Monday, March 12, 2007

today went to sch for maths lecture...purposely went late...coz i hate to be early....den start to sit alone infront lor...den suddenly this stupid spas piece of shit come running into LT4 wif tt retarded looks n running style...DAM ACT CUTE...and ISN'T TT LULU???? she run towards me....i sense danger...BOMB.....she sit beside me...ma de..i qte pissed sia.....ok finally break and she moved house....went to buy some snacks...go in LT4 eat den caught by teacher...lolz la...ma de qte sian...later all my frenz come running over and laugh at me....GG lor....

aft lecture acompany shuwen while she wait for principle to come...den principle come le still muz wait...den in e end....the principle nvr even see her once....i dun understand....mi n kr go in question a bit den come out le...i can onli say tt i m a humji kia....i got words i wanna say out but i dun dare....dis feeling realli sux.....i wanna shoot the receiptionist at the counter why isit tt a 6 pointer who can be qualified to join AJ family and even waited from 9am to 6pm and she wasn't even given a chance to see the principle....i was realli on fire.....ppl getting 14 points r happily getting the appeal notice while a 6 pointer is being denied the chance...she cried and i realli at a loss....whenever gals cry...i realli dunno wat to do...everytime see tv gals cry...the guys beri zai 1...console until the words sound so GOLDEN.....mi leh?...onli can provide tissue paper when go out can buy at 30 cents....haix...i sux man....

anyway send shuwen home....the bus journey was nt bad....at some points i realli forgot abt my troubles...i wonder if shuwen realli cheered up le....but cryin doesnt help anythin....cry for tt moment due to sadness is ok...but aft tt....we gotta move on.....sort of see sher's shadow in shuwen.....coz their plight is roughly the same.....haix....if onli tt time sher is nt forced to go HCI...my life story might be different...and a great difference.......

i feel tt sometimes....no matter how hard we try....we cnt win fate.....fate seems to play wif ppl's lives....and here we are...being the pawns of fate.....
"the difference between the possible and the impossible lies in DETERMINATION"...this is the words at AJC netball court there....it was total bullshit...wif determination, best effort, heart and soul....somethings juz cnt be changed....
life sux....tt is y when babies are born...they cry.....this is becos deep inside...they noe they r gonna start their sufferings in life.....
BORN TO SUFFER; BORN TO DIE.....perfect sia....and i wanna scold FUCK to god if he realli exist coz he is obviously nt doing his job....
tiredness, whenever i try to salvage....somethin worse juz come up....i realli at limit le....
天大，地大， 我最大！ i m the boss of my life...

BANKAI!!!