rotten apple

2010-02-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

ORD LO! and this gonna be de ORD post....

haha...de way i receive my pink IC is cfm de most special one...is tt oc went to my bed while i sleeping and stand beside my bed...den i wake up and saw him..den he pass de COS and pink IC to me in bed!....haha...GAOLAT? coz i sick ma...LOL

hmmm...1 day before ORD oso do guard duty..sun guard duty mon ORD...my guard comm hear tt i tml ORD when i doing guard duty he oso went wtf..."den why are u here" kind of thingy...

aft ORD din go anywhere relac or wat...juz go home pop 2 pandadol and slp all e way tilll 11pm...coz i haf a fever of 39.6 degree...WTF!!!! de biggest illness of de year man and it happens when i ORD!

so qte an unusual ORD routine man...but yuppp everythin is over....

to sum up 2 yrs of army or rather...1 yr 10 mth...
i think back...
my BMT days where i cried during outfield...
my sispec days where i keep chionging with de charlie warriors day and night...
my SI days where we fool ard and life were relaxing...
my 23signals days where i need to live my life dodging arrows most of de time and it is dam stressful and nvr easy....

but all these are over...and i gotta start life afresh!!!

juz wait and see :)

2010-01-20T13:07:00.002+08:00

Hey once again blog again...haha....is now the 20th of jan alrdy....jan seems to pass like SUPER DUPER slowly man....mabbe coz no off leave den keep stuck in camp plus got extras to clear, burning weekends...fucking hell it juz feels like army is totally wasting my time man.....but YAY! 20 more days to ORD!!!!!! seems DAM near....

wonder how is life aft ORD...muz be dam good man...can go out and achieve watever i wan....can play lan wif wilson lek jia en den dunnid worry abt booking in....hmmm..SHIOK MAN!!!!!!

await my ORD post man~

2010-01-08T03:15:00.003+08:00

exactly 1 more mth to ORD!

but fuck...i got 3 extras to clear..

late for ne trip..but i stand in de rain for 1 hr trying to catch a cab.

Given a choice again. i wuld choose to juz take MC and chao geng.

army is juz like de world.
they dun see ur effort.
they juz want to see result.

2009-11-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

hey yo...long time nvr post alrdy...1 more mth down...nov ending soon le...nxt week jiu dunnid come back camp le...gg taiwan overseas :) haha...den come back is prepare for dec alrdy...so dec jan den ORD LO!!!! haha....

hmmm...nowadays start watching movies and drama series le...qte nice life...haha...but i believe ORD de life shuld be betta...haha....ok....await my ORD post! cya~

2009-10-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

I haf learnt something this month. Life is never a bed of roses. It has its ups and downs, but it is juz how fast u pick up when u reach your down. I believe, ppl learn the most when they experience downfall. Well, I certainly did :)

1more mth dwn...oct ending soon le..haha..nov dec jan and poof...ORD LO!!! :)

Show Hand Time!

2009-10-20T01:15:00.002+08:00

long time no blogg so here i am again haha...wells another 1 mth plus has passed...woots...lol late oct le...means like 3 more mths to ORD? realli qte fast man...i wondering abt wat kind of life wuld it be aft ORD...shuld be DAMM shiok man....haha

on another note...kr passed TP alrdy...now i m more stressed abt mine sia....1 brother has gotten license le lol...qte wierd feeling...but when isit my turn..i dunno to be so ma fan nid go driving lesson and all these things....zzzz..juz let mi pass on my 1st try ba

i bought more dvds haha...more shows to watch le hehe...

i wan watch jennifer's body sia...and oso my girlfriend is an agent :)

ORD LO!

2009-09-04T17:39:00.002+08:00

sept le....1 more mth dwn...and tt means 1 more mth closer to ORD...juz counting it every mth feels good...every 1 mth dwn means closer and i juz feel more hope....i juz wanna leave the fucking army asap....total pyramid...such destiny....fate being controlled by de upper ranks...i wan to haf full control over my fate man...i wan my days to be spent worthwhile and nt doing sth stupid...sept is gonna pass in a flash...and when oct comes...woots..another mth dwn haha....

a lot of things to buy...no time buy and plan leh...wth sia...and wat abt de genting trip..shucks man...wat to do!??

juz some random tots...i realise ppl tend to forget wat they say or promise easily...or rather...sometimes feel tt mabbe...ppl dun appreciate the things u did for dem...so why bother...and at de end of de day...de one who dun bother wins afterall...de one who bother onli cause more pain to himself....

hmmm...i find dis rather make sense sia..

2009-08-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

now nights out..so at home haha...juz heard sth which isnt beri good...our unit is gonna be beri busy soon....start preparing for ndp and ps even say get rdy to clear off by sept. if nt aft tt dunnid clear le...and mabbe even will burn weekends...OMG man...i tot i can hibernate all e way till ORD...why!? why in de end i still cnt ORD peacefully...sadded.

tt means 1 thing...time going get tightened on my side..way to go man...5 more mth plus to freedom...to do de things i realli like....GO MAN!

2009-08-09T02:22:00.002+08:00

has been some time...time juz keep passing liddat...and slowly i realise...ORD is near...getting nearer and nearer....

has been 1 mth since things go back to normal in my life and i hasnt been thinking abt it alrdy...juz focus on wat i haf to focus now....

and i m glad to say...i managed to fulfill my own promise i made to myself on april...

though it wasnt an easy thing.

to mi now...my onli thingy in my mind is juz abt ORD....great plans ahead for ORD...or even before ORD.....

planning a lot of things for both mi myself and my brothers.....

hope that we can achieve betta things and haf more and more fun tgt....

togetherness itself fighting towards de same goal is alrdy a fun thingy to begin with.

2009-07-21T11:32:00.002+08:00

long time since i blog..haha...juz gotten a new laptop...quite nice sia...dis shall be my working laptop..haha...has been watching de 9pm show...nan xiong lan di...qte a singaporean show...

aft watching...it kind of reflected reality...youquan slogged for decades and still earning peanuts...caused a fatal mistake due to helping his buddy and his family problems...and he kena demoted...ur boss wun care if u had family problem anot...u nid to still do ur work and they wun see ur hard work...they onli see ur mistakes...

so in fact, working in de society in future is equivalent to being in de army...juz tt u r stay-out...and earn more...

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2009-07-05T21:41:00.002+08:00

long time since i blog...

haf been real busy recently..added 1 more commitment into my weekend...and tt is driving lessons...ok la...qte fun i wuld say...haha...hope tt i can get my license asap...hopefully by end of dis yr...

wells...2 days is realli nt enuff for mi man...tdy feel a bit more reluctant to book in...dunno why...mabbe coz tml will be beri shagged for mi...i m de bds for morning...den i got ippt...den aft tt i nid attend parade rehearsal and evening i got guard duty....den tue parade rehearsal again...whole week rehearsal again wth lo....

i realli lookin foward to dec now la...den i realli can haf de ord mood le...

at least now...is july le...mark of another mth....way to go man....

i dunno how long can i maintain...

perhaps by de time i ord...de gap will increase...

2009-06-17T21:23:00.003+08:00

out for nights out....

coming to weekend soon again...is like my life is juz waitin for weekends...to do even more meaningful things....

guess sometimes...ppl dun understand ur intentions...
sometimes it can be rather tiring....especially when i am trying beri hard to squeeze everythin i could into my 2 days in a week le...and yet...ppl dun understand...or mabbe my effort is nt even cared for....

wells...i m juz beri disappointed tdy....BERI BERI DISAPPOINTED.

2009-06-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

Juz when things are improving..i screw things up...

tdy is a total flop.....my emotions overwhelm mi...wat a loser....

and i swear...this thing...will never ever happen again....

time to salvage.

2009-06-06T03:41:00.002+08:00

my com desk finalli came today...woots...looking at it...feels good man...de shape of my room is mostly done...now left wif de tidying up and packing up...buyin of nice decorations and room accessories and last but nt least...a good computer....

recently slp dam late man...is a toll on health la lol...but is worth it definitely....and tml i going to wake up earli....o dam it...i m left wif roughly 3 hrs worth of slp lol...and block leave juz end liddat man...bt nvm it has been a fufilling block leave for mi :)

TIME TO SLP~

i going to post photos of all my new things aft i consolidate them...show how cool it is man haha...

2009-06-03T13:47:00.003+08:00

too busy to blog..juz to update...

super big changes recently...super new things...

1stly...i am on a spending spree recently man....means new things into my inventory...
i gotten a new wallet...i m in love wif it :)
i juz bought a guitar yst...gotta mean it when i say i wan learn...but step by step....haha
bought some books as well...1st time in my life i willing to spend on books..LOL...i spent ard 60 on books le..dotx
i bought tailor-made shirt and pants..
i bought a tie...1st time in my life...lol
and dis fri..my computer desk is finalli coming....
juz see how my wallet hates mi due to a hole burnt....

2ndly...new things...
i passed my BTT le..so now to PDL nxt....
been super busy wif some stuffs...but ok..it is worth it....
some learning experience....wells...yst was emo...but i emo to tink over and learn from mistake...ok so tdy is a brand new day man...and tdy is going to be challenging...
i juz cut my hair tdy which i realised i nvr cut for 7 weeks le...tt is ULTIMATE record man
dis sun gonna haf 7 wonders picnic...wa super shaggy busy

despite how busy...i still haf u in my heart...

2009-05-24T03:45:00.002+08:00

exercise finalli ended...so fri we got off for compensation of vesak day....tdy had wushu outing...singing session...nt bad but juz tt i realise my throat is gettin more and more gg...mabbe heaven is hinting mi to quit singing LOL...but wells...i will juz cont...haha...challenging de impossible ma....

wake up earli to morning call yvonne and she still overslept...i called twice somemore...zz...totally waste my effort man....

anyway fri went swimming...and wow man...totally long time nvr exercise...whole day sleepy aft tt...got so shagged ma, wilson tan!? and i finalli placed order for my computer table le...always wan buy tt time...den juz nice ppl borrow money from mi den i nt enuff to buy again...den jiu liddat drag for 2 mths plus le...lol...finalli got money buy le...woots...but den...the uncle say out of stock -_- so i juz place 50% deposit...shuld be ard head of july tt i will receive de table lo...den i can arrange my room le :)

dis com gettin more and more cui...dota oso spike le...-_- unforgivable man....

aiya i dam sleepy now oso le la...time to slp...4am le...owls oso going slp le...

2009-05-19T02:02:00.002+08:00

exercise coming to an end...exercise period instead is betta sia..shift system...can go home...

tdy shuld be considered 1st time talk over fone wif teng ba...haha...dam random...but sui bian la...and she is a bit can laugh so long over little things...zzz...we talked abt 1hr+ sia...LOL...godlike...good catching up session...long time since i see her anyway....

tml jiu end of shift work le....i will miss it...LOL

dis exercise eat a lot of my fone bill la!

sometimes ppl juz take u for granted....

2009-05-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

is de exercise period now man..teaching NSmen is fun...bonding wif dem is even more fun...understanding de difficulities and stress of wat adults face...and how they tink...haha...i tink i click qte well wif my NSmens man...nice making frenz wif 27yr old and even 36 yrs old ppl..

nxt weekend confine..totally diao-ed...i wonder how m i gonna survive 2 weeks..o dam it....dis is wasting my time...

juz taken IPPT dis fri...nxt day whole body cramp..realli cui le..static stations i still dam strong...all max point...but 2.4km ar...dam it man..956 become 1130+ WTF....i nvr expect myself to deprove so much..when i running i totally feel cmi man...i see ppl catching up wif mi and i cnt catch up...even zhiqin who usualli i run faster than him..he run ahead of mi..but i muz thank him man coz he got try to encourage mi while he is running infront of mi..mabbe he wun see dis but still...THX ZHIQIN!!!! :)

tdy bball 1 rd 7 goals jiu rain..wth...last bball session before a weekend confinement and things din go well...o man....

aft few weeks of nt gg out wif kr...tdy go out wif him fully...from morning to nite sia..he is de sole survivor...LOL..i let him dota 1 rd oso...as compared to last time where ppl at my hse i always hog onto de com myself de LOL....

time to train running again i guess?

2009-05-03T21:59:00.002+08:00

feels dam long nvr blog le..tdy finalli bball-ed aft 2 weeks...shooting no longer accurate le..sux...but being de center rather ok for mi tdy...

aft bball left mi sixu olk and dog...den olk say sth..hmmm...true...attendance getting more and more outstanding...lol...we bath at my hse..den eat kfc and aft tt mi dog olk and clement go watch x-men...nice fighting...ok la..seh ba...

teo is overseas again...-_-

a lot things flowing in my mind now....

suddenli feel tt a lot ppl tt used to be close to mi r slowly fadin away...

2009-04-26T21:41:00.002+08:00

is abt time to book in again le...tdy is nan de de sunday tt i spend time at home almost de whole day...and i finalli played dota once again wif dog..haha..wilson lek as well..2 wilsons make a good tag man..nice....2 games ownage...looks like i nt rusty yet...

whole day has been completing my notebook....and oso key back my contacts and calender info into my hp which has came back from repair..woah...nice..welcome back my dear E51!

watched taken wif yk as well...i juz wanna watch it by dis weekend coz i scared nxt weekend jiu gone le and i realli wanna watch it de...dun wan miss it...yupp..dam nice show...de confidence he had...de determination he showed...de no-mercy he gif to his enemies...he mean wat he says...to kill dem all if they dun let his daughter go...dis is de way to success and well...he did it...same goes to life...we can all succeed in life if we are clear of where our goals lie...how determined we are and nvr gif up...and last but nt least...de confidence lvl u haf in urself to be able to achieve de goals u set for urself...

2009-04-19T21:27:00.002+08:00

another week over...time nt spent wisely enuff...shit man...

and i failed my BTT...wt....

they tell mi BTT is all common sense...i guess tt is y i fail man...

now further from my license again...dam it....

wells...nt enuff slp forever..lol...

