Saturday, May 12, 2007

today went back hci pass sher de present....but i nvr sense much hapiness leh...aiya actualli i oso dunno....but i realise tt quite a lot of her frenz see me jiu feel like whacking me...so i tink i m qte hated in hci or watever ba.....haix...sian diao de feeling sia....now negative 35 bucks...WTF....all becos of borrowing money from other ppl for sher present...1 person 27 bucks la...crazy loz...sian liaoz...i wonder how i m gonna get thrugh de nxt week...but sher doesnt noe abt i in such a heavy debt.....

today training...once again...i eat snake....nvr train at all la...was playing bball...i like to play bball match more n more le...de feeling of getting all de rebounds....shiok....den aft tt went to de track dere and sit dere wif shuwen....de feeling is good...de cool breeze is good...den when i look over to de netball court...wt fish?...saw sixu n von dere....sian la...de scene is nt good liaoz....i immediately sian diao...den i juz lie dwn....den shuwen was asking me nt to sian....haix....how to nt sian...in e end decided to walk towards dem...so we went dwn walk towards dem....den situation jiu change le...shuwen wif sixu and mi wif von :) haha...dis is good....

den i jiu see von jumping ard like a monkey and doing spas things while i lie dwn on de floor to look at her spas...den aft tt training end le....jiu went to eat kfc....the watever gang is sitting tgt again....mi kr cw sixu...haha...back to de jolly mood....every1 laughing over one another's joke...LAO DA of watever gang....and tt is me :) good man...haha....aft tt went home....de trip back to mrt station is good....i keep talking to von....shuang la...den got sing a duet part wif her oso...hehe...so happi la....

ok so generally today is a mood-changing day....from sian and emo den slowly events change to become happi.....bt too bad she cnt use hp much in hse...so i no longer can call her....wt fish!!!

dota juz ended...1-11 wif axe...ta ma de...a bit tulan la...feed until like a dunno wat...haix...no confidence in myself le....recently kept feeding...taking over bok's place soon...haix watever ba....
lao da of watever gang jiu shi liddat...everythin oso watever n sui bian n anythin.....

not dunwan care...is too tired and unable to care.....energy source limited afterall...we r humans...de psychological obstacles keep appearing and appearing and as we tell ourselves to hang on dere and nvr gif up....1 day....we will get tired....i saw cw post and haix...de exact sentiments appear....sometimes i think....everythin tt i did for her....will it be worth it in e end...or juz tt i m being a spas and do everythin n care for her while in her heart...dere is onli 1 and onli....stupid FISH....argh...dam it.....

enuff said...now to results...math test flop...but i din realli care...i haben started on math...so failing is expected...35% for math...but chem i pass....but still ok...nt especially happi abt it...juz normal feeling coz i qte expect myself to pass...if de result is a B and above...ok den i will be happy...coz i prove myself to be great le....

time to sleep...1.20am le...pimples sux man...tmd....shuai ge oso can become non-shuai ge...oh ya remembered 1 more incident...today tio bird shit on my hair....fuck man...i hate birds....(but i hate fish more...he is worse than shit) sian la...de whole thingy dam disgusting la...cw can be witness....tryin to be funni sia...shoot me wif shit...at 1st i tot who throw stone at me in canteen den i turn ard....no1 familiar leh...den a bird fly pass den i think...gg....i stretch my hand to touch...and indeed...grey-brownish things on my hair...FUCK!!!!....cw and me run to toilet immediately and i put my whole head into de basin n wash n wash n wash....i nearli vommited somemore....wah lau eh...think of it jiu feel disgusted....haix....

now chuan becoming better le...haha...no longer scold me...and treat me qte nice somemore...so i no more grumbles....haha....but i will still mug la...wuahaha.....(din u realise my piss duration is nt beri long....)

ok a rather long post...realli muz end le...drag to 1.24am le...sai....time to sleep....cya guys....

u r the 1 who decide if i will become emo....
u r the 1 who decide if i will become happy....
u r the 1 who decide if i will feel fortunate....
u r the 1 who decide if all de things i do is worth it...
u r the 1 who decide my every single actions....
u r the 1 who i will wish to share my joys and sorrows wif....
u r the 1 who is always so beautiful in my eyes....
u r the 1 who rock my world to de end and back to de start....
i m still hanging on...wif watever amt of energy i m left wif....
cw....lemme gif u some energy too...lets persevere tgt....

OFF U GO...PIMPLES!!!....
*sleep earli....sleep earli...sleep earli.*
opps..i failed...

BANKAI!!!