Tuesday, May 01, 2007

kr, teo n bok has went home...left me rotting alone le...

today de bball session was great...i had a fun time...long time nvr so relaxed le...is always wif de 4-11 ppl tt rox so much man....we juz keep laughing n laughing...den even other ppl beside watching us playin at the bball court oso gif out a smile...coz dey see us playing so happily...so carefree like kids in de playgrd...we anyhow play de sia...and jokes keep coming out...though my hand still hurt a bit...but is still worth it....my mind completely got u out of it....in de bball court...it onli contains laughter....no troubles...onli carefree souls....aft we played finish n went off to eat...out of de bball court...every emo part of me returned....i miss u le...glad tt kr can tell...but thinking abt it...he has known me for 6 yrs le...how mani 6 yrs do we haf in our human life span..nt mani ba...

aft eating...bok teo n kr went to my hse...kr n me do nitro tutorial while bok n teo mess wif my com...lolz...i always like to suan bok like nobody business....even though abt tt...i still treat him as a good fren... :) suanning doesnt mean anythin ma....haha...and in chs...suanning always bond us closer n even closer tgt...but in jc...dis cnt seem to work out....lolz...watever....mi n kr do until bui tehan...so i took over de com...and dota...wif 3 of dem watching me play...de master play while dey learn...haha...i learnt a new thingy today man...taught by de zion player...nt bad la...queue command...shuai dai le....though i still tryin to perfect it...haha...juz get exposed to it wad....

aft dota...i m drained le...dota n studies drain ppl...and 3 of dem went off le...now in de whole hse onli got me n my bro...my bro sleeping while i using de com...de golden silence...peaceful man..

the difference between de possible and impossible lies in determination!
isit true?
if i m determined....
if i nvr gif up....
if i continue to persevere....
if i tell myself i can do it...
will i succeed 1 day?
dis is de 1st time i cont. to hold on even though tt de outcome is out long ago....
dis is de 1st time i start to do my work even if dere isn't any exams coming up...

in de past...i believe success can come w/o hard work...i rarely put in any effort in anythin i do...nth interest me...
when ppl say tt hard work is 99% while talent is juz 1%....
i prefer to believe and I BELIEVE tt talent contains 99% and hard work contains 1%....
coz thrughout my life...i haf managed to pass thrugh all my major exams wif good results even when i nvr work hard...i believe tt wif talent...even last min work can do wonders....
until i come to JC...i realise....those are juz peanuts...the real challenge starts from here...
TALENT takes 10%...while hard work is 90%.....
and i haben even put in 100%...and i wun put in 100%....coz i will nvr be able to do tt...100% focus into studies....is quite and confirm impossible for me la....be glad tt i do my tutorial...

sometimes...i tend to think....
mabbe talent n hardwork all takes up less than 1%....
is juz FATE tt take up 100%.....

i ponder...
wat isit tt he can do and i cnt do....
wat isit tt he can gif and i cnt gif....
wat isit tt he has and i dun haf....
and if we were to noe each other before u knew him...
will de ending be different....

dere is once a story tt goes like dis...a simple story.....
a story abt....MONKEYS!!!! haha
一群猴子在玩耍，它们路过一口井。它们看见了井里的月亮，非常的漂亮。
于是，它们开始争吵，“我要！”，“我要！”
慢慢的，它们一个接一个地跳下井里，想要捞取井里的月亮。
它们在井里挣扎，原来井里的月亮是假的。
所有的猴子都淹死了。
moral of de story :
厉害就好，不要假厉害
有时候，存在的一切可能都是假的
就算你用你的一生，也不一定能得到
however :
humans will still try to reach for their goals...even when sometimes it seems almost impossible for dem to reach it...and till de end....mabbe all their effort is to no avail...this is FATE

i realise dis post is amazingly long...mabbe becos i realli nth to do...lolz...logics la..feelings la...facts la...even stories oso come out le....but i tink i haf nth much to write on le...so i shall end here ba...and go for dota perhaps

if u love him and he love u....
i realli suggest tt u all be tgt....
it is realli qte spas to waste a mutual feeling...
如果你幸福快乐，我绝不打扰你
但是如果你还没找到适合的，就让我再说一次
我爱你
(dis time i quote...later he noisy again...FROM CW)

BANKAI!!!