2009-04-13T01:52:00.003+08:00

it has been a long weekend...thurs NE tour...and fri is good fri....sat is weekend and same goes to sunday...monday morning MA...so wells...so mani days and still i had nt enuff time to do wat i m supposed to do....thurs aft NE tour stay outside until like midnight 2+...by de time i reach home and bath..i slp at like 430 liddat....fri morning i went meet frenz and go on a spore tour..lol...den aft tt ktv wif confrerie till 1...we haben sing enuff man...den we drink at cw hse playgrd..i vomit wth...den aft tt by de time slp...oso 5+ le...den nxt morning 10 wake up...bath brush teeth set off...send cw off to pasir ris...aft tt pei teo buy shirt n jeans at tampines...den went to carry on...den at nite ktv wif a grp of frenz again...overnight till 6...drink some beer oso...den go home bath alrdy 730 le..i relac a while den set off for bball at fragrant le..gay-est timings....ZERO slp and bball aft tt...and previous nite drink and slp for 5 hrs onli...aft bball bath den we set off to cinema to watch knowing...i fell aslp a few times in de movie..coz realli collapsing...aft tt go home le...copy dwn a bit contacts coz standby to repair my fone le...i go lie dwn den fall aslp for 30 mins..bro wake mi up coz i asked him to...den i go out write a few more contacts...realli cmi..go in lie on bed a while...den fall aslp le...9+ wake up...go out..type msn reply yk...den i go back bed lie dwn slp again..den wake up alrdy like 11 le...realli still qte tired...i tink is de least slp weekend dis time rd le....nearli collapse...

speaking abt hp...my hp fucked up...dam wth....cnt press up..got see such fones before? neither mi...and ppl sms mi i cnt see de name..onli number...wth...den now cnt even receive sms unless i off and on de hp again...tell mi...ma de....wtf is happening...

cw enlist le...shall see him 2-3 weeks ltr...and shit man..i missed his call tdy coz i was in a DEEP sleep...

i still nid arrange and organise my songs which is gonna take a god dam long time....

i dun haf enuff time on hand! rahhh...
more slp pls...

2009-04-09T10:46:00.002+08:00

april 9...1 yr ago de dis date...i went into hell....enlisted....i still rmb de day vividly...

time flies...1 yr soldier le...10 more mths to go...in dis 1 yr...so much has happened....dere is so much changes in my life...de biggest change is i lost my freedom....i rmb in chs...when 1 yr passes...it juz purely passes....when i look back...it dun seems like i went thrugh a lot in tt 1 yr...but since JC...every 1 yr...i juz felt like i go trugh so much ups and dwns...maybe when 1 grows up....he nid to experience a lot a lot more...emotions...changes...obstacles...ups and dwns....

teo is finalli back..on dis fateful day as well..so coincidence...haha....

tdy is NE tour..and i m de bds....wth man....abt to bath and set off le......

nxt fateful day will be 8 feb 2010....

i shall wait...

2009-04-06T10:25:00.002+08:00

is a monday..to be able to blog on a monday means i m on off or leave or watever good shit...haha...

dis weekend has been tiring for mi...all sorts of prob come in for mi...devastated is de word....to a point of time where i suddenli felt tt i m dam alone...all de brothers...all de ppl tt has once been close in my life...suddenli feel lyk they cnt be by my side at all when i needed dem...

sometimes juz tinking...1 mth without teo realli qte screwed up for mi...wth...haha...

i haf been sort of back to normal emotions alrdy...time to pull myself up isnt it...

cw has no more weekends! saddd haha....he finalli going in....so he can finalli experience and understand wat we do....

bball yst...qte nt bad...my shooting skills still dere...but my lay up style back to flop alrdy...wth....siann-ed....

my cousin buddy...justin...gotten his own car le la...suzuku swift....his dad bought it for him...dam shiok la....nxt time i tink i will get more free rides le....i will get a car nxt time too...but wif my own effort...i believe 1 day it will come true de... :) but for now...license 1st....

show time!
bankai!

2009-04-04T03:59:00.002+08:00

难道真的是我错了？

是我把这世界想得太简单？

现在就连我自己都开始怀疑我自己的信念。

如果问我，我快乐吗？我开心吗？

我可以很坦白得回答，

不。

这一天，我竟然发觉，

我根本不知道我到底应该怎么做。

这一天，

我不是我眼泪的主人，

我不由自主地流泪了。

2009-03-30T03:13:00.003+08:00

550 posts...well..tt is halfway dere btw 500 and 600...by the time i annouce 600 post...it shuld be ard de time i ORD le...haha..so way to go man...ok..enuff abt sex topics...juz 1 posting and i tink ppl tinking in their mind tt i m a dam teeko guy...but basically i juz prefer to type out my thinkings...mabbe can let ppl see for themselves and tink for themselves whichever side is realli right..or mabbe dere isnt any right or wrong to begin wif...is juz different ppl's perspectives...

another tinking issue...2 men in my unit got into a motorcycle accident on fri...qte severely injured i heard...they even undergo a surgery...if i nt wrong..de malay guy gif another malay guy a lift..den they got into accident..so both kena...u noe wat is de scary part? and tt is...juz 4 days before fri...which is last mon...i juz gotten a lift from him on his bike...and he is riding qte fast as well..while at tt moment..i gt ever tink tt wat if we bang...will it be painful? but the fast blowing wind and thrills dismiss my thoughts..it was rather enjoyable to be on a motor...imagine tt 4 days aft he gimme a lift..he got into accident wif another guy on his back...wat if de accident happened on monday when de guy behind him is me...de 1 in hospital now will be me..and mabbe even lost my life...i got talked abt an issue before where i nearli gotten bang dwn by a car and commented how unpredictable life is...but dis 2nd issue striked mi and i realli wanna say more...dis incident makes mi even more feel lyk telling de 1 i love how much i loved her...i m juz worried tt 1 day...i might nt get de chance to say everythin in my heart out...if i leave dis world...i wun feel at ease...who will take care of her when she is sick...who will listen to her troubles...or mabbe it is juz mi expecting too much of myself...i m nt tt indispensible...but still...i always hope tt i can be de one who has de right to take care of her...to be by her side..to stand by her...

ppl may say i tink too much...de accident din happen to mi anyway...but is juz 4 days difference...will ppl ever wanna tink abt it onli aft an accident realli happened to mi?

enuff abt de accident...nxt issue up is abt today's bball which has been realli a flop...one of de few bball sessions tt i flop in when i organise..dam i felt dam sian tt it feels like i m wasting de other 4 ppl's time getting dem dwn to bball when it is juz 5 ppl playin...nt even enuff to play a 3v3....it is meant to be 8 players and ppl falling sick...ppl ps at de beri last min...i tink 1 of de excuse tt shuldnt be used is tired...i tink every1 else will be equally tired...ppl who are busy...ppl who juz vomit 1 day before when running 1.3km ARR...ppl who came all e way from simei and nid to wake up dam earli......so i will be glad tt i dun haf to hear de excuse tt one is tired aft agreeing to come..i m nt being angry here but juz being fair to those who make de effort to come and cnt get to enjoy a fun bball session...and ultimately i m of coz de 1 to be held responsible...so i apologise for de flop tdy...

i haf finished watching de perfect cut2...13 episode nia..dam sad tt it has ended...but yea..it is a dam nice and great show...i recommend tt u guys watched it...by hook or by crook..

wif dis...march comes to an end...and april begins..1 more mth dwn...actualli 1 mth onli has 4 book out..so sometimes i tink tt it is rather fast..i tink i wuld be able to last till ORD.....

and oh ya...tdy i knocked into my knee while i m trying to act jackie chan and jump over a railing...dam retarded...and yea..i had difficulty bending and straightening my knee back...walking feels wierd too...

当全世界在反对你在做的东西时，
要嘛你死，
要嘛你成功。

2009-03-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

isit dis world been more n more corrupted and infected...or isit mi tt is lagging behind times..or rather say still having de conservative thinking...i suddenli felt..wierd n out of place..

i juz talked to a secondary sch fren and realised tt he alrdy had sex before alrdy...even tried one night stand..he says de feel sux...but having sex wif ur loved ones is pleasurable..ok watever..i asked him but how u initiate it...dun u feel like a teeko when u ask ur gf whether u can do it wif her anot..but he juz said dunnid say..de time will come when it comes..den i was asking..dunnid ask permission 1 meh...is like juz do it? is like i feel tt if nvr ask permission like is dam nvr respect de galfren la...

another case is my bunk mate which he looks kind of a decent fellow...but recently den i realised tt he had his 1st time when he was sec 3...and another guy in my unit telling mi tt he had done it wif his gf alrdy oso....

when they tell mi all these..i will feel wah and stunned...but to dem or mabbe mani mani ppl..it is rather common...i juz felt tt at such a age...i juz feel tt it will be wierd n inappropriate doing tt...

de love i xpect has always been de sweet sweet experience...he care for she..she care for he...happily ever after...when she is tired..he will carry her on his back...when she is upset..he will gif her a hug and pat her on her back and says "it's alright...i will always be here wif u"...when she is sleepy aft a day's shopping..he will let her lean on his shoulder to slp...when she is sick...he will buy some medicine or herbal drinks and pay her a visit at her hse...when she is bored...he will talk to her over de fone or sms her to keep her entertained...when she misses him...he actuallis misses her as well...

but i nvr ever tink tt sex shuld occur...i dunno....feeling rather confused now oso...coz no matter whichever side is right or wrong..or mabbe both aren't wrong...is my tinking right now tt is out of place and so different...

mabbe wat i xpect in love is more of de emotional care...

2009-03-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

nights out...watched another 3 episode of a perfect cut 2..nice nice nice! if onli i dun haf to book in...things haf been back to normal...雨过天晴....i realised i can be saitisfied qte easily...or rather easily appeased...all it takes is de right person to do de right thingy...

haf been feeling throat inflamation since monday...till now still nt yet recover...can say tt i feeling like kind of feverish...den tdy stomach like keep pulling inwards...feel qte unwell de la...dis sat haf ARR..hope can run...or rather...die die haf to run...

april i oso got clear a bit off..so april i most sunday dunnid book in....may haf 1 time big one den is time for mi to relac till ORD...i hope....

2009-03-22T19:55:00.004+08:00

another week has passed...i dunno how mani weeks of army has i been thrugh since i enlist...in n out...out n in...i lost count....estimation...11 more mths roughly to ORD...tt shuld be ard 44 weeks...so 44 more book outs and i m permanently out...

fri cw stayed at my hse...we did qte a lot..we went for pool wif daryl and alford...den aft tt watched superhero at my hse..had a great laugh...laughter is actualli a beri wonderful thing...den aft tt we went dwn to playgrd to had a drink...sometimes is nt tt i wanna emo over alcoholic effects or watever but alcohols trigger ppl to pour out their heart more...de feel and de ambience to talk abt a lot other serious stuffs rather than talking cock...and sometimes...by talking such stuffs...it makes ppl tink...aft tt we applied for uni..computer science for now...NUS or NTU..i dunno but wat a chore to send my documents to NUS...dam it....

sat went for wushu steamboat...great to sit dwn and talk cock once again wif jiao lian...i nearli overslept for my station...i woke up and de door is opened alrdy..at admiralty..dam juz nice...and tt train is de last train alrdy...if i nvr wake up...holy mama...den justin stayed over at my hse..so tt i can wake him up for bball de nxt day..yupp..i forced him over to stay de...

sun..tdy...1 of de bball sessions wif little ppl..7 including justin and justin left qte earli...leaving 6 of us to play...mi kh qi kr dog and olk...tdy's weather is dam dam dam nice..realli de BEST ever...nt sunny..neither raining...juz nice...we kept on playing..3v3...changing teams...until olk cmi le...actualli i still got de flame de..but wells...time to stop den...felt an improvement tdy...perhaps a different style...but i like dis style...

watched a perfect cut 2 currently...aft sui shi hou ming...another show which is dam inspiring...perfect cut 2 is far more inpsiring den sui shi hou ming...up dere man...it sets mi tinking as well...

i start to tink more...
a lot more in life...

2009-03-15T21:28:00.003+08:00

abt to book in again...

yst whole day in camp...so basically for dis weekend...i onli gt sunday...which is tdy...

ok la tdy is qte a good day...except for some upsets in de morning...went wif kr and dog to watch suspect X...nice show man...such wits...such talents...yet a genuis will still fall to doom due to love...how a genius sacrifice for his loved one....and de gal still tot tt de guy has bad intentions...until at de end where another genius tell her de truth and everythin..den she realised her folly...if de genius nvr tell her..she will nvr noe how a guy has treated her whole-heartedly...even aft de guy died for her...she will still live her life normally w/o knowing wat exactly a person has done for her...

how mani times in life tt ppl neglected wat other ppl has done for dem...countless...and some nt even realising it....so...learn to appreciate...

aft tt rotted in my hse...my room as usual...on aircon and watched ong bak...gay muay thai....how ppl will fite wif determination for their loved ones...

den aft tt jogged and played bball...played wif 2 other uncles...mi kr cw dog...so we had a 3v3....nice game...i tink my skills and shooting has improved... :) wayy to go man...towards de dream of uni bball team!

k...tt is abt all....time to prepare to set off le...

do i even had a placing in ur heart...

2009-03-14T21:52:00.001+08:00

last thurs is my buddy-cum-cousin bdae man....yuppp so.....

HAPPY BDAE JUSTIN~

2009-03-11T21:15:00.002+08:00

chanced upon my fren blog and saw dis wow post....

http://myarmyatwar.blogspot.com/2009/02/what-happened-to-all-nice-guys.html

somehow it juz describes wat i haf been feeling all these while man...
zai eng...i probably wun be able to say such things out wif my limited vocab n i juz describe it as undescribable...

it certainly make sense if u gals tink back carefully.
de fact comes tt did u seriously tink abt it?

2009-03-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

booking in again le...is juz a vicious cycle...out n in...den in n out...

A lvl result release...

cw totally same as mi..we r like...clones?

in de end...wat is de point of everythin...

