Monday, May 14, 2007
8:46 PM
yst was mummy day...nvr even wish her happy bdae....as usual...i keep saying ma de at her...but nt i dunwan say....is i feel wierd saying such touching things....so in e end i use sms...guess tt is me...qte hard to say such things...relatives come and we all went dwn and eat...
suddenli realise i beri long nvr mix wif dem le...is like around 3 mths le...and de feeling is nt bad in a long while...talked a lot wif justin, my buddy.....and my aunt even gif me 20 bucks secretly...juz nice to clear my debts sia....tt is how i m always being adored in de relative tree coz i m de 1st grandson to be born....haha....my ah ma and aunts take care of me when i m young becos mum nid to work...so they adore me a lot...but when i grow up...i nvr even go back to ah ma hse le...changed towards de evil side instead....guess i let dem dwn....but still...they treat me beri well....i remember once when i go ah ma hse...every1 treat me like king...coz is a V.I.P tt rarely appear....haix...felt ashamed....
de shark fins and everythin is nt bad....haha....eat until dam full la...once i eat finish i zao home 1st...to dota....as usual...treat relatives like dirt liddat....haix...nvm abt tt ba...
today is a bad bad day....de name singhua juz keep appearing and like revolving around yvonne...dam it la...den still muz smile...until yvonne zao le den i finalli can emo for a while...today lemme rest ba...take off tt mask for a while....haix...even hanging urself nid to take a breath....is dam dam hard to smile....haix...I HATE MASK!!!!
she nvr reply 2 of my sms lo....den i ask why when i meet into her...den she say sms burst for today...and why?....coz singhua this morning sms her...ma de?...1 day she can sms 30....i sms like 3 onli den she no more for me le?....20+ to singhua...tt is great...she nvr even spare a bit of thoughts for my feelings....i wonder sometimes...if i m juz being spas and doing everythin for u which u wun appreciate.....TA MA DE SIAN
rest assured....
de mask will be back on my face tml again....
today rest a while nia....
BANKAI!!!