Saturday, October 13, 2007

today is de last day of sch...how ironical...in e past i dam wish for my JC life to end...coz it is bloodi torturing me...but now...my heart got the feeling of sadness and cnt-bear-to-part....mabbe no matter how bad an environment is...dere is sure to be sth tt is good...and mabbe....i dunwan to go thrugh separation....from pri sch...to sec 2 class...to sec 4 graduation...i realli hate it....especially when i graduate from chs...the 4-11 peeps i haf...realli will cry out and hug each other....coz we gonna miss one another....de support we had....de laughters we share...de scoldings we kena...but we take it all tgt...as a gang...as a class....cnt bear to leave my cls...cnt bear to leave my juniors....throwing cw dere while mi and kr set off on our next part of journey in life...now tt cw has joined us once again...we r throwing him aside again...and now...we r going into another phase of life again....

0306 finalli looks like a cls for de last 2 days...every1 of us playing bball tgt...although i nvr tok much during the game...i am enjoying it...becos is the whole cls into 1 activity...aft farewell today...every1 of us takin fotos...i mabbe will miss it...0306....miss seeing all the sweet and cute gals in de cls...miss seeing the brudders (kf, wan, mui, yan) joking ard and mui's laughter and craps....miss playin ard wif the CN forces (farid, haikel, ys, kh, prasad)....miss crapping like dunno wat wif the 7 wonders ( kh, ys, nette, junhui, maggie, asha)...miss seeing the twins walking ard like superglue on their body (helen, cheryl)...miss getting whacked and suann-ed by teng...miss kf's sporty spirit...miss opposing chuan like i am some rebel in the class....

all the sleeping in class...nvr hand in work...pissing teacher off....it has ended fatefully....wif a overslept on the last day of my sch life....took taxi and rush dwn becos i haf prize presentation...OMG....

aft graduation....off i go to march in de jungle...take rifle and pia....it is another phase in life...i wonder if i can take it...wif my fitness lvl dropping like mad...i cnt take hardship...but i wun admit defeat...easily...

aft graduation....i will miss the wushu peeps...though i nvr join dem qte often due to some obstacles in my heart tt i haf to overcome 1st...but the memories haf nvr fade away before...every single 1...going to zhexu hse for fireworks and stayovers...going for the wushu chalet...going for the inter-sch comp. and every1 supporting each other...going to kr hse to eat...going to bj hse for stayover...

18 more days to As...i can onli say tt i m realli nt rdy for it...de stress is builing up....nth seems right...and everythin seems wrong...wat happens to one's life if one's mental and physical condition screw up....isit stress tt is causing me my illness...or i kena gastric cancer...since 3 weeks ago i haf been having feeling to vomit out of the blue and for no reason...and it has been worsening...now is almost everyday ard meal time....but apart from tt...I FEEL OK.....isn't dis bloodi wierd??...suddenli will wan vomit...den suddenli will ok...i dun even dare to eat for i scared i vomit out wat i eat...i haf a feeling tt i am feeling qte stressed up sub-consciously....

aft graduation...perhaps i wun haf the chance to see u or tok to u le...the memories of everythin tt happen btw u and me...is deep in my mind....if i were to write out everythin we haf gone thrugh tgt...it wuld take me 3 days...but to u...perhaps all these memories are nth...i onli noe...u haf changed...i cnt describe it...but i feel tt u haf changed...i haben sit dwn and chat properly wif u for abt 3 mths le...i dun wish to disrupt ur life...so i prefer things to end here...i dunno wat is happening in ur life anymore...are things turning for the better...or for the worse...no matter wat...i wish u all de best in everythin u do in future...and i noe...even if i am nt by ur side...dere is no nid to fear....coz there will be mani other more ppl out dere by ur side like singhua sixu or any other ppl who i dunno abt...

i wish u...eternal hapiness

ppl come and go in my life...
but who are the ones who realli leave footsteps behind....
and who are the ones who are still walking on this tirdeous journey wif me aft so mani yrs...
but all these doesnt matter...
wat matters is...we will cont to walk to e end tgt....supporting each other....

my special thanks for those who realli made me feel loved, accepting me for whoever i am:
3 musketeers... (surbodinates)
woodlands kia... (surbodinates)
lcpsk...
7 wonders...
wushu peeps esp. daryl, teng, yumin
xiongjiejie...
shuwen.... (i still prefer to be the onli 1 in this world to spell ur name wrongly)

BANKAI!!!