2009-03-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

now out for nights out..aft no nights out for 3 weeks...finalli i can go for nights out le...come back to catch up on my episode of 随时侯命...somehow tt show always inspire mi....in tt show i realli feel for kefeng...he always try his best to help others...his frenz ard him...but in e end everythin juz dun go smooth for him....he wanted to help ppl...in de process of caring and helping ppl...he dun even care for himself...but he realised...watever he tries best to help others...is somehow juz a wrong step..so wat actualli is right...his mind is confused...he always believe in 人人为我，我为人人 but isit realli true...

yst guard duty finalli over...qte xiong sia..to be a guard3...i stood on my legs for almost 18 hrs...realli dam shagged...

就算做到人人为我，我为人人

人人也能真的为我吗？

will they be appreciative...

2009-02-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

another chop chop post...juz came back home...left 1 hr to set off le...tulan sia...kena sunday guard duty...sounds real stressed de la...being guard3 or even guard2 or guard comm...anyway i guard3 dis time rd...

dis week nvr realli relac dao le liddat...sun gone...tdy used to settle all my serious stuffs...nvr relac at all..fri nite cai book out dota a while...haix...life is realli gettin more n more shagged for mi...tdy i even busy until at 8+ den i talkin to my sis over fone...den i realise...OH MY...i forgot tt i haben eat lunch...is seriously totally slip off mind...nvr feel hungry or anythin until i busy finish...one of a kind experience man...

anyway tdy finalli booked for BTT le...at least i finalli make de 1st move...way to go to drive a car man...

aft exercise nt even cnt relac...eat my sunday away somemore...i got nth to say sia....

sometimes in de unit i feel lyk i m totally fighting alone...mabbe wif juz a few ones standing by mi....

so wad...life goes on....tinking tt who can understand man.....

i m juz waitin for ORD...
juz wanna ORD peacefully....

2009-02-23T17:42:00.002+08:00

now in camp blogging a while...abt sat a small incident...

i nearli kena knocked dwn by a car....it was some uncle who shouted...nt at us but at some other ppl....den i stopped and looked back....den a car juz drove past straight in front of mi at qte a fast speed...1 second slower and i tink i m gone....heart got a shock a bit...and it lasted for qte some time...

at tt moment i tot...life is realli unpredictable...wat if i realli get knocked....i wun haf de chance to say out wat i wan to say...to some ppl....and it makes mi tink tt we shuld realli cherish de impt. ppl ard us....coz u wun noe wat will happen de nxt second....

ok gotta go off do things le....

2009-02-22T21:56:00.003+08:00

going to book in le...sibei sian sia...dis week a lot things i cnt complete...too busy man....but sat is a good day... :)

tdy dog bdae...happy bdae man dog....we had bball in de morning...15 players all tgt...wow man...1 of de most players participating alrdy...can play 3 teams of 5 somemore...but too bad soccer ppl take away de court aft tt...aft tt went pool...

everytime go out den nid part and go back home..juz feel dam sad and dunwan...but no choice...all gotta end sooner or ltr...haix....

dis week book in got de dam sian feel...mabbe coz cnt go nights out...exercise again...sian...

ok no time blog oso...zao le....

if i m betta....why....

2009-02-16T03:21:00.002+08:00

haben blog since i booked out...until tdy...if tml no MA..i cnt even blog tdy...lol..den dis whole week jiu wun see mi update le...

dis week freaking hectic....haf been bbq-ing myself under de hot sun for de entire week....weekends is mentally draining as well..a lot last min changes in plans and i nid tink of new plan asap...realli tiring when i haf so mani things to take charge and so mani ppl to account to....

nvr get to slp a lot as well....realli a suay week i can say...things tt i do 2 mths beforehand..can cock up n nid redo at de last min...wth is dis u tell mi...

anyway...happy V day....yupp...juz a plain normal day for ppl who are single...like mi...haha...or mabbe slightly abnormal la...tend to be more emo on dis day....

tdy took BIG family foto....den eat at vienna seafood...dam full sia...took a lot spas foto as well..anyway i tink i look mature n shuai in tt outfit de la...lol....tdy de hair got a bit style oso...i tink la...lol....gonna cut soon le..too long liaoz...i bui song....nxt weekend go cut....

once again enjoyed car ride wif my buddy.... :)

how wonderful it is to own a car....ur own car...

2009-02-08T20:15:00.002+08:00

tdy bball wif brothers...last week nvr bball...anyway tdy i feel dam cui...totally nua...why? i dunno oso...somehow i cnt get myself to run as fast and agile....shooting oso nt dere...zz...

yst pool oso cui...dis whole week do de all cui...dam it man...

tdy aft bball rot in my room again..watch black swindler...nt realli understand...boring show i could say....i keep falling asleep during de show...mabbe coz i too tired oso....like i say...tdy is nua....den bball in de sun makes mi drained....always liddat de lei sian....

abt to book in lo...den now can onli look foward to nxt book out again lo....haha...still feel qte happy tt 1 yr exactly left....

anyway i changed to imeem le..no more iwebmusic...1stly...upload ma fan...2ndly...quality cui....so now yea..my new blog song..搞笑 dis title describes mi well haha...anyway de lyrics make sense too..i see de MV...listen to de song..i will tear de la....感同身受

i m lookin foward to havin a computer table in my room....den can arrange my room properly even more le....den de nxt step will be a computer!

i updated my wants list le....new yr new list ma...old de which is achieved is past le..now is for more man....yea! way to go!

sometimes having goals n aims help to distract u from things tt make u sad...

2009-02-08T00:13:00.001+08:00

aft 12 le! so is 8th feb!

1 more yr EXACTLY to ORD!!!!

08/02/2010!

i juz cnt wait man

2009-02-07T00:50:00.002+08:00

juz finished dota...play wif dog and olk...2 pub team wif us and 5 other scourge all are pub and frenz...they 5 all choose lo..den lvl 1 our 1 pub leave...ma de..4v5 from start against 5 frenz who choose..got troll somemore...troll tide bm lr and morph...i tell dog cont coz if rr he cnt play le...he say sure lose...i say try la...den i realli pia like hell...thrughout run here run dere...den WE WIN...own dem man....late game start getting harder but wif teamwork..we win dem still...

so wat i tryin to say is...why gif up when u haben even try...if u gif up...u haf zero chance of winning..but if u try ur best...u still gt chance to win or succeed...but usualli ppl are scared of failure...so they rather dun jump into it..juz quit at de start...

dota teaches us life values and a lot other things as well....
but ppl always tot tt i m juz purely playin for de entertainment...

2009-02-04T19:51:00.002+08:00

on nights out now...rush to aunt hse to let her cut hair de back and side a bit for mi..tml RSM parade...bo bian...dunwan kena caught again...

now watching 随时候命, dam nice to see kefeng and youlan de couple moments...3 yrs ago...youlan got into accident n got into coma for 3 yrs...in 3 yrs..kefeng visit her...help her massage her limbs...wash up...nvr gi up before..and when de blood clot in her brain finalli shifted and a brain operation is possible..dere is a 50% chance she will live or die if she do de operation...kefeng decided to take dis gamble...youlan wakes up..but lost her memory and forgot everythin including all her memories wif kefeng..

it is a breakdwn for kefeng...he hold on for 3 yrs...juz to wait for youlan to wake up...but when she wakes up..she forgot abt him...but in e end he decided to start from scratch again...to befren youlan and woo her from start again...and they finalli get tgt again....and dam xin fu tgt...always talking cock and laughing ard...

den she nearli got into another accident and at tt moment...she recalled abt her memories wif kefeng again....

kefeng realli dam happy....

i wonder isit always efforts pays off man in relationship...

喜欢一个人本来就是应该小气的嘛 :)

2009-02-01T20:56:00.002+08:00

going to book in alrdy....last wed night i book in...they straight tell mi fri off...so thurs book out...dam nice man...but dis time i bet they wun tell mi tue off le...realli gg back to normal dull ns life le...i realli miss cny mann....siann...nxt yr de cny day 1 is V day....haha..so zhun la..can bring gf go relative hse bai nian oso...haha...provided have...and nxt yr de cny...ORD LE!...dam nice man...i can see ORD coming...though is 1 yr more....

dis sat is a greatt day...haben been dis wayy for a longg time...guess sometimes juz dun realli bother abt which is truth anot la...it doesnt matter anyway....realli tink thrugh it...haha...

realli gonna buy a desktop real real soon man...sis is complaining le...like helll de complaining..nt normal de complaining...lol....i dam lazy to update songs on my mp3 la..zzz....till now a lot songs haben put in....

so for now...i await 5 days ltr den....i wait...

2009-01-28T20:07:00.007+08:00

tt is my diamond ring...sparkling ba? :)

新一代歌手：陈伟胜！

tdy went ktv wif kr and cw...wanna use de voucher de...den dunno y neh neh de they say onli night can use...de conditions nvr write so lo....we kena scam liaoz...zzzz but in e end oso ok la..17 per person nia..4 hrs...cw sing until throat cui...kr sing until nt singing...purely stoning...i m de sole survivor...HAHA!!!

tdy i oso tink i wear until dam shuai...1st time wearing dis white shirt...wa feel like prince liddat sia...stylo....kr oso say i smart seh....

sian...so long de break den haf to book in...sibei reluctant la...but bo bian...suck thumb go in....but fri come out again le lol...

i gonna change iwebmusic to imeem le..iwebmusic always got prob den wan upload oso so ma fan...nid convert until dam cui...zzz...

come back wif kr and cw to my hse to rot..den dota 1 rd..win...nt juz win...but own-ed....de game 18 mins jiu finish le...dam gayy man...lol....nice feel before booking in...but still..tulan abt de book in....

ok cya~

2009-01-28T01:38:00.003+08:00

holidays r over in a flash...cny is de opportunity for mi to catch up wif my relatives..had a great time dis weekend...we played taboo tdy...fun especially...and in critical anxious moments....human minds cnt work properly....try it if u dun believe it...

desktop officially cui-ed...now share laptop wif sis le..bet she tulan...i dunwan to oso..but i dun haf a choice...nt ripe time to buy com yet...

seriously in heavy slp debt....aft blogging i go slp le..2am...is alrdy de earliest i slp since dis weekend....so u see how gayyy my sleeping debt is....dam it man....i a bit cnt last alrdy sia....struggle like dog...

anyway..grats to teo for improving so much in dota..for wat i see tdy at least la...hope it is constant de and nt ups and dwns...wayy to go man....

ok man..i tink i betta get some slp....

dam..i lost 26bucks tdy..

new yr resolution...
hope de earth spinning system cock up...
48 hrs a day for weekends...
12 hrs a day for weekdays...

2009-01-26T14:13:00.004+08:00

haha happy cny man peeps!

i watching preview now...concert of a lot singers...dam nice man...

happy bdae yk...and ll as well...

i awaiting nxt yr de cny...it means i ORD lo!!! haha

why muz dis world be so complicated tt i feel lyk i cnt fit in at all ...
if onli dis world is as simple as saying yes n no based on ur own heart...

my cny wish is to find an island of my own to live my own way..
though without de island..i will still cont to live my own way...

2009-01-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

yst cycled wif teo to khatib and bball wif dog...long journey man..anyway i injured an injured finger again..if i keep bballing wif de injuries on my fingers...i tink i will nvr recover...

den aft tt we talk cock at some playgrd..until near 1 sia...nice talk dere...haha...

tdy watched love matters...funni show...i love funni shows...talk crapp tt makes mi laugh..lol....

dis week has a long break again...all e way till wed man...woots...

gonna bball again tml...bless my fingers ba....

2009-01-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

tdy off sia...haha...is a reward for cny plus our exercise for de past few days...but gonna book in now le...sad...

tdy went shoppin spree wif cw...buy super a lot new yr clothes and jeans and watever nots dis yr...he said i buy things nvr blink eyes de sia..haha..anyway top frag goes to.........newbie! got member card from tt liaoz...so cute...de card...1 more member card into my wallet...coming up nxt is passion card...den specialised tapz card...

my desktop kena virus le..dam it man....now it realli cnt survive le..i cnt copy paste things la! my cyborg she show inside desktop i haben xfer to harddisk sia...how man...siann....

tml book out again...den haf a longg break before booking in...cheers to cny..time to gather at ah ma hse..gamble and watever shits....

ok...zao le...cya~

2009-01-18T18:09:00.003+08:00

3 more hrs to book in....den here it goes again...another 5 days....sianness...cnt wait for cny de long break man....

tdy bballed...made 2 new frenz...nvr play violent plus level qte near us as well...fun...4 rds full court...holy mama...finger kena zham twice...de same finger twice....now out of 10 fingers...i haf 4 fingers injured....my thumb is i ownself hammer dao de...nail inside 2/3 blue black 1/3 normal...surrounding oso swollen...leg oso feel dam cui....body feels weak...mabbe coz of de heat...dam nua man....this makes mi tink...how far a human body can stretch before it is REALLI REALLI shagged out....like 3 fingers injured and cont playin bball...aft de 4th one injured...still cont...leg wan cramp le...dam shagged le...still cont...feels lyk a superman now man....

last week saw a specialist trainee faint....makes mi tink...wat if 1 day i juz collapse...and mabbe nvr wake up again...marks an end to wil's story n chapters in his life...

dis fri book out late coz of exercise...den i wanna gif a surprise...but in e end kena attitude...realli hurts...painful...why isit always tt ppl onli rmb others in their times of needs...and aft tt...they forgot abt everythin...the attitude becomes cold...they completely forgot abt de support tt they received....humans....i juz tink tt we r pathetic animals...we wage war...fighting against own population....causing destructions to our own planet...backstabbing here n dere to climb up in position...and a lot a lot things...

你真的伤了我的心

2009-01-17T05:58:00.001+08:00

finalli finished a mission wif kr...time to sleep...is 6 le wt!

nighto~
i mean morning...

2009-01-14T21:03:00.001+08:00

nights out...shortened nights out man..RSM start catching ppl who book in late le..dam it....

dis weekend gotta be another dam dam dam busy week...wtf man..i m shagged...

sometimes busy is a good way of forgetting mani things...and u will find life more more more meaningful..woah....

gotta book in le...fri coming out..yea man...

and i juz realised...yy got a blog too..LOL..and is so similiar to my url...loners life rox~

i won another dota round for dis nights out....
way to go..100% pub win from now on...

