Friday, August 03, 2007

haix...as expected...i knew heaven wun be so nice to me...1 day smiling like unstoppable...another day will be a bloodi sad day...i wonder if this is called fairness in life...heaven gif u sth...den ltr he will take back another...

suddenli ponder...life is wat...we live on dis earth for wat purpose...wher is our final destination...or it is a never-ending journey...and in de process....wat r we supposed to do....to do things tt we realli like and feel happy abt it...or to do things tt heaven name on the list....and it is ur mission to do it...eg. studying.....how mani of us realli liked studying....and how mani of us realli take joy in studying....ans is...beri few...and why is almost the whole spore population studying...tt is becos it is juz compulsory for u to survive in future...tt is it...

does one's life inter-connect wif another's life?...it is always said tt heaven has cut 1 soul into 2 and disperse into the world...ur mission is to find the other half...and once u found it...hapiness is in ur pocket...but in de vast world...where r we gonna find it...and if we find it...isit tt it is juz our illusion and mistake on our part tt we haf gone on a fruitless trip and it is back to square 1 again...

nowadays in sch i m like forever-smiling...is qte true tt when i wif the 7 wonders i nvr tink much la...coz keep suanning jun hui and cn yang den keep spas-ing wif ys...den keep sayin tt my goddess no. 2 is annette....but when i m back home...i m like juz facing my best fren...de laptop...and finding some condolence....dota always make my mind blank...and tt is good...for there is too mani things weighin on my mind...and the too mani things all draw back to de single person...

the situation now is juz de same...but dis time...i m juz playin dota as if i m an empty shell without any soul...i hardly speak thrughout the whole game...i dun care abt kills....i juz playin my own game...my face is stoning and nvr even crack out a smile or frown....the call i made simply sux...1 call change my day....8+ and u r in de bus on the way home...coz u r running in sch...runnin companion is need not be mentioned by me and i tink u ppl oso can guess it le....

sometimes i realli dunno wat i m qte doing....puttin it dwn and pickin it up...puttin it dwn n pickin it up....is a continuous vicious cycle...a never-ending cycle...do i realli look like a spas...

to de 7 wonders...they always haf the impression of i m like see gal jiu say chio or watever de...somesort of a flirt or watever de la...but in fact...de 1 in my heart is still de 1 and onli one....i m juz tryin to minimise de injury inflicted on me to the minimal....wat u see doesnt seem to be wat it is...so dun judge a book by its cover...i m juz hoping to throw all these weights off my mind and tt is y i m always sayin those crappp things and laugh it all out....

the worst thingy is tt u get to noe abt sth tt makes u seriously depressed and yet u cnt let the person noe abt it...u chose to hide it...and rather say...tt is nt ur choice...tt is the onli route...

once bitten...twice shy...
twice bitten...say bb....
tt is how i feeling now...de same situation occured and the damage is somehow way much higher than last time....mabbe becos of yst the happy moments....or rather say...mabbe heaven plotted yst so tt i can feel the fall from a cliff all e way dwn to the pit....if tt is de case...heaven...u sux....

olk is still nt at home and we cnt dota efficiently without a host...as xpected...a ultra bad day....
so i tink...i gonna sleep now le...
i haf no more energy to scold "fuck"
so let it be ba....

才过正午13点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面

就是拉不到你的手
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
cryin aft smiling is much more worse than anythin...
:(

BANKAI!!!