk wif muikoon....it is a nice talk...but somehow i realise sth...aft 2 yrs of JC...i dun haf much close frenz in de cls...LOL....almost all are those tt will lose contact sooner or later...is juz a matter of time....

perhaps those may haf a chance to stick wif me forever....can be counted wif de fingers of my 2 hands...

hmmm...a lot of ppl has known me as a quiet person...especially J1 wushu...which joanne tells me...haha...but in actual fact...i started from a loud person...a DAM LOUD person...which u can testify wif kr cw teo and dog.....

this shows how much i haf changed for the past 2 yrs....

perhaps becos i no longer noe how to interact wif ppl...tt is y i choose to remain silent....
perhaps becos life now is no longer tt simple as it is in de past in chs....
perhaps becos i no longer has de mood and drive to create jokes and laughter like in de past...
perhaps becos i feel nt much meaning in everythin i do le.....and juz livin for de sake of living...
perhaps becos i haf lost the confidence to be loud.....

welll...too mani reasons...to be clear of which is de real 1...perhaps all constitute to the current me....

and mabbe becos of this...i nid to dota even more...to gain back confidence...to tell myself i am not a loser....to tell myself nth is impossible.....and mabbe to hypnotise myself....

somehow without the TDL dota session...de emo session wif dog and ks aft our dota session...i feel sth lacking...and oso...no longer seeing yst@n popping online....afterall he is de closest fren i haf made in 0306....at least he tells me everythin and hides nth from me.....dis is de thingy i wan from brothers...from frenz....tt is y me myself usualli tell ppl things abt me....ppl i like...ppl i dislike...but afterall..dis is nt an exchange quest...so it cnt be fair....

becos in dota...de lvl difference in skill....tt is y i suggested gg into maple as well..where every1 can play tgt...but tt is juz too naive....de lvl gap and job difference make it hard...but i believe if we reach higher lvl...we can hunt things tgt...but den again...dere are ppl who lag behind...and is lag behind like madddd......so gunbound? dunnid to pia lvl and can juz play whenever u wan...but den again....some rejected coz they tink their aiming sux.....hmmm...so wat can we play tgt?

wat an emo post today...yea...i dare to shout out loud....I AM EMO NOW!
emo abt frenz...emo abt future...emo abt past...and emo abt u.....
but i say...dis time i wun feel gek xim so easily....i will work harder.....


joke of the post
A deep-sea diver is twenty feet below sea level when he sees another guy with no scuba gear. He goes down another thirty feet, and the guy with no equipment stays with him.

He takes out a waterproof chalkboard and writes, "How the hell can you stay down this deep without equipment?"

The guy takes the chalkboard and writes, "You asshole, I'm drowning."


lol dis joke is damm funni i tell u.....
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见


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