2009-01-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

time to blog before i book in later on...dis weekend has been realli realli busy man....meeting ppl...celebrating von bdae for her...is great...happy bdae man von~ and oso bball wif confrerie tdy..nt forgetting pool....tdy 1 new-comer for bball...alford...haha...we play till shagged...1pm cai end sia..latest ever....

nxt weekend de things haben plan yet...dis week oso nvr get to meet dao justin...dam it lol...my buddy cousin man...nvm la...see how it goes...i gt hell lots of things..but hell less of time...army ma...5 days tulan 2 days shuang...see de ratio? totally is a sad sad life....

juz dota-ed 2 rds...training up for draft in de near future..i m seeing sth now..good good good...de 2nd rd was totally...shuang....

ok so much for tt...now leg still a bit sour....time to prepare to book in...talk cock wif my guys a while before booking in....

and...red cliff 2 is nice...de soldiers fite tgt for a common goal...willing to fite till their death...even if sacrificing their lives....de brotherhood btw them....de strategy they tink of to fite against de enemy....i wuld say....is so much like dota...and bball...and a lot a lot...those teamwork tt i like...nice show....

天下归心
our heart beat as one....
CONFRERIE!

2009-01-08T06:25:00.003+08:00

haha i now in camp blogging away...do AOS duty yst for 24 hrs...till today 8 den end duty..haha...here got internet..so can use...nt bad la...but stoning inside de office gets kind of a bored aft some time...well..juz blogging to try de blogging experience while doing duty...nth much to write in particular...perhaps 1 thingy....

i m HELL DAM BUSY dis weekend...and mabbe de subsequent weekends...

dere r so mani things i wanna do and haf to do...yet too little time....

can heaven gimme 48 hrs per day in weekend and 12 hrs per day in weekday??? i appreciate tt greatly...thx lots~

ppl take things for granted...
perhaps life has been too comfortable for dem...

2009-01-04T20:15:00.000+08:00

tinking btw family dinner and dota...if nt tt tdy i whole day nvr dota dao..i cfm go family dinner..ma de..tough choice man..zzz...

anyway tdy i wanna say...i did a dam nice dam nice jump shot...SHUAI LA!

2009-01-04T18:30:00.002+08:00

haix..feeling so sian now man...de leaves are over...here it goes again...countin from jan to dec...like everythin is back to square 1....i hope time pass by fast from now on....i realli realli cnt wait for ORD...army is juz wasting my time...i gt betta things to do...betta things to achieve...siannn....gotta book in ltr on le...

i dun wan to wake up from my dream...

2009-01-01T19:22:00.003+08:00

new yr le...once again another yr...to mi as usual...new yr is juz another day...no such thingy as spend wif who..precious moments...or watever...afterall i m still a lone soul aft so mani yrs..haha...new yr i pass it being on de bus...haha...ALONE....i din even realise 12 midnight come..coz i m busy looking out for landscape so as nt to alight at de wrong stop to go pork hse....

yst i finalli noe...yuan lai drink too much realli will vomit..i oso dunno y..but i juz vomit lo...but aft vomit le...wa de head nt so feel lyk bursting le...but thx to olk...keep holding onto mi...lol..din noe u so caring de sia...ni neh de....

ok lets talk abt sth tt is common...new yr resolution....

improvement in bball skills....
improvement in pool skills....
more income to come in pls....
brothers cont to stay united....
some1 i love to love mi as well...
army to be announced cancelled....every1 ORD!
improve face...haha means less pimples la...den jiu more shuai le...hehe
com to last till at least june to let mi buy a new com aft tt....

i juz wanna say to all my brothers...haha...though i always like scold and scold...or crude at times...but wells...u noe i treasure u all and see every1 of u important in my eyes de...in 1 way or another...juz wanna say....
cont to stay wif mi...CONFRERIE!!! or surbodinates....almost every1 in dere is like a 5/6 yrs frenship wif mi at least le...except clement who is new in dere...but heys...u blend in well... :)

lcpsk as well...haha...we r another grp of types of brothers...a bit random talk cock gang..lol

7 wonders...de onli grp tt i haf which has gals...and sry to ps u all so so so mani times man..haha

and ya...bok gotten a gf..WTF...i cnt imagine tt man...how did he...wt....mabbe my last new yr resolution shuld add...bok break up wif his gf asap...haha...but ya...actualli ok la...no diff to mi oso...gl hf ba~ i watch show....

alright...time to dota...
i neglected cw tdy..time to compensate to him haha....

HAPPY NEW YR~
i m sort of fading away into de shadows but it certainly doesnt make much of a diff. in ur life

2008-12-28T21:42:00.001+08:00

booking in le...8 days of CV life..totally dun feel lyk an army kia...feel so shuang la...i realli hate to book in...but gotta to...good times dun last eh?

tml i duty..BDS...but i dunno wtf to do....lol....sian la..i tink i will kena again....sungei gedong haf de suay aura against mi....

tue book out again...yea cnt wait for tt...den thurs nite book in..fri book out again...sibei lame....

ya knock tio elbow juz nw...knock dao side of door...liddat oso can....knock dao de instance..i no energy la...nid use right hand lift up my left hand...now ok le but cnt bend..bend 90 degree will pain...sian..hope tml will be ok....wan book in le jiu knock dao...u see? sungei gedong is so suay tt it is so powerful...book in straight kena sth le....

tdy is enjoyable...bball 3 rds of full court...cw FINALLI made it...ok la...he oso cui...keep sayin no energy le....but ya..tdy is sunny de...we camp in my room watch dvd...woah my room rox suddenli...feels so too haha

ok time to zao....haix...sian mood....

when do i ORD la...ma de

2008-12-26T17:11:00.003+08:00

i m now alone at home...nt a single soul at home...mabbe nt even mine...my com spoil...cnt dota...can onli watch show on my sis laptop...realli bored...i dunwan my com to die...i nid it to last 1 yr still...but isit possible...i realli doubt its lifespan le...i dun haf de money to buy a new com now de....

so fast 1 week passed...leave period over soon...

dis yr de xmas can be said is 1 of de best xmas...i m realli happy on xmas eve...24th....bring back a lot memories as well...

de xmas present above is de best ever...i see de choc she bu de eat...but cnt possibly leave it dere forever...but memories can...so i took a foto of it...so even if eat finish...de image will still be dere...

now gt de lonely feel...so i decided to open dis choc to eat wif de emo feel...thinking of de giver...emo song in de backgrd as well...anyway some1 told mi tt 26th is boxing day...means to open up xmas present de...so tdy take it as i box de choc and eat it up lo...

爱情可以让你拥有甜蜜开心的回忆
也可以让你伤心，心碎，一辈子也不能忘记

一下子开心，又可以在下一秒觉得寂寞

2008-12-20T19:01:00.004+08:00

1. The person who tag you is?

Wendy

2. Your relationship with him/her?

she is my sister -_- but sometimes i take her as my brother

3. Your 5 impression of him/her?

act seh...qte smart but nt as smart as mi...last min person...night owl juz like mi...creative

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?

i dun remember any...probably de times where we sit on her bed and talk cock...

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you?

gor gor...

6. If he/she becomes ur lover, things he/she has to improve on?

tt will be incest i tink....

7. If she/he become ur enemy, you will?

we used to fite a lot when we r kids...mabbe tt is y she is so tomboy...but if she become my enemy...and we fite..she sure lose like in de past....haha

9. What is it that you want to tell her now?

i m using ur laptop now....

10. Your overall impression of him/her is?

juz a mei mei...same as those i stated above lo...

11. How do u tink ppl ard u will feel ard u?

happy and sometimes tulan...haha...i may talk a lot cock but i can be 霸道 at times...my brothers noe tt...haha

12. The character you love of urself are?

influence others' mood...smart....creative.....can bring laughter to ppl = joker...confident...霸道 haha

13. On the contrary, the character u hate yourself are?

being a 大哥........cnt bring myself to be a bastard.......i m an army kia...my heart forever rules over my mind...emotional kia

14. The most ideal person u want to be is?

myself...i tot i said i m confident?

15. For ppl who care n like u, say something to them:

i dun realli say mushy things...or cnt realli express myself well...u all noe can alrdy la hor...such things are juz nt for mi....

16. Pass this quiz to 10 ppl that u wish to know how they feel about.

teo...yk...kr...daryl....dog....cw (time to revive ur blog)

2008-12-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

book out le...and 1 week ahead of mi is all mine...solely...nt for ns...nt for army...juz for mi....

from de side of my dreams and desires section...de things tt haf been cancelled has increased...haha...more and more fufilled man...now de room decoration de....is halfway done too...will be completed approx in nxt yr june....

as i mentioned before..i haf been suay recently...and it still haben stop...driving test for bronco...i m de onli 1 who failed and nid to re-test..i played bball on 1 of de nites inside camp and aft playing...when i walking back to bunk...i slip and fell...and grind my knee against de floor...well done...big patch of injury for tt...pus keep coming out..aft tt i juz wash wounds and still haf to do my publication thingy wif de wound and blood flowing dwnwards...i keep wiping in intervals while i doing de things....worst thingy is tt nxt day is floatation and haf to jump inside water wif life vest to simulate wat to do if de bronco sinks while we drive in water...de water will be dam dirty plus we will be wearing de wet shirt and pants and shoes whole day till midnight...so my wound will be dam gg man...in e end i change into fresh pair aft jumping water....

a 1st sgt keep aiming mi alrdy...dam biased against mi..telling my fren bad things abt mi oso...but my fren tell mi abt it...tell mi to be careful...i kena aim le...dis sgt has noob thinking...malign mi a few times alrdy oso...juz like a total 小人 man...juz ignore him ba...i dunwan blow things up...i try to steer way of him lo...if realli bo bian and keep kena things from him den i report up to OC le..heck...

清者自清

2008-12-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

juz bought a imation portable harddisk 320GB...159 bucks...recently spend too much liaoz sia ma de...anyway pack finish my room le..like a finalli...now all it waits is a new bed and a com desk and most prob a wall cabinet....all this will take at least half yr ltr....for now...dis is good...my tv and sound system is finalli set up...dis week slp dam little man...fri i slp at 3 den wake up 530 to book in...den sat which is yst i slp at 5+ den 815 wake up...wth man...slp so late to pack...dam challenging...special thx to kr for de contribution to my room...esp my bedside table...is he solo de table de..from boards and screws to a decent looking table...haha...wat r brothers for man...dis is wat it means by brother...teo has a little contribution too...for my sound system...he sets up de wire de...while kr slp in de morning coz of de struggle of de table yst...thx le man...lastly is myself for tinking and designing where to put de things...shuwen de scrapebook oso up le..yea man...my ff poster oso...more posters will come if i chance upon nice 1...nt nice de i rather dun buy den to put for sake of putting...

abt to book in le..dis weekend is short...bronco course eat up sat half day....a lot things to do but feel lyk dere is so little time....

tdy buyin de harddisk is dam malu...ma de...i pronounce de imation wrongly despite kr and cw correct mi once...den i say as imitation when i tell de salesman wat i wan...wthhhh man....den he correct mi...sibei malu...to de maxxx....dunno why in my mind...imation is preset pronounced as imitation alrdy...

dam imitation!
or rather...imation...
ya...dam u...

2008-12-10T21:36:00.004+08:00

nights out...finalli watch finish 篮球火
nice stunts man...

i can onli say...see those 幕后花絮 realli can make mi smile man...like they r playing and joking ard while filming...nt those serious type....got de teamwork feel oso...

nt juz de filiming...in de show oso got a lot teamwork de....

dis week sat burn...bronco course...ma de...fri book out den sat morning book in again lo..suck thumb....zhi hao ORD le...wa so shiok lo....when my turn sia....

ever since i go in sungei gedong...i suay all e way till now...previous suay things i alrdy mentioned...den bronco course start...so mani freakin names...onli i tio store ic...ma de...why liddat sia...tink wilson too easy pronounce...tt is y i kena...nxt time i freaking gonna call my son...ajuiksjdfa.....i see how they pronounce....ma de.... (my son is so lucky to haf such a smart dad...save him from all the rubbish sai gang and arrowing)

k time to prepare book in...luckily tdy nt beri rush...1 ep to catch nia..and tt is de last episode...

篮球火万岁！

球场上谁给我们信心
兄弟!

球场上谁给我们支援
兄弟!

球场上谁给我们勇气
兄弟!

有了兄弟
绝对无敌!!!

2008-12-08T21:57:00.002+08:00

gonna book in le...bronco course push foward...so they cancel my leave..if nt i tml book in de la...siann...dis weekend is bloodi rush...i going in wif a stone in de heart...like a lot things nt done...tdy whole day no dota...feel lyk at least shuld dota 1 rd cai go in...flopp...nvr chiong finish hot shot...still got 1 more episode to finish...flopp...dis weekend nvr pool much at all...flopp....wan bball tdy but rain...flopp....room nt even packed dao at all...flopped....ma de...so mani things nvr do....dam it la....

yea...but i m kind of excited and anticipating my room...a new make-over...woah...juz wait for tt man....

tdy watched bolt...cute show man...i liked it...haha....

yea...i waitin for bronco course end...chiong my leave till hong gan....wuahahaa!!!!!

as long as u r happy....

2008-12-08T02:04:00.001+08:00

past few days has been dam tiring...yea...nvr dota much oso...keep fallin aslp when playin halfway when is late at nite..i wan chiong hot shot finish oso cannot...realli too tired...why sia...i oso dunno....

haha my tagboard has become so active...woah a forum...sounds good oso....hope to see more wushu ppl on xmas eve de overnite event...sounds like qte a major one...

realli cmi le..i go slp now le...nighto...

