Friday, March 16, 2007

now is like 1.30am le...and i m as usual....rotting online....alone....listening to songs...thinking of things to blog....and seeing who is online....yup...wat a sad life.....i realli miss u right now sia....

juz nw talking to xiong jie jie....although shuwen is gone...i still got another sis....xiong jie jie....lolz...thx for accompanying me whenever i feel sian....glad u understand my feelings....juz nw she commented something...haha...i tink is praising me ba....
"somehow although u nvr talk much sometimes....it is a silent company"...aft asking for the meaning due to my sucky english...she say even if i nvr talk at times....dere is still the feeling tt i m dere....juz being beside silently....den she say it is good feeling....long time nvr tio praise le....but actually this is the same as wat teo say abt me in e past....when i go out wif him...i nvr talk much....den 1 day i ask...going out wif me doesnt bore u meh...when i nvr talk to u at all...juz 2 person walking around in silence...he said, "nope...it is becos u nvr talk...tt is y it makes me feel comfortable...coz i noe i dunnid to squeeze sth out to entertain u...and tt realli is good feeling"

recently beri tired.....hiding is realli tiring man....maybe wat xiong jie jie is right....i shuldnt be doing this alone and suffer silently....but u shuld noe this is imposssible...

the train trip back home is realli silent for me...in other ppl eyes...i m sleepy and closing my eyes to rest...but those who noe it....they will noe i m realli tired deep inside and dun feel like saying anythin...coz it is of no use....

talking to teo now....and he is maybe much a loner than i do....i agree to a certain extent...when i noe him...he is alrdy sort of a loner le....and i used to be a chatterbox in chs...a chatterbox being good frenz wif a loner....a great combi sometimes...coz the loner juz haf to listen the chatterbox go on n on and he nid not say a word...in e end...the loner onli nid to lend the chatterbox his shoulder aft the chatterbox say all his troubles out....not a word may be said...but they understand...tt they haf each other standing by demselves.....

sometimes words r being useless....coz wat u say may not reflect wat ur heart truely thinks...when a pair of frenz can realli understand each other's feelings without saying a word...tt is when a strong frenship is formed...
there r 2 types of ppl, while 1 likes to tell his unhapiness to a few of his close frenz nia...the other likes to spread his unhapiness and hope for ppl understanding....but for me...i tink i fall in the grey area....where i like to tell quite a lot of my frenz abt my feelings and unhapiness but some unhapiness tt realli cnt be said is not said...and realli being exposed to close frenz onli...

teo is right afterall, a loner doesnt even nid a single fren...he doesnt nid any1 to understand him for he can live alone....so wat qualifications do we haf to be a loner?

BANKAI!!!