Tuesday, July 10, 2007

today is a bad bad day...i dun like today...

today mr.lau say mr.ari wanna see my parents at the PTM....anythin ba...i dun qte care....

A lvl seriously approaching....i dunno where to start and how to start...i onli noe...i m realli beri tired....every tutorial i seriously tired...the eyelid feel so bloodi heavy and is realli beri xin ku to keep dem opens...

today bball a while jiu feel giddy...den go nexus n fell asleep wif sheng mao....i let him experience de cosiness in nexus...he nvr realli enjoy nexus before...sleep until 445 den realise i sleep for almost 1 hr le...zai la...dis show how tired i am...

ltr wushu isnt beri good..as xpected...i shuldnt turn up for wushu....i realise if i nvr see von...i can cont to stay happy....but if i see her or some unpleasant scenes...de feeling come back...so de best...i wanna forget...i dun even mind nt to be frenz wif her...juz strangers oso can...as long as i dunnid to be unhappy or jealous...

actualli now wateva gang nt beri close oso la...can be beri close de...but sixu chose to spoil it...so be it...i remember my bankai once to sixu but aft tt it doesnt seem to change anythin so i gif up le...today wushu saw von asking sixu to go run wif her on de track...den i saw dem runnin side by side n talkin on the track...fuck it...tt scene seriously sux...now i m qte sian of sixu le....actualli he noe his fren like the gal den tt period he still go n keep contact her and slowly they become more n more close...nice fren dere....so since he wan sacrifice von for de frenship of the wateva gang...anythin ba...tt is y now u nvr see me sms him nor ask him out...coz tt is de end....

for von...another disappointment....i did so mani things for her and always helping her...den she still rather ask sixu go run wif her..obviously now tt in her heart...sixu is ranked higher than me...i promise i wun initiate sms her again and perhaps when she sms me...i wun even feel like replying....dun be frenz jiu dun be frenz ba...not worth doing so mani things for her and nt being appreciated....loser sia...

shuwen finalli back to normal...tryin to be funni la....

actualli frenz realli dunnid too much de...haha...stress dis point a lot times le...

i m juz a beri ping fan de person...
i dun fish for fame...i dun fish for ranks...
i dun compete wif others...i heck care abt things...
i juz do my own things n my own studies....
i juz wanna lead a peaceful and happy life tt i realli wanna lead....
but heaven dun wanna gimme dis bloodi chance...
sometimes realli find no meaning in living...
like dunno my purpose in life and etc...study so hard is for wat?
i juz contended wif salary tt is sufficient enuff for my daily lives n simple needs...
i m alone anyway...nt much to tink abt....

BANKAI!!!