你微笑，但是旁边的人不是我

2008-11-30T21:02:00.004+08:00

last post before booking in..lol...hot shot is nice man...haha...

dis week nvr realli dota a lot...sian...weekends feel shorter and shorter...

finalli got to pool wif daryl dis weekend..haha..ever since i picked up pool 1.5 mths ago...i heard from cw daryl zai..haha...but i win man~ haha wat a luck...juz tink back..i onli start play pool for weekends for 1.5 mths onli...hmmm...i tink i m fast learner man....zai talent within mi..nt juz for pool...but mani other stuffs haha....

dis weekend spent a lot again..dam it..buy 5 comic den 30 bucks gone...

dis morning bball-ed...long time nvr bball tgt le...feels good man...but...i feel cui man..i still cnt cut thrugh...can onli shoot from farr...when can i do it....

juz tink wolf is a dam cool animal...they can fite enemies tt are stronger to dem...and they can fite wif their life....they cnt afford to haf fear...if they fail...they pay wif their life...
their aggresiveness...their calm-in-danger....their 眼神

狼 ~

它们不是不怕，而是不能怕，也不允许自己怕

2008-11-29T06:33:00.003+08:00

back from a stayout session at amk...lol...1st is to pool until de shop like wan close wan close liaoz..but we started qte late anyway..like 12...so pool till ard 2...yea...den aft tt we tink of wat to do...hmm...juz buy some alcohols at cheers and 7-11...haha..so off mi and teo go...to a playgrd and drink...drink le i feel qte sleepy...teo die die dunwan slp...i emo finish le wan slp...so i juz drag him to de badminton court beside it...i heck alrdy...juz lie on de badminton court and slp...and wth man...ltr on it became dam cold...i took out my jacket but my legs are unprotected...so yea...ppl who noe mi will noe tt i m dam scared of cold de yea? so bo bian..suck thumb...endure until cmi le decided walk back to amk station wait for mrt...den finalli i am back home..while teo go book in back to camp...teo always say tank tank..say wan pool overnite den steady he tank...den he onli 9 bucks wif him..tank wat shit...den in e end i still haf to throw out 10 bucks... -_- in e end back to square 1...still mi...

yst book out at 315pm liddat...qte shiok..past 1 week we juz go to exercise grd at jurong camp to see see..whole entire week...1 day 24 hr i sleep 18 hrs...lol...dam piggy man...haix...anyway i dam suay de...mabbe like a blur cock sergent alrdy...2nd day oversleep and driver waitin dwnstairs...4th day being a vehicle commander and de toner got into car accident...den gotta write statement....i got nth and nth to say man....

den when i reach home aft book out yst...i read ard...see my sis blog...cai realise yuan lai my cousin zoee alrdy got bf...heard he 25 yrs old and is sign on officer...wt...ok la a lot say ok but to mi i dun realli like de age gap...like dating wif an adult liddat...but de good thingy is...he has a car...and so...yupp...free driver man....she kena caught when de relatives and family at chalet...lol...yupp...as usual...i m absent from all de family and relative outings and thingy...look at de foto...they seem happy and having fun...i tink in my memories i rarely had fun wif my family...everytime they go out i oso nt ard de...plus de relatives...i tink i m de most distant liaoz lo...sounds like a lone ranger..but yea..when i see my sis blog and de fotos...i feel so too...de lonely feel man...like a family of 4 plus a tenant...juz come back on weekends to use de washing machine and computer de guy...but...xi guan jiu hao...i m used to all these...

for those who wanna see some family warmth...here it goes....
http://theredchopsticks.blogspot.com/

they thurs wushu dinner i oso nvr go...haha...forever MIA de....

somemore recently cock up...i guess...different ppl different life la hor..different fate oso...like de blog url is juz so suitable and appropriate...i m so nt gonna change it man...it juz blends in wif my life...lol

wil..u r such a nice guy...
so...is dis supposed to be a good thingy or a bad thingy...
de same old saying...
好人难做

2008-11-24T03:12:00.002+08:00

tml report le..a lot things to bring..i scared i miss out things sia...always liddat de la...u wun noe wat u miss out until u realise it...if nt it wun be called MISSED OUT le right....

i drag cw along to rot wif mi lol...yea...now 315 le...means i left 2 hr 45 min to slp...wulala...den jiu wake up and prepare set off le...

wonder how new life is like....

tdy went out wif lcpsk...eat shoduko....den ltr eat ben and jerry...heart pain...2 scoop 8.50....-_- can eat 8 roadside stall de ice cream and still got 50 cent change....aft tt meet tong wc and cw to play pool...wa is cui de lo tdy...dam off-form...miss like free....siannn...

i tdy get to see xiongjiejie too :) aft so long of nvr get to see her...i sure kinda miss her man...

i tink i betta slp le...if nt realli is dunnid slp...

and o ya...my forehead and nose is peeling due to de sunburn...zzz..and wth man..de tanline on my forehead is a BIG BIG guai lan thingy....looks cock...faster peel all off la pls...

everyday can be a happy day...
as long as u r by my side~ :)
tdy is a happy day!

2008-11-23T04:47:00.002+08:00

POP LO~

i am finalli a 3SG...call mi sgt wil man....

de parade rehearsal are tough...i kena sunburn...it hurts man....super gg de sunburn...but now recovery phase le...

yst had drinking session wif my brothers...overnite at my hse...supposed to be emo session...dunno why become high session...spas session..or watever u call it...lol...anyway we had fun...den tdy went kbox...lan...and pool a while....long time bo k box le...rox feeling...and dog...juz sing la..haha...muz force u sing man....

btw..my room tv settled le...de home sound system oso here le...dvd player oso here le...and last but nt least...my new handphone oso here le...hahaa...dam lazy to personalise my hp...but gotta do it...bringin it to my new camp..sugnei gedong....

tdy nvr go for platoon outing...a bit dam sad...and feels wasted....but 2 sides on hand...i gotta make a choice....

now feel dam dam dam emo....mabbe coz is late at nite le...or mabbe....hmmm....

m i falling in again?

2008-11-19T20:50:00.003+08:00

nights out..for us to clear our stuff back...i got my final and confirmed posting le...23rd signal battalion...sugnei gedong...grats...i m in an ulu peice of shit....wonder how it will be over dere...hope life is good...

yst had our end-term party...it is greattt....dere is absolute vodkas...XO...whisky...all mixed wif coke and sprite...tiger beer...live band...food...and games...karaoke...pool table....i drink till seh diao...my fren see mi face red eyes red still force mi dwn 2 more cup...head feel like it is gonna explode..inside dam squeezy....watever...i oso blur diao liaoz...drink finish always got de emo feel....but aft tt i juz immersed in de party...lets high tgt man~

i gonna miss de whole platoon...sergent li...wo kesa...and every nice nice sergents in SI....

army jiu shi liddat...u keep going into different phases...juz come and go and come and go...until parting and separation becomes numb....but no matter how numb...de sadness is still dere...

was talkin to yong hua den saying my JC frenz mostly = sec sch frenz..lol..all from chs de..like nvr bring away a lot frenz from JC de feeling...but i say nvm..coz frenz dunnid too much...few close and true ones are enuff...

yong hua say he will miss mi a lot...buddy since sispec till now...and miracly he is from chs oso..though i nvr see him before in chs...but he see mi before..hehe..i m juz tt popular la...a common figure in chs...but...i will miss him too...my singing buddy~ lol..always sing tgt in bunk to irritate other ppl...and always talk cock and life tgt..i always saying i wan snatch his elaine away...lol den he wan punch mi..say i wan snatch his gf...tt is how crapp we are..lol...but wells...juz say say nia..but all these will become memories...take care...yong hua~

nights out period gonna end soon alrdy lo..abt to set off liaoz...

tml rehearsal at sispec...dam siann...i hate drills...and parades...

rdy to sway and fall aslp on fri pop...LOL

2008-11-16T20:46:00.004+08:00

ok..time to bloggg...dis week go in is de last week de lo...will haf a lot drill lesson...drill lesson sux...lame plus stupid plus waste time...but nvm...last week le..let dem fool ard den....den POP le...

dis wed will noe posting...holy mama...wonder where will i go...heard they reshuffle de posting le...zzz...who noes man...juz wait till wed...

de week...got play games in de camp..played bball..wa all qte zai..i seem noob...somehow...de NTU or mabbe NUS sch team seems farrr....i mabbe changing to NUS lol...of coz...all brothers following...all change tgt...nt all but mabbe some...dunno...see how...haha....

dis week qte de busy...nxt week even more busy...finalli i going org a confrerie outing le...long time nvr do le...A lvl finish...pop oso done...ok...time for a BIG TIME gathering...hehe...bok is in too...wt? LOL

last game before book in...lose...tio tok somemore...brood 1-7...might as well dun play....suxxx...i am so dam cuii man....

my whole family go macau le...until wed midnight..left mi...wth...and i din noe macau nid take aeroplane de...zz..i tot take ship or bus de...LOL...until they say they flying..den i huh? fly where...den they say macau la! den i say..wt...nt take ship meh....den i noe macau is at de hongkong dere de...haix...watever man..lol..my sis still suan mi at de tagboard...thx man...great sis i haf....but better than a dumb brother...LOL

is time to call mi SERGENT WIL!

2008-11-09T18:34:00.003+08:00

ok..time to blog for dis week...i haf finalli finished my last hurdle...EX ENDURANCE! this 42km is nt easy man...and my team is dam suay...LOL...we r de gatherings of de sleepyheads and smoke screen personnel...simi sai oso dunno de...juz chiong...lol...at 1st checkpoint we juz open up our map...straight away kena sth le...lazy to elaborate but yea...ma de tulan..dam suay la...thrughout aft tt is suay-ness all e way....anyway we r de last team to finish...walk from 8pm till nxt day 2pm still haben finish..sun freaking hot oso..tryin to oppose us....wa seriously nearli die...walk until dunno wat we r walking le..juz walk...in e end 2 rovers come and pick us up coz ppl waitin le...so we din go to de ending point...LOL...wat a special team man...i dun mind~ sergent still....

so last 2 weeks is basically games day and rotting day...all de closing ceremony and watever nots...is time to slack and prepare for pop...i m loving it...i dunno de details abt pop...zzz...

ya anyway...these 2 days dam cock oso...play pool oso can kena injured...de right hand knock against de table while striking de cue foward...wtf?? sat kena index finger btw de knuckle and finger de part...sun kena de middle finger knuckle..both skin peel and bleed...haix...cock man...my toes oso qte itchy..from all de route march...den scratch until bleed oso...den my neck abrasion plus sunburn...den back a bit ache...pattern a lot jiu dui le...tulan man...

i walk past sugnei gedong anyway...saw my future camp...freaking ulu...gg...but watever...as long as it is slack..i m ok wif it...

finalli threw away my study table! my 1st study table lo....a bit memorable but too bad..it is taking up space...so out it go....slowly packing and organising up my room...but is a step at a time..and is realli a step...every week do dam little little bit..lol...until now still haben hang up de present tt shuwen gimme lo...muz find time to do it...such a nice frame....

ok nth much to say le...we r alrdy considered sergents le..so...

IC2 SPEC! POP LO!!!!!
grats~

i m gonna miss some of dem...those who always play wif mi de :)

i mean it when i say i miss u....

2008-11-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

opps...time to blog for dis weekend...juz finished 24km route march last week...realli gg-ed...i walk until leg dam sour until gg....haix....shi dam pain de...anyway...i endured thrugh...YES!

sat meet up wif ajc wushu...our batch de...wa like dam long nvr see liaoz...a bit de memories flow back....every1 grow up le...gals uni...guys army...gals enjoying...guys sucking thumb...when every1 leave...a bit de she bu de...but too bad la....dis is life...

tdy booking in again lo...and wat awaits mi ahead...is my final lap...juz like those taking A lvl de...our final lap...i got to complete my 42km march wif checkpoints in between...i gotta do this man...and my 3 stripes will come to my smart 4....den off i go to de nxt phase...most prob. is sungei gedong camp...23rd signal battalion if nt wrong...haha....hope life will be good...heard zhexu and ys is dere too...see dem dere den....

k time for dota again...hehe...de nxt time i blog...my final lap is over...hee~

2008-10-27T05:25:00.004+08:00

sent kh off le...take care man dude...

tdy 1st time wear like those long sleeve shirt to airport send him off...lol...they stunned...den they say why ys wear dis type so nice i wear like so "la ta" dotx

anyway...thx for de SUPER belated bdae present...hehe...i finalli got my own bball le wor...de wish list dere de bball can strike off le...haha....in my hse got like 5 bball le...

1 is de bdae present...
1 is teo de...
1 is olk de...
1 is my sis de...
another 1 i dunno where the shit it came from....

LOL....now tt my room finish de painting le...is time for mi to decorate and set up my room le...how ar...feel lazy sia...but gotta do it....nid money for tt oso...zzzz

fri 3am sleep
sat 330am sleep
tdy (sun) 530am sleep...
yue lai yue gay....

so right now...i going to sleep le....lol

nighto~

2008-10-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

last week has been a dam jialat week...de worst week ever...we had 4 days of exercise continuously...is nt physically tiring...but dam mentally tiring...is like PW times 1000 with a lot of shooting like Q n A...de sir shooting and shooting until de presenters dunno wat to say at all..i chose an easy topic and faster volunteer to present so tt ltr if harder part i wun kena chosen...LOL...so i keep smoke my way thrugh and survived without any shooting...i go up every1 instant laughing...all noe i dunno anythin....dotx

den de 5th day we got 4km fast march...jialat...leg and back dam pain...like old man...de aftermath...so mentally tiring for 4 days and physically tiring for de 5th day....anyway de 4 days we dun haf much slp...de 3rd day i onli slp 2 hrs on a stone table...wake up back shi pain de...dam cold oso...shivering like maddd

anyway...aft all these...nth much le...qte slack thrugh le...left 24km march and de final 42 km march...

and also...sergent tell us de variety of posting le...generally nt bad...onli a few will more xiong...i betta dun get de platoon sergent posting...if nt gg...i dun even noe anythin...hope go armour ba...

sometimes in de platoon..ppl keep sayin i slack..ma de..sometimes say too much a bit irritated...they jokingly say still nvm...some is realli show mi de tulan face...actualli a lot ppl oso slack...they onli pretend to be doing sth nia...wah lan eh...and worse is some oso slack still say mi...wtf man...lazy to argue back oso...watever

4 more weeks to pop...say fast nt fast...say slow nt slow...woots...finalli reached another phase of army...and is de final phase....GAMBETTA MAN!

anyway...change blog song alrdy...haha...from an emo song to a sweet sweet song...dis song realli sweet man...i like..somemore is charlene sing de...i love charlene de la...lol...qte cute de...

2008-10-19T20:09:00.003+08:00

another weekend gone...juz liddat...dis week go in cfm emo...haix...book in and straight away 3 exercises continuously...4 days...dam scared i kena arrow...i dunno anythin at all...

dis weekend...celebrated clement bdae...went eat yuki yaki....ok la...nice try dere...long time nvr eat steamboat...den we do DIY ice cream...dam stupid oso...lol..dunno wat r we supposed to do...so make a mess out of it....haha....but fun anyway...we went pool as well...9 feet...siam la...de feel total nt dere...keep misss....sian 1/2 oso....den ghost squad...haix...still nt god yet....tink everythin i do oso dam half std.....good at nth....

den at nite i ask teo over...ask him bring some alcohol...come drink wif mi....so aft dota session...ard 2am liddat...we go my hse nearby de playgrd...bought coke at 7 eleven as well...den he take out all de weapons....wow la...some XO bottle tt looks classy...180 bucks he say...buy at airport...WTF....den another grape wine bottle...130 bucks...another gay shit....we pour into de gulp cup...3/4 coke..1/4 XO...gg...he pour too much...i drink 1st sip chiong straight to de brain....instant seh diao...den de emo feel come straight le....feels good....so dis is why ppl drink to bury sorrow...dunno how to describe de feeling...so we drink and sit at de playgrd talk cock...de nite is peaceful...wind blowing...how peaceful....how nice....how emo....we left at 4am...concussed...walk back zig zag...drink qte too much...de sleep is good....we both juz fall aslp rather fast...anyway...for dis nite..i gotta thank teo....to pei mi...and to bring such expensive alcohol for my sake...wow la...gotta haf another session nxt time...is juz too good....

suddenli like lost objective and goal in life...dunno lei...ji lame....nth to achieve oso...in army...wat can i do...time is juz so limited.....

anyway...tt day cw guess correctly all de actions tt i will do at sumo house...LOL...zai sia...like he noe all de worms in my stomach liddat...

things juz go de wrong way ba....i tink is for mi...always wrong de.....shuldnt haf said things out....i too rash le...always folo my heart rather than my mind...wth

another 45 mins to set off....it is juz so short....

wil....u suck
原来呼吸是为了提醒一直在的伤心

2008-10-14T18:59:00.003+08:00

500th POST!

lol...yea...every 100 post i will annouce...so wow..in a flash...dis blog has been wif mi for like close to 3 yrs le...from de times where i juz went JC....to de times where i struggle for promos...to de times where i finalli made it and get promoted...to de times where i get all emo abt za bor (which is qte stupid)...to de times where i still balonglong relac 1 corner when every1 is mugging for prelims...to de times where i tell de teachers tt dun worry...i start later but i can catch up de...to de times where i finalli sit for my A lvl...to de times where i graduated and gotten A A B for my A lvl where all de teachers are proud of mi..especially mr lau...to de times where i work for emit asia and keep going back ajc...to de times where i get enlisted and start to realise how much i miss AJC and how well all de teachers haf treated mi....to de times where i haf finalli grown up a little and can face de world myself....to de times where my life is starting to haf some goals in life...yuppp...tt is de mi now...hehe

ok lol..enuff of craps....i will nt let de 500th post be a stupid short one.....

it has been half a yr of army le...say short...nt short...den say long lei...ya...qte long...but guess wad..is juz a quarter way thrugh...but nonetheless...aft dis phrase...i can finalli be a sergent and be a permstaff...wonder how life as a permstaff is...in my opinion...it shuld be qte slack...juz cnt wait for pop now...which is 21st november..i tink tt period every1 can happy wif mi..coz their A lvl over le...lol....wat a good period to look foward to la...

anyway my sis oso having a good life...ma de...her job is some new skateboard job at east coast..den she got her own board...which looks rather cool...her boss modify for her somemore...lol...imagine working is juz like playing...dam it...how come i nt so lucky ar....den she got a lot good stuffs in her room oso....too bad last time i too heck care abt such stuffs le...juz happy-go-lucky...now still de same la...but haha...i tryin hard to improve de situation and my room...wat i nid is capital...so whoever is kind...donate some money to my room-fund...LOL....

a lot of ppl (my frenz, her frenz) all say tt her way of speaking and actions and char or watever is qte similar to mine...guess i influenced her too much haha...last time we keep fighting de....no wonder i made her so tomboy...den now our char make us sometimes chat wif each other abt life a bit bit...nt bad la...i feel good at times to chat wif my sis...haha...bet most ppl nt like us...siblings chit chatting...last time i nvr bother chat wif her as well..for my bro...ahem...he is totally nt same as us...dunno why i nvr influence him...tink too stupid le...he is totally...cui

ok end of ATT C for tdy...time to book in aft a 5-day break...woah...suddenli dun haf de army feel these 2 days...might even forgot to book in if i dun remind myself to....but guess i haf to go back to reality...cnt stay in my dream for too long...

this big illness since i enlisted has given me a long break...guess i shuld fall sick real big time every half a year den....

time to wake up...
wil..

2008-10-14T00:56:00.001+08:00

tdy whole day has been feeling tired..real sleepy de feeling...yst see doc and gotten myself 3 days ATT C....can rest at home de feeling nt bad...tml nite book in...yea..tt is all..i m rather tired le...struggle and struggle...finalli decided to slp...sooooo....NIGHTO~

dere is so much i wanna achieve..

2008-10-12T02:02:00.008+08:00

shuwen gimme de godlike present..dam nice eh..finalli upload

~ mi and shuwen~

cute + shuai..win liaoz

went out wif shuwen tdy...had funn....i was feeling qte sick...coz cough 4 weeks le ma...den we walk ard...buy things...eat sushi teh...eat ben and jerry...haha...den i nt much appetite oso...feeling worse and worse slowly....den i ask my dad come fetch mi coz i no energy le...fetch her as well...as a bdae present -_- LOL no la..i treated her ok...

den in e car...gg...slp a while...wake up..head shi dam pain de...and feverish...when reach home...vomit straight away....de sushi teh is wasted...oh man...so now...grats...headache + blocked nose + cough + fever + sore throat (due to de continuous coughing) see if tml de fever got subside anot...if nt mabbe take MC den tml dun go back camp le....whole body qte weak de...wan do pumping oso cmi...cui diao liaoz....since enlist haben sick seriously yet...keep hold on until now burst out...everythin oso come...haix....tulan sia...

dis week dota qte a lot...haha...

k gotta slp le...seriously feel weakkk.....

2008-10-09T17:25:00.001+08:00

1st time blogging in computer lab in camp...lolz...qte fun la...

anyway juz gotten news yst that dota map 6.55 come out le...woots...like a finalli la...so long stagnent at 6.54b...

when new map come out aft a long time...always is major change de...loading screen change = sign of major change le...2 new heros 4 new items...a lot of items oso change their receipe le...wow la...i tink most likely i will buy wrong item to complete the equipment that i wan...lol...like that time battle fury changed receipe from mithril hammer to claymore...i keep buying hammer when i wan battle fury...zzz...history is so gonna repeat man....

another major change is that now tp can no longer provide armour le...that makes it harder to def and oso harder to play de style of teamwork tt i always wan...but now got another item to gif twr armour for 4 sec...but cooldown is 6 min...so betta dun mis-use it man... (zz..halfway com lab off de internet..den all these stay as draft)

lemme carry on here...finalli book out le...see ching blog...see yk blog...all de graduation pics...damn it...memories flow back...dam bloodi miss those days....a bit wanna cry de feeling...coz i noe clearly...i cnt go back to de ajc days....how peaceful man...army is nvr realli peaceful...always got shouting here and dere...rushing here and dere...i try nt to get involved...juz stay 1 corner live my peaceful life...i always tell my bunk mate this...i juz wan to complete this course...pass out and leave this place peacefully...no troubles...nth....

tdy juz do SOC test...haix...10.26...got a killer slope...dam tiring...i failed...wth....chaooo siann....o ya...my cough 4 weeks le...woots...breaking record soon...before SOC i cough a bit too hard...until nearli vomit...omg de...i still tinking shuld i do SOC anot...in e end...heck it...juz do...lucky i din drop dead...anyway aft de SOC...i feel dam breathless...de aftermath as usual...is a whole day thingy....whole day feel qte unwell de...but wat to do...suck thumb lo....

anyway...chin up still stuck at 12...i wonder why...wth lo....can go bang wall le...cui shit....

in a flash...8 weeks le..dis sun go in is 9th week...den 5 more weeks to pop...which means...5 more weeks to de end of A lvl as well...how fast...i tink i will come out as a cock sergent...coz till now...i tink i dunno much things...LOL...juz smoking my way thrugh de entire course...PRETENDING to study and PRETEND to noe things nia...dis is wat i am best at isnt it...lol...

i wan de figures in my bank acct to jump lei...but hor...it seems hard...LOL!

where is 财神?
i wan add u in frenster man...
lets be frenz~

2008-10-05T10:07:00.003+08:00

changed my blog song again le...at 1st i tinkin shuld change anot de bo...coz i oso like de previous blog song...cnt bear to change la...but still...dis song gimme de BLOODI emo feel...realli is GODLIKE man...

de best part of song is dis man...
一个人其实不孤寂
想一个人才最孤寂
原来呼吸是为了提醒一直在的伤心
爱若能回转到分开的雨季
Baby 多想告诉你我真的在乎你

and de SUPER SUPER BEST part of de whole song....
原来呼吸是为了提醒一直在的伤心
realli love it when comes to dis part...
emo feel juz overwhelm mi la....

daryl juz tell mi sth tt stunned mi....
though is over le....
but still....
i qte bui song....
and a bit emo....

de song...tink abt it man...how true....
even if u r alone...it doesnt mean u will feel loneliness...
u onli feel loneliness when u think abt some1...miss some1....
i suddenli tink...
woah how true man....

and de worst part is tt u cnt even tell her u miss her when u realli do....

another army kia die again....
by doing chin up....
it sets mi tinking...
when m i de nxt....
he is a young fit guy...
basketballer...
can die juz by doing chin up...
though he has MC...
but shuldnt extreme till die for chin up...
juz like de guy who walk to death...
all these are sudden death...
u cnt expect it de...
maybe is KIRA at work...
maybe is fate....
maybe is de army sucky aura....
but still...they are dead....

i coughing 3 weeks non stop le...
tulan...maybe lung bursting le....

i m gettin sick of booking out and in...
is juz a stupid cycle...

2008-09-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

juz here to conclude....

thx for all de present...

my brothers for de speaker...
kr and cw for de adult shirt... (wee i m adult le)
shuwen for de ultimate frame... (dunno wat is tt called oso)
yk for de spas art... (LOL)
my dad for de goggles... (looks qte cool on me)
my mum for de hongbao... (money is de most practical lol...but i haben open yet)
last but nt least...
myself for de psp.. (BEST PRESENT! haha)

and to update on de bdae wishes...
coz i rarely play facebook...haha...
until i checked my mail tdy....
frenster testi as well....
i gotta thank them for de bdae wishes on de wall...
and de testi....

cheryl de great... (haha she used to wan mi call her this spas name..so i shall carry on)
cat... (kfc colleague...wow she rmb my bdae...shuld be facebook remind her de ba)
admad... (this is 1 sweet dude..lol)
wesley lim.. (o wow man...LOL)
wanling... (haha thx lots le)
priya... (1 of de few indian good frenz i haf...since my eng so cui)
maggie... (my 7 wonders)
ten... (wat a faraway wish...msia kia man)
clement as well... (he sent mi on email...wat a spas kia)
hongchia... (lol...he rmb my bdae...zai!)
charlie... (this asshole still haben take A lvl...escaped NS for dis year..lucky shyt)
yiming... (wells..i returned de favour..tdy is his bdae..lol)

btw...i go see my past frenster testi...haha...i still qte de same sia...always kena lied to...as 1 of de testi says...i m easily gullible...zzz...how true...joel always say so too...ma de....
anyway...all de testimonials juz bring back memories...i saw shikai de...saw bryan de...saw kr and cw de...saw jason hoon de...and mani mani more....de chs peeps....

my testi is pathetic...43 nia...lol....

I LOVE MY PSP~
LAVENDER PURPLE!~

2008-09-28T20:02:00.002+08:00

tdy finalli bballed...however it is qte a flop ba...i personally nt much mood oso...but teo is back!...dog skin cui...cnt bball...we haf made a pact oso...to train hard for bball aft ORD...and we will all join NTU bball...WOOTS....my ambition~

special thx to clement dog kr teo and olk for de present...realli thx man...so bigg....muz be ex la....and how u all realise my speaker cui liaoz...sweet :) it juz brighten up my day when it is so darkk....

went out wif 7 wonders...finalli see my nette~ haha....ate crystal jade...ma de guai lan...all de flavour nt nice de...zzz...de noodles i order...COLD somemore...kena sai....

den pool...a LONG pool session man...hehe...asha and pork say i shuai la...lol....feels good to kena called shuai...

finalli...home sweet home...and abt to book in le....lucky wed got pub holiday...

why is every1 always saying tt i am a elder brother....i got so caring meh....
suddenli...i rather be childish...as childish as i can....

FUCK!
FUCK!

2008-09-28T02:43:00.002+08:00

WHY AM I ALWAYS MAKING THE WRONG DECISION AND CHOICES....

it is juz heaven trying to fool ard wif mi...
it has always been this way...

2008-09-24T20:29:00.004+08:00

tdy nites out...finalli de 3rd one? nites out in signals is juz sooooo limited la...time flies? it has been 6 weeks in signals le...8 more weeks and i become sergent le...de duration of BSLC in sispec...feels tt finalli can countdown le...

life has been relatively boring....especially we sometimes got lesson in a lab whole day...den nid install windows 2000 or sth liddat de...raiden server...den install de waitin time is dam long...and nt every1 got a com...some share...for mi...i nvr share...i nvr even bother to take a com...i juz take a chair...those computer chairs tt is soft and can lean on de...ya...juz take 1...slp....is realli whole day inside de....from morning till lunch...go eat lunch...come back cont until dinner...zzz?? so practically i scrolling dwn my contact list to see who can i sms...apparently...nth much....

yst i guard duty...den tdy is got tt stone de lesson..so i realli slp whole day...from 9plus to lunch..eat finish come back slp till 4...den finalli wake up....mentally tired...aft wake up...whole body feels weak oso...aiya dam cui la...zzzz

anyway...on my bdae tt day...it is a special one...my mum told mi is tt my chinese and english bdae falls on same day dis yr...dam special...de nxt 1 will be 19 yrs ltr...yea..i can sense tt it is special oso...spend it in camp..and in tt lab...stone inside de room for 7 hrs...slp until dunwan slp le...keep go toilet..go downstairs vending machine buy food...den STILL got a lot time...play hearts...solitare...on de com...oso dam sian....so my SPECIAL bdae is spent rotting in tt room...grats man...

anyway...tdy is tong's bdae....so juz say....
HAPPY BDAE TONG~
doubt she will see it anyway....type shuang nia...

teo has been in brunei for dam longg le...kind of miss him man....come back soon ba teo~

special thx to those ppl tt wish mi happy bdae...
tong~ (1st + last blood)
kelly~
elaine~
shermin~
kr~
cw~
olk~
yan shan~
olivia~
yvonne~
yumin~
xiongjiejie~ (belated -_-)
teo~ (belated..coz he on mission)
shuwen~ (though she nvr sms...de present godlike enuff le)
yk~
daryl~ (saw it on tag)
wanching~ (saw it on tag too)

another bad thingy abt spending bdae in camp...is tt I CNT SAVE THE BDAE MESSAGES :( army fone too cui....limited space....zzzz

this week sat book out as well...they say lunch indented...assholes...ma de...

tml 16km route march le...ma de...tulan

last but not least....HAPPY BDAE FATHER TOO~

i hate de game of guessing....
seriously...

2008-09-21T18:53:00.003+08:00

this weekend has been a busy one...is my bdae weekend afterall...lol..but i cnt entertain every1 :( sorry for those whom i reject....nxt weekend and nxt nxt weekend...i will try to squeeze out time...thx anyway....how i wish i can duplicate myself...or haf a longer weekend....though this is de longest i could haf.....

a special thx to shuwen.....de present is realli de best i ever receive...is somethin tt any amt of money cnt buy...realli touched...i am at loss of words when i receive it....but saying mushy gratitude words are definitely nt my style eh...as long as u noe tt i love u deep deep can le...realli thx for tt BEST present le.... :) anyway for all ur info...wat shuwen made was a wooden frame...somethin to hang on wall de...den it is all my fotos wif other ppl and her as well...and lots of cool cool decoration....which definitely i noe take dam long to do de...is de effort and de thoughts...as i m typing this...damn...i m forming tears in my eyes....THX LE!!!!!!!!!!!!

nxt is kr and cw..thx for de shirt...haha...i tink i gonna become mature and adult soon le...to wear tt shirt...and thx for them to be labourers whole day...carrying my present...de wooden board tt shuwen gif is qte hard to carry de....

thx to yk as well...to gimme tt cute little figure....own efforts as well....if u were to ask mi to diy things for ppl bdae...i tink i cmi de...my art is dam cui de...last time pri sch i tink i failed it....cnt even draw an apple well....i tink i best at drawing stickman and shit...keep curling upwards until it become small and pointed...den draw 3 curl lines on top to show tt it stinks...to make it perfect...can add a few small dots to represent flies tt are attracted to it as well....so i haf always been impressed wif those who can diy present...ZAI....

last but nt least...thx to yt for treating mi movie~ haha......haf been a great bdae celebration....

the days...it is a nice movie...local production has always been qte good...coz it reflects things tt happen in real life...sth tt we can relate to....ang moh shows are nice usually becos of de graphics and cool cool animations...but local de is realli got de touching parts...ppl go into traids and unable to withdraw...de helpless feeling....when ppl finalli learn wat is right and wat is wrong...will it be too late...

dunno why...but i haf always been able to feel for those needy ppl...their encounters and mishaps in life...siblings going into wrong path...families having problems...lose hope in love and relationship....mabbe coz my own life is a dramatic one as well...full of ups and downs...though more downs than ups...i understand wat other ppl are feeling when they went thrugh those shits...and feel even more helpess when i cnt even help them wif their problems....

actualli like sometimes shuwen will ask mi why i so longg nvr sms her le...i juz tink tt things changed le...in de past when i call her and sms her...i m giving her support when she is in troubles wif her studies and other stuffs....but for now...it will be her giving mi support and encouraging mi....u noe...de feeling tt i m a burden...i would rather dun disturb others' life than to be a burden...de feeling tt u r giving others hope and support when they r dwn and u manage to cheer dem up feels good...but de feeling tt u r a burden and keep complaining to other ppl sux...nt juz for shuwen...same goes to de rest...like xiongjiejie etc etc...juz wanna say out aft 5 mths since i enlisted...nt tt i forgotten u all...but juz...dun wanna disturb ur lives...

anyway i juz changed blog song...it is nice song...abt tryin to find an island which represent hapiness....wanna noe more? juz see the lyrics and understand wat it is trying to say...if u can feel it...yea...u r on de right path.....anyway...dere is realli such an island...a heart-shaped island....

从远处看去的东西是不是都这么美，这么不真实？
我也好想找到属于自己的幸福

2008-09-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

recently haf been feelin moody...sux....

find a lot of no-point...book out...i juz feel tt i am booking in soon...like whole life is abt booking out den book in den book out den book in again...haix...realli sick of it le...meaningless life...i wonder who can realli understand how i feel...

tdy i re-take ippt...attempting for gold...but i juz cnt seem to achieve it...i run 9.56 for 2.4...though it is de 1st time i cut 10...but it is still dam far from 9.44...i tot i will run worse than 10.06 at 1st...coz at some part i slow dwn becos i realli wanna vomit le...thinking of falling out de...but in e end decided...suan le...hai shi carry on ba...anyway i got max point silver le...

chin up 12
SBJ 243
shuttle run 10 (bloodi retard floor)
sit up 42
2.4km run 9.56

tt is all..i got not much mood to talk...feel dam cui...especially aft running,...dam breathless even aft 30 mins of rest....de aftermath is still dere...i feel cui tdy....

2008-09-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

juz reached back home...tdy came home aft guard duty...onli slept 2 hrs in de night and 2 hrs in de afternoon on sat...den sun morning book out...den a while go crystal jade wif family and relatives in morning near noon for mi and my dad bdae...aft tt i go amk meet kr cw and olk...to settle some things...and oso arcade of coz...lol...this week nvr spend much money due to guard duty...a blessing in disguise ba...

we change our course commander le...is a gg one...we r dead..why isit tt i always so suay...signals is meant to be qte slack but when it comes to my batch i get de screwed things...things change...ma de...nxt sat mabbe will haf to redo exercise...damn it...my bdae weekend sia...he betta dun try to be funni...i can onli hope..if nt at most suck thumb lo...

life is gettin more and more boring...i seriously dunno wat is going on in my life alrdy...is like i m juz going thrugh de same continuous routine everyday...i hate it...such rigid systems....but i dun even haf a choice...i m juz gettin sick...and i can onli cont to feel this way....i feel like grumbling and complaining...but keep complaining de same things to other ppl will juz irritate dem....and aft a while...ownself oso complain until sian le...coz things wun change due to my complains...

i gonna get myself a PSP soon haha...shuld be end of dis month...take it as a bdae present for myself ba lol...so excited man~

love like u haf never been hurt before....

2008-09-07T17:18:00.002+08:00

went to watch cyborg she wif dog clement and kr yst...ben lai is go out wif junhui maggie kh and ys de...but den i haf to catch cyborg she coz is realli de type of movie tt i like...sweet loving moments...all those romantic stuffs...de happy memories of couples...yea....so i haf to pangseh junhui kh they all..

anyway...it lived up to my expectation...as in...i m easily contended wif movie quality...is realli dam sweet when u noe...those scenes of the things they do while de music is in de backgrd and de days pass by...until somethin big gonna happen and the scene go back to normal....yea man...realli dam nice...is realli dam pain when u love some1 and yet tt some1 dun even feel a single shit for u....like being immersed in dis kind of sad yet touching music and scenes....yea cyborg she ROX big time....

gonna book in again ltr on at nite le...i hope tml i will be able to successfully step dwn and pass de IC rank to some1 else le....although i dun mind doing it...but it eats qte a lot of admin time at nite and i haf difficulty managing time to do OTOT...last week i nvr do any shit of OTOT....so ya...i nid to OTOT myself to get stronger...gotta do it man...

dis week got exercise le...er xin da bian...ma de...

tdy bball....long time since i ever done tt...shooting a bit deproved...dun realli like de feeling of skill-less....juz waitin for ORD so tt i can focus and train hard to get into uni bball team...yea man..aft tt all come my hse and lag ard...watched long hu men which i recorded...yea apart from those sweet romance korean/jap love movies...i like those action-packed and especially fighting movies....realli dam cool...we gif olk his razor mouse as present....HAPPY BDAE MAN OLK~

teo is gg brunei le...tonight midnight...21 days ltr will be de nxt time i see him...hope he can endure on...i bet it will be tough...and disgusting...i hate all these outfield shit too...i can understand....teo....gotta hold on dere man...we wait for ur return to spore and we will go kbox tgt man....stay alive is all i gotta say....

dis week i will be on guard duty for sat...so i will onli come out on sunday...and go back in again on sunday...like a gg weekend...nvm...save money ba...

i reall hope...tt 1 day...u can tell mi....
"i can feel your heart"

2008-09-05T19:37:00.003+08:00

last week book out nvr blog..lol..1st time man...coz realli got a lot to catch up and do during de weekend...this weekend is another dam packed weekend for mi man...i got lots of program to handle and in e end i haf to gif up 1...sorry man daryl..gotta meet u nxt time...nxt weekend i oso will onli be booking out on sunday and book in sunday as well..due to my sat guard duty...ben lai is 21st de la...de day before my bdae and i got to book in on sat for guard duty on sunday...wth...so i managed to change it le...phew...but still i nxt week cnt do anythin le...sunday in sunday out...rather rest at home....somemore guard duty = cnt slp well..dam it

anyway...juz when i tot i can release my platoon IC to others on monday...de platoon fall in late for ET run for 3 mins and i kena extend platoon IC for 1 more week...wtf man...

but u noe wat is dam satisfactory??? tt is when ppl start telling u...
"aiya u do for whole course la...u so good"
"u r de best platoon IC since my army life man"
"u do forever la..i like u lei"
bla bla bla....

believe it anot..u may say tt i am bullshitting or hao lian-ing...but tt is wat ppl realli say to mi...it is sth tt makes it worthwhile being de platoon IC...i let dem slack as much as possible...try to maximise their sleeping time...nvr rush dem to fall in...coz all these i noe...it sux and is irritating...so why do de same when u r in charge man...i juz dun understand why ppl can tekan ppl when they become sergent when they noe tt being tekan is nt a good feeling...tell mi why man...leaders gain respect thrugh heart and nt thrugh de rank...haha...afterall...i tink i m qte good at planning lol...juz tt i am lazy man...but i swear...i gonna pass de IC to another person nxt week le...cnt possibly do 3 weeks man...will die...lol..

ok i gotta relac 1 corner le...this whole week plan a lot shit..and nid plan my weekend schedule somemore...dam tight sia....zzzz shagged out....

de journey begins again....
if i wanna be a leader...i can be one zai one easily...LOL
1 who gain respect thrugh de heart... :)
THANK YOU IC2~

2008-08-27T20:57:00.002+08:00

tdy had my 1st nights out...life is signals has been relatively ok...juz tt lots of studying and most of de time...u dun even noe wat u studying alrdy..juz read thrugh...den nxt lesson...u forgot de previous lesson and so on...but de best thingy i like for lecture is networking...dam interesting man...as in i wun fall aslp...i will feel like learning as much as possible...YEA!

i kena de platoon IC for dis week..wth man...i went toilet on monday aft lecture and when i return to de lecture room..suddenli i am de platoon IC...i stunned dere 5 sec...den indeed..it is nt a dream...I AM DE PLATOON IC....1st day may be stressed coz dunno wat to do...but subsequently..it became ok and i got de hang of it...lol...but my command all pronounciation dam cui...entertainin de platoon wif all de cui command...ok nvm i m trying...lol...giving roll call is hard too becos every1 will juz say hurry up and hurry up so u chop chop say a bit summary and ask dem go back le...dun wanna cause a public fury....haha

all in all...it is ok and relatively fun being de platoon IC....i had a nice experience...mainly becos our sgt is dam nice and so platoon IC had an easy time nt getting tekan by him...SERGENT LI ROX BIG TIME!

ok...time to go....cnt expect de platoon IC to be late for book in right???

great power comes with great responsibility....
when u r high up dere...de view is different....

2008-08-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

ok..time to blog again...came back from de NUS science peagent thingy at flux st powerhouse...is a club..a place where i nvr even step in before....went dere to support teng....

i got to say...she become siao za bor le..like those adult high ppl...she on de stage kee siao liddat...dunno wat yoyo thingy...but 1 thingy tt nvr change..her rigid-like-hell de smile...from smile to gek sai to cramp...

mi yumin clement kr sit 1 side immersed in de atmosphere...i can say tt it is cool...but in another point of view..when i stay back....look ahead...all de youngsters dancing ard...guys and gals...juz lub ard...de light spinning ard..de music blasting like de speaker is gonna explode anytime...de nite is late...and they seems like they juz started dis crazy party...juz feel...how 腐败 dis society has become...

i m still a poor drinker...damn....mi and kr share 1 cup....i tot i was okay..it was just HALF A CUP...in e end i still feel heat all over my body...face start mild trembling and eyes feel small...de same old bloodi symptoms...red face...i mean DAM RED face...and a bit swollen eye...juz felt so stupid in de mrt wif such face...like i m some drunkard when ppl see mi...

enuff of de outside world for now....1st week of my spec course has passed....my time table...aft taking a close look...bloodi hell...all studying....weekend still got to do e-learning...wth....de onli thingy i like to learn in de course is networking..lan..router..ip address conversion...etc etc...those all abt computer...good man...useful for my computer engineering in future....but for those radio sets...no thx..a bit sian...but still...haf to do...zzz

whole building dun even haf a chin up bar...grats man...i gonna become some cui peice of shit when i pass out...meaning...a cui sergent....clement is in PTI...we said tt we will get in tgt...but he was better...i m left behind...kind of a sad tt we cnt fufill our dream tgt....but den...his course is kind of a hard too...i saw some antonomy things which haf to learn de names of a thousand and one bones in our body...wth...i onli noe funni bone...spine...skull...rib cage...de rest nt beri sure liaoz...

good thingy is tt i haf a cisco account for life...woots...networking rox~ wonder will it be super duper hard...haben learn yet....

i bought basic driving learning theory book wif kr tdy oso...he wanna buy to study 1st...i at 1st dun intend to buy...but i saw tt it is juz 3.90...qte cheap...2ndly...de inside is dam colourful and nice...so i tink i juz buy and lay it lying ard 1st...no harm....

dis week can be budget de...dam budget de...but fri de pizza hut meal...ouch...20 bucks...wanching mi cw and yumin went tgt...haha...i ate de most anyway....tdy eat subway i oso eat de fastest...i tink i siao alrdy...yumin and kr eat a 6 inch haben eat finish...i abt to finish my footlong bread le....den clement oso still eating de 1st half of his footlong....i m juz sooo...scary...

come to tink abt it...is uni life all abt socialising...if it is...it is kind of a scary...i dun like such socialising at all...entertain ppl here and dere...anyway even if it is...i wun care...juz do wat i feel like doing...haha....but i haf another dream...and tt is to join basketball when i go to uni...and i will train up aft i ORD...got 6 mths isnt it man....

long time since i wrote sth abt wat i did le....everytime lazy...juz agar agar type sth den zao le...lol...tdy got a bit mood so do...lol...

signals have a lot admin time when nite falls man...
YAY!

2008-08-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

finalli watched finish a perfect cut....

ppl always pursue perfection in life....
but de saying goes "no1 is perfect..nth is perfect"
so dere will always be imperfection....
different ppl haf different definition of perfection...
but nth will reach perfection in ppl's eyes...
becos humans will nvr be contended....
why do ppl say that love is perfect....
why do ppl say that love is beautiful...
becos love let u tolerate de opposite party's imperfection...
and when u can accept de imperfection...
perfection is achieved....
in dis world...dere is no perfection...
but love let u see perfection...
tt is...de power of love

只要能包容不完美，就能一切完美

2008-08-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

booked out tdy..at 1st they say booking out ltr..we tot got 1 week break sia...feel so happy de...den yuan lai is juz half day off...tml nid book in alrdy...wth la...dam sian diao sia....and and and...i m stayin at de 5th floor..wtf man...gonna excel in stairs climbing soon....

on a lighter note...i m in de same bunk as my sispec bed buddy and bmt bed buddy...o lol man..wat a coincidence....hope signals will be easy life...but dere are no chin up bars in my building...cannot otot run oso..nid ask permission....i tink i gonna get cui in my PT...

de sergent appear to be dam nice.....lol....hope realli a good time in signals spec course....
a 13 week course...holy long....and aft tt...hope it will be slack time le...haha....

forgot to mention...yst went marina squares...and saw warrant cheng...leopard enchik...called out enchik to him...and he respond in a slight shock...i juz said..we leopard...lol...but his escalator on e way up and ours dwn....so we cnt talk...haix...but at tt moment..i realli dam happy when i saw him..is like every single memories of bmtc leopard come back to mi...how well those enchik treated us...like their own son...those memories...realli...cnt be measured in any terms...LOVE U LEOPARD....

yes...memories are de most beautiful things...

some things u will nvr forget in ur life...
no matter how much u wish u culd forget...
it juz cnt be erased....
no matter how much u make urself nt to tink abt it...
it will juz hide in somewhere within ur heart....
anytime...it will juz surface...
and all de feelings...memories...pain...hapiness...
will juz come back to u....
as if all these juz happened yst...

this is de beauty of memories...

2008-08-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

ok...i m corporal tan alrdy....de 28km route march overnite is hell...dam hell....i slp and walk at de same time...so isit considered slpwalk?...

anyway...i failed to get into PTI..dam it...a bit sad sia...but de lucky thingy is i got into signals...which is a rather slack vocation alrdy...

everythin abt charlie is finalli over...i wun forget those hard times...neither will i forget my section mates....

13 weeks from now...i will become a sergent le...hope life will be better from now on....

wun forget how i slp 3 to 5 hrs a day and still got to chiong de nxt day for continuously 4 weeks
wun forget how i haf to clean rifle for 6 bloodi hrs....
wun forget how we kena knock it dwn 120 times for 1st day...
wun forget how we kena confine juz becos we nvr sing tgt when we march....
wun forget how our company always book out last and book in earliest....
wun forget how we haf to carry dummy mag and dummy grenade while other company dun haf to during route march...
wun forget how xiong charlie coy is...
wun forget how nice some of de sergents inside are...
wun forget tt i was once in hell and i got out of it alive...

everythin is finalli over...

actualli wanna type a lot things...but when it comes to here...i realise i dunno how to start....and in e end...i got nth to type....

leave it as it is....

some things..u juz gotta experience it urself....words alone cnt describe it.....

bye bye charlie...
realli bye bye dis time round...

SPEED THRUGH SKILL...SIGNALS~

2008-08-10T19:51:00.003+08:00

watched journey to de center of earth yst...NICE SHOW MAN...and de za bor qte chio sia...figure qte good oso...

cw kr clement stayover at my hse...haha...we had a great time rotting tgt....

booking in soon again le...and de nxt time i come out...
i m CORPORAL TAN!

as usual..last book in...still 9pm book in...tt is de latest we can get...

wat a company....

2008-08-09T08:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!~

finalli i haf a chance to book out on fri...yst booked out at ard 745...woots man...had a long weekend for once...i retook ippt yst..hoping to achieve gold..but i disappoint myself again...i tell myself to run fast...but i juz feel like i cnt run any faster...and i maintain at tt pace....2.4 got 10.20++ i tink...why m i deproving...cat test 10 flat...test 1 10.13 and now 10.20++....wth? when can i reach 9.44...zzz...it juz seem so hard...on a happier note...my chin up finalli reach 13...o wow man...and my SBJ improve from 234 to 243..YES...now i am a max pointer...all 5 points....juz tt i got silver...dotx....left wif 2.4km as a hurdle.....

o ya..i pass soc oso..yes man..finalli...10.16 for SOC...qte slow i wuld say...but i realise...my running sux...tt is wat tt keep pulling mi dwn for everythin....zzz...damn...

yst RO heard got PTI selection...stunned a bit..why again sia..isit mean tt my previous selection void?? zzz den clement say tt 1 is swimming instructor..realli meh..i realli hope it is sia..if nt my previous selection void i haf to do again wth...i tt time struggle to get de interview sia...i dunwan go thrugh it again...will stress de....can onli hope realli is swimming instructor selection lo....

tdy gonna be packed...jun hui asked mi out for pool..den guo hui asked mi out for bball..den i ownself organise movie alrdy...how to duplicate 2 more of mi...in e end nvr go for de pool...go for bball den aft tt cont wif my plan..movie and they stayover at my hse..haha...long time nvr see guo hui and those chs ppl le...time to go dere spas a bit...

FINALLI....
i would say....
proudly....
nxt week....
is my bloodi last week of BSLC...
SAY BYE BYE TO CHARLIE MAN!
woots....i m juz so happy...
i will book in happily...
coz de nxt time i am out...
i m no longer a charlie warrior...
but wat will be my vocation....
my destiny lies where....
realli hope is wat i want man....
ALL DE WAY FOR PTI!
if nt PTI...
i tink realli will cry and sad a bit sia...
suck thumb lo..
wat to do

ENDURE AND EXCEL~

2008-08-03T18:01:00.002+08:00

another week has passed...i could haf booked out on fri..but becos of cbre selection..i book out on sat 1pm..reached home 2pm..gonna book in at 7 to clean rifle...26 hrs of weekend...it juz seem so short and rush....

i saw dog blog...realise he oso play ghost squad yst..lol..i yst oso spammed ghost squad...realli dam zhun sia....is dam fun i muz say...mabbe i will get de card 1 day....

watched money no enuff 2 yst....is a dam funni nice and touching show...i laugh like mad...and i cried like hell....mothers are juz so great...i tell myself nt to quarrel wif my mum when i get home every weekend...i tried...but is juz so hard...she haf to shout....ask mi to burn the joss stick...i refuse...she shouted...i kept quiet...she cont to shout and nag and nag...tulan-ed...shout at her and ask her shuddup...in e end i still fail to nt quarrel wif her...wt fish....

in e show...the brothers in e end work tgt to establish their career...tt is my dream too...my brothers and us...set up some business tgt...it might nt be big...but we will be happy....

today book in den tml grandslam le...gg back tekong for field camp..4D3N...is nt easy man...i gonna endure dis shit and aft tt...everythin is over when i return to de company line on thurs...

2 more weeks and i can say bb to charlie....

bookin in so earli feels sucky....

anyway recently has nt been training...keep outfield...i dun even haf time to train during weekend when charlie keeps playin wif our book in book out timing...nvm...nxt week national day...they cnt touch...nxt nxt week...graduation le..we haf to go...YES!!!...

BYE BYE CHARLIE COY!

钱不够用2 is a godlike show....

2008-07-27T19:47:00.003+08:00

going in soon again le....wulala...another cok week..

tdy bball wif brothers...watched run papa run too...rent from videoezy de....

nice show i wuld say....touching...and funni at times...lol...sometimes realli is 人在江湖身不由己 yet u cnt do anythin abt it...ur loved ones tink tt u are juz hopeless...but u dun even haf a choice in de 1st place....

rot at my hse aft tt...watching perfect cut...haha...dog and teo is de last 2 survivors....always 2 of dem remaining at de end de..rot at my hse wif mi..feeling qte shiok to rot wif brothers in a relac mood and juz watch tv and shows....when they leave...i feel qte sad and she bu de...but bo bian...haix....

i gotta miss all these...

i book in straight LSC for de 1st 3 days of de week le...
a bit uncertain and scared sia....
section commander man...
it is finalli my turn to be....

de nxt time i book out...
will it be a friday...
or a bloodi saturday....

3 more weeks...and i will advance into de dark...
de nxt vocation....
will i win...
or will i lose...

2008-07-27T01:01:00.002+08:00

dis week is 1 of de worst week ever...in charlie...perhaps in my entire NS life...de whole company morale has reached de btm...when my bunk mates and mi go back to bunk...i can onli hear vulgars...every1 was kp-ing....

outfield is a suck thumb....
section live firing is a wet event...muds and muds...we r juz like bangalas....

dunno why...all our major event sure rain de...den make our morale drop lower...
sergents make our morale even lower...

heat rash...
blisters...
cuts...
burns...
abrasions...
splinters...
body aches....

grats...i m juz so tattered and torn...

this whole week...except monday...we haf been sleeping like for ard 3 to 5 hrs a day onli....
keep chiong until past midnight..den nxt morning wake up 5 plus again
den by right fri book out...den too late le so sat...but at least morning la...
yet our platoon and platoon 1 is made to stay back for corrective training...
book out at 1pm..o WOW...wat a LONG weekend for us...

we tried to do wat we can...we do watever we are asked for...
our PC juz say....
"u all are juz useless...i rather train a bunch of dogs...juz fuck off la"
and here goes half day of our sat...
in army context he of coz zai la...serve how mani yrs le and we r juz ppl being made to serve for de sake of serving....
if i ask him to take A lvl wif mi..i can tok him upside dwn and dwnside up...and he is juz useless alrdy....

ppl are born for different purpose...
somtimes de whole system is juz so rigid and cok....
u might find it unreasonable...
but u cnt do any shit abt it...
why?
coz u dun haf de bloodi rank....

march past NTU when we route march at de end of field camp...
see ppl wearing de square hat and de graduation uniform...
we wearing LVB and helmet...
i see my future 2 yrs dwn de road...
heart felt a sharp pain...
i could be in dere as well...
why de fuck m i doing all these stupid things....
and wasting my 2 yrs....
it could be betta if de instructors are encouraging....
but too bad they are not....
they juz made u feel worse...

how encouraging man....to being labelled useless...
sometimes see some of de instructors...
onli noe how to bark...
den ownself sit dere shake leg...
nvr even show a good example...

whole company...wulala....morale low...super sian...
every1 sleepy...wet...hungry...tulan...dirty....
wat can be worse...

play wif book out timing somemore...GREAT MAN

i m nt angry man...seriously....
alrdy reached de point tt anger cease to exist le...
scold until nth to scold le...
kp until no energy to kp le....
they can do watever shit they wan....
i juz gif a stone face...dunno wat the hell is going on...
and tt is it...
juz stone dere emotionlessly....
tinking why m i so suay to be dwn here...
out of so mani company and i got de best....

and when u tink u can take a break...
nxt week is field camp week again!
nxt nxt week another field camp!
nxt nxt nxt week is last week...which got 1 day outfield....

i cnt wait to get out of CHARLIE....
i m juz...
waiting....

SAF = serve and fuck off
i m waitin for tt day...

2008-07-20T18:58:00.002+08:00

de emo session in de suana wif daryl and kr rox to de core...

we say out how we feel and everythin inside tt suana....sayin everythin in our heart...sweating everythin out of our body....woots...wat a shiok feeling...

tdy watch dark knight wif yumin daryl and kr....nice show i wuld say...de plots ar...wa i see le a bit pressure...a lot mind games going ard....but phrases make sense too...i learn things thrugh movies too...

gotten a bit emo when de show ends....is heartening to see ppl sacrificing themselves for de good of de world but show is juz show...in reality...will dere be silent guardians who juz stay in de shadow to watch over u...if u wanna be a guardian of some1...will u be satisfied to keep contributing without the other party even knowing all the things tt u haf done for her...juz hiding in de shadow?

a lot in mind yet unable to express....

i can onli say....

i gonna book in again....

gathering wif frenz